continuing chat w/ Lumie the Legend

fun fact, while at work I do read ur messages and it helps me get thru the day, I just upvote them to help me keep track of which messages I am replying to

it takes me time to text and I never like to get you a rushed half azzed reply just bc my managers is rushing me

but I just had to say rlly quick that wow thanks. If ur goal was to make me smile and laugh you succeeded. I do feel better. That’s probably the nicest thing anyone’s done for me over text when I felt bad. I appreciate you a lot. You’re an angel Ria. That made me feel rlly appreciated. You’re the queen of making ppl smile

liking anime suits you lol cuz anime seems pretty sweet like you. Well i guess it depends on the anime sum seem more childish and sweet some seem more hardcore. Do u like the chill sweet ones more or the hardcore actions one? Or both?Lol yea I do think you act like Hina, rlly similar, she seems like u as an anime person

Stupid phone stop glitching

. I’m having a hard time remembering if I replied to this post yet or not lol I can’t remember

Being small also fits you bc u have a cute personality. How smol are you? If you feel comfy sharing. Do u still have any of those stuffed animals, do u like stuffed animals?

yeah not all friendships work out just bc of misunderstandings bad communication and things like that. A sad yet inevitable fact of life. Tho not all friendships have to di.e. But it is good to be prepared for that type of things, since u can’t always predict this stuff.

Show me whatever you rioting you feel comfy showing and I will read anything I would love to hear it.

Im replying on my phone bc I forgot my laptop charger and it’s rlly glitchy, I don’t see how you do this Lumie xD replying on my laptop is a lot easier for me

in that case lumie you seem like u are a super great aunt and I bet ur Neices and or nephews love you. They’re rlly lucky to have an aunt as awesome as you. I think u said u had a Neice right? If I remember correctly

I get what you mean, you’re not serious as in strict or cold. But ur not so goofy as to the point where u don’t take anyone seriously. You’re at a very healthy balance between the two Lumie

sorry if my replies seem Lumie. You’re so nice that I don’t think u mind but still

i remember now that I did reply to this point I think. But I skipped some things idk why

i feel that on then part where u said u adopt some of the characters attitudes and especially the part u said a movie can make u reevaluated a friendship even tho the person did no wrong. I do that too, bc sumtimes movies can get u thinking in ur head.

Yes I dealt with the jealously stuff too. I was jealous of my exs best friend and her parents too. She had jealousy for me too. I read somewhere here that u said movies portray unhealthy romance and I agree. I was more dumb back then and so my past relationship was low key like a dumb romance. We saw the jealousy as proof we loved eachother or sum bull like that. But it wasn’t healthy. Especially not the way we dealt with it. We used to apologize to eachother for talking or hanging out with other ppl. Isn’t that stupid? I was weird in my actions back then, I changed a lot from that and a lot of other experiences too. The first bad relationship phase is normal and happens to most of us, you aren’t alone in that Lumie. We live and we learn

I typed that whole thing and it 7 cups said it seemed like I was in crisis so it deleted my whole post but luckily I had copied half of it so I didn’t have to retype the entire rhing

anyway the reason I’m aaying this is to warn you about that. That 7 cups may just delete ur post like that if you have “triggering” words in it like d.ie or something. I’d hate to have u type me a long reply and lose it all. Idk if u experienced this yet hopefully not

my breaks over now dammit. After work I have my class and then I will reply to you, i rlly can’t wait. I miss talking to you so it aucks I have to waitso many hours. But eh whatever talking to u is always worth any kind of wait. And btw no reading your replies doesn’t cause me trouble

my managers don’t mind much if I look at my phone

but they get annoyed if I spend ten or more minutes straight just texting. They’ll be like uhh hello are u gonna work or not lol

but reading them no they don’t care. Ahh man I’m rlly tired rn. I’m not looking forward to going right to school after work. Wednesday’s are always the worst day for me. Bc I don’t get to go to bed until later. And I have to go to school in person

Also you made a playlist? I am so hype to listen to it, i can’t wait lol. & don’t worry Lumie I am taking my time I just like talking 2 u a lot lol

lol well great minds think alike

can u believe it’s only been like 3 days we been texting like this? To me it feels longer. And usually when it feels like u have known someone way longer than u have, irs a good sign that u get along well

lol yeh I don’t get ppl who like school. I don’t have any friends who like school. They all hate it. I wonder if the school system is different would kids like it more. I liked school in elementary but middle and high school is trash

But if u had to pick ur favorite thing about high school what is it

yes corona started being a big thing where I live around March. School closed for the rest of that school year. I was supposed to graduate the end of May but grauduayed a few months early

not that big a deal but it did allow me to not have to take finals

And it’s pretty possible that if it wasn’t for graduating early I coulda failed lol

lol same there’s been many times my mom or gf had asked me if I heard sum storm or tornado storm and I never hear it I just sleep peacefully thru the thunder lol

I’m glad u sleep deeply. Light sleep and waking easily can be rlly aggravating for those ppl so I’m glad u get okay rest

I check your time zone too Rio. Lol I

i have to make a new post my phones spazzing out

~ questions to Lumester by Mareomallow ~

do you have an experience of something that really changed you, what was that?

a lot of times actually haha. I think the main one has to be a friendship breakup I had. so I had this really nice friend of mine. she used to be very alone before she and I became friends, I don't say that to appear like I had more friends than her, it's just how it was. when she and I became friends, she clung to me because at that time I was her first real friend, her words not mine. we were so good together, I loved her sense of humour and she loved supporting me through everything. slowly she started making more friends and we drifted apart that way. she had new friends to hang out and well, I felt alone now. she would ask me to be the third wheel and eventually, I got tired of it. we didn't speak for a while and then one day we went out for a movie. I will cut this story short. a guy was inappropriate to her and while I was there to support her, I shouted at the guy and well, it wasn't cool. that day was bad. after that I used to talk to the guy though and he and I became nice friends. I think she didn't like it so one day I just made a group of all of us because we hadn't been in touch and she didn't take it well, she said I was just pretending to be her friend when I tried listening to her and asked if I can make up to her, she said "don't be my forking therapist. leave me alone." so I did, and we never talked since. it made me feel really bad. I left a lot of details here and she and I were both toxic for each other and like, it's a long story. so now I keep my distance from people because I don't want to be heartbroken when they leave like this. it made me feel bad that I talk to the guy too, a few weeks ago he confessed his feelings to me and I felt very guilty. I am not talking to him now either and that's another long story. hope you get it. I wrote a poem for my friend right after this incident happened:

I'm a villain in her story, the one she carries close to her heart. I'm all the things that were wrong for her, always the bad part.

I'm the heartbreaker, the one she tells everyone about. Or so silently, hurt herself by recalling the bits, she shouts.

I'm the rainy clouds always there to spoil the day, keeping her from running away and suffocating the goodness, giving her every reason not to stay.

I'm the wrong words written in regret, I'm the painful song she begs to forget, the melody which breaks her apart, oh her poor heart.

I'm everything she never needed but she still asked me to stay, now I'm wondering what happened, what gave her act away?

It's all over as we saw in the hindsight, it came crashing down, taking out the light. It's over, she says.

And I give her a humble smile. I knew she loved the destruction I caused because those are the cards she always draws.

Now she's asking me to leave with the broken pieces I made her bleed. I'm the villain in her story, the one from which she never wanted to be freed.

what's something you wish people knew about you and something you wish they didn't?

I wish people knew that I need a lot of breaks. I cannot deal with humans for too long and when my energy goes low, it's just sad for me then. I go into isolation which isn't the best for me either. I don't know, I don't understand it well enough myself so I get why others don't. they get worried when I go away and I forking hate it that I made them worry. but I also can't help it, I am a sad soul deep inside. I wish they didn't know how emotional I am. I know it isn't a weakness but people don't believe that or so it seems when they talk about it. they'll be like "oh you cry so much", "you shouldn't worry so much", "she was just a friend, it doesn't matter that they broke your heart." when I feel down, they blame my feelings too and I forking hate that. having emotions and feelings doesn't make me a crybaby or too fragile that I would simply break. I cry because it hurts. I worry because I care. it broke my heart because my friend was a part of it. I wish people would just forking understand.

do you ever have trouble apologizing to ppl?

I don't. I apologize a lot actually. for taking up too much space, for saying the wrong thing, for being late, for being early, etc. I don't know. But when I do hurt someone, like really hurt someone and they tell me I caused them pain whether or not I was aware of it, I apologize and ask if there's anything I can do to make it up to them or if there's anything they'd like me to do. if they decide they need time away, I give them time. I wouldn't want someone to be forced to be around me. and I hate that people aren't apologized to often, so I sometimes apologize for others too. I can be forking weird like that. I just feel too bad for people sometimes. I take apologies very seriously. but if someone doesn't deserve that apology, I'd really not get into it, I wouldn't apologize then. like if someone said something mean for no reason and then ask me to apologize, I forking won't. I worry how much fork word I am using lol.

what do you find the most embarrassing and humiliating?

being laughed at for no reason or feeling all eyes are on you. that feels awful. I don't know why but I don't have that good of confidence but I am working on it. I am trying to be a badazz ria. but yeah, for now, I just feel embarrassed when I have eyes on me and my behaviour is being monitored, it's creepy and I don't like it. also just failing to do something in front of others is very humiliating. friends who invite you and then talk to their other friends and ignore you, that situation is humiliating too.

wat kind of clothes do u like to wear?

I personally love dresses but I don't think I look too good on them. I have a weird taste in my clothing. I like sweatshirts, I mostly wear sweatshirts and normal jeans. oh, I also wear Indian Kurti, I like them and I think I look good in them too. I love pyjamas lol. I like wearing long gowns, I do look pretty in them if the colour looks good on me. I guess that's it. I really need to update my wardrobe.

if u could live anywhere where would it be

no hate on India, but anywhere but India lol. I like it here but I would like to be somewhere in Europe or America. there's no particular reason. I just feel like I would like it there more.

have u ever done something illegal? or gotten in big trouble about anything? (parents/school/etc)

nope, never done anything illegal. I never got in big trouble about anything in school either. actually, my mom is a headmistress at my school so I feel like have an image to keep and also teachers are lenient with me because of that. I never really thought of doing anything either. and now I won't be able to because my school is my home, literally lol.

whats ur fav and least fav school subjects

it used to be English, I guess it still is. I don't like my English teacher though. I also like biology and biotechnology, those are very cool subjects. the least fav will be physics and chemistry, yikes. I just don't like them. they can be very hard if one doesn't understand and well, oftentimes I don't. but I can study them, they aren't too bad.

if u could be one age forever what would it be

I think I'd like to stay 18. one of the major reasons is because my 18th birthday was very dull and I did not like that. also, it's kind of the age when you're adult but you're also like not? so you can vibe with some adults and kids like you too if you are good with them. but maybe a bit older would be better when I can get a job and just be really independent, date freely and whatever lol. maybe 22.

what do u think ur mental age is?

sometimes it's 18 because I can be wise and/or smart. most times it is 13 years lol.

wat super power would u want to have?

invisibility or time travel, can I have both lol. they both sound dope. time travel because I want to talk to some people who are no longer alive, like artists or writers, especially writers. and just chill I guess. and invisibility because that way I can be anywhere and no one will see me (but it will be obvious that way).

wats something ppl normally assume about u that is false? if anything

people assume that I might not be in control with my feelings because I seem to be all over the place. it's not true. I regulate my feelings just fine and I am not worried if having them makes me look weak or bad. also, I think people tend to take me to be friendly. I am but I wouldn't want to be friends with everyone (I am sorry if that sounds rude). I like certain people and I don't like putting so much efforts and time in some of the friendships even though the other person might be pretty great. I just can't bring myself to be their friend. I am not unkind to them, I just wouldn't want to share a piece of my heart with them.

are u allergic to anything?

nope, nothing that I know of yet. I would like to know though. what if one day suddenly I have an allergic reaction to something lol. I thought it would be funny to say I am allergic to liars but I don't know.

great mind think alike lol. yeah i never known anyone who likes school uhhh wait did i reply to this one.. lol. oh i did

lol i seen that avocado vine. that little boy is a grateful nice kid lol

bc i know ur secretly a potato and im secretly a tomato lol\

you will get into a college. you're awesome Lumester. you're so awesome. idk why i keep forgetting if I've replied to a post or not. and even when i look at my post its still hard to tell wtf im replying to lol. im gonna catch up so its less confusing for us both

lmoa im glad its not just me who cant tell wat color it is. it looks like a blend of colors to me

im really grateful to have my bor too and thanks for taking the time to understand him and his stuff

yeaaa sucks. i don't joke about misophonia, autism, mental illness or anything

and maybe ill get a second fish and name it queen lmao they can share the tank huh

yeah i think different societies vary when ppl start working. where i live a lot of ppl began working early bc were broke and also for me personally my mom made it known that i wasn't welcome to stay in the house long so i need to save up to move out. im going to have to move out really soon bc shes kicking me out

wat kind of first job would u like to have Lumie?

lol yea dreams are weird af bc the brain is weird. even with ppl who get hallucinations they can be weird af and it just shows how weird the human brain is

lol yea he rage quits

i hate when among us and im the imposter someone says i vent but i didn't even vent

and i hate when ppl vote me out just bc they said im sus haha

i don't feel umconfy with anything you said, don't worry Lumie. all that doesn't rlly bother me\

lol yes you guessed right about the country songs. haha i think they sound pretty good. no particular reason why lol

its so awesome to see you online too Lumie, it makes me feel hype and excited when i see messages from you.

i woulda figured someone like you would have made friends bc like i said you're friendly and loveable. in that case im glad you out yourself out there and im rlly grateful i met you. im glad i was online on that day and got the chance to meet someone as amazing as you Lumie. its an honor to be your friend

even if you didn't make friends it wouldn't have been your fault bc some ppl are just rlly hard to be friends with and not friendly and don't conversate well, it just always depends. but im glad you met some okay people here bc that's wat you deserve Lumie

i was texting and tryna say macaroni but i accidentally typed macarino but i thought ayee another nickname its marino and macaroni. or macareo. idk. macarino

i have a headache for sum reason

you teach me good lessons too Lumester. i think saying i love u is nice, personally i feel awakrd saying it sumtimes. especially to ppl like my bro. but even to my gf sumtimes. im glad that even tho u don't know exactly what it is like u still understand and empathize, you are very smart Lumie. yeah i agree

i think there's a such thing as toxic positity where too much of it is bad. like those ppl who say to always be positive even in horrible situations. even ppl that say always be nice in every situatio

bc cmon that's not realistic and its not healthy either, its natural to b defensive and stuff when ppl hurt u that's just called common sense and protecting urself

lol motherforkers haha that sounds funny

lol i rlly like mareomellow too. its awesome, thnx for helping me think of that name, Rio