Broke up before 4 years but still couldnt move on
I was in a relationship with this person for 2 years and thise were the best two years of my life. I wanted really really good things for us and wanted eternity for us. But suddenly one day he said that he doesnt want to be with me anymore coz he thinks ilwe were better as friends and he tgought he loved me but he couldnt for the entire 2 years we were together. After that it was pretty hard for me to accept the face that he couldnt tell me what was going in his mind while I tried my best to share evwrything which was with me. And worst part is we share the common friends. So even if it is long we have to face each other once in a while. For the last 4 year I have avoidee every aituation to face him because i didnt want to but recently I had meet him in a friends wedding and all this feelings started coming back to me. Weird thing is this still hurts like it used to. I am still mad at him but looking at his face I think was it really worth it to be apart from this person for so long? I know it sounds confusing but I dont know what to do anymore. I am mad still because I still dont know why he did that. I heard from my other friends that he was insecure about himself and he thought i deserve someone better. But wasnt it upto me what I want? Was it so difficult to talk to me about this? May be i would have helped him. I dont know anymore whether to feel guilty or mad at him or sorry for myself that even after all this I am still thinking about him only. What should I do? Any advice on clearing my head would be really helpful