It’s good to hear you have a book you are reading to distract and enlighten you at the same time. I know it has to be really unbearable every time he pulls out. I’m sure you are trying to figure out a way to give him no choice. I sometimes hate that as men they have so much control. I’m in my two week wait now… AGAIN. I have until Friday to wait. So I thank you for tor your prayers. I’m trying not to think about it. But you know how that goes. And I agree with you, I’m trying not to feel resentment too. I know it’s not completely his fault but my mind just keeps thinking of things he could try doing to help. Like he could stop smoking or he could stop have 3-4 beers every night. Or he could exercise and get back in shape. I know it sounds so stupid and I hate that I even think about it but it’s not to wonder why it hasn’t happened yet. Are we both doing something wrong or is it just me. Anyways, I have my hopes up for you that he will come around and until then I wish you mental peace and that you are able to stop blaming yourself and that you both can enjoy the time you have together stress, worry, guilt and blame free.