There's a new voice now, that whispers in your ear - one that has no face.

How do I defend myself against lies I cannot hear?

How does one fight a shadow?

The sleepless nights - Im so tired, but Ill stay strong for you.

If holding you in my arms could keep you safe, please know I'd hold you like this forever.

I see the pain flash across your face.. Each time I see it haunt your eyes, I feel it cutting deep, burning into my heart.

The urge to scream like a child at the unfairness of it all is overwhelming, as though a part of me thinks my screams could drown out the voices that haunt you

instead I sit and cry

silently, desperately praying for your world to go quiet - for you to find your way back to me

It hurts to see you hurt

Never forget that you're never alone - it wouldnt matter if you were about to walk through hell on earth, I'll hold your hand and walk beside you every step of the way

Your smile gives me hope, just as it always has, and I'll find a way to remind you just how much you mean to me

I love you

NOTE!!: This is NOT a positive poem. At all.

It's about anger. And depression.

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Feel the music
Make it alive
Let it take over your soul, your mind
Find the sweet thing and
Be a vessel for the corruption inside
Hold on to something dear,
It might save your life
It might make you strong
Then again it might just make you a prisoner inside
Find the madness inside
The beast that you try to hide
Sing to it a sweet song
Make it sleep and it might not devour you tonight

When I'm happy I'm addicted to living and when I'm sad I'm addicted to dying, that's why I spend my life in withdrawl

Blood, the Moon, and a Cat

As I stalk out,
the night cloaks me,
masking my presence,
assuaging my troubles.
As I look up,
The red moon reflect my
luminescent eyes.

Glowing with yellow,
I see the world
as it is meant to be seen,

by few,
because the views of
the many
are irrational

Thoughts
that spin in my head
as I stare at the bright
moon,

and see the rabbit there.
I relax,
less alert,
less aware,
as I stalk out into the night

Darkness
hides my presence
beneath a cloak of the moon and the stars
as I watch
the moon hide.

Crying on a Monday morning

He was always put down

His accomplishments masked by the shadows

Of higher grades and other women

He went unnoticed

While he should have shone

In her eyes hes brighter than the sun

He didnt know better

Taught through destructive ways

His way of love, to shine the brightest

She was always put down

Maybe thats why he felt like home

Accomplishments only to matter

If they lay beneath him

She tried to keep harsh words unnoticed

To not seep into her mind

To make a difference

She didnt know better

Learning love through second chances

Bright eyes, refusing to turn around the other way

Roses are red,

Violets are blue,

So are my eyelids and all cause of you.

So charming at first,

Abusing me last,

I realized soon you were a sociopath.

This is a little exerpt from a song I'm working on, titled "No Promises"

I got no promises
No hope for a pursued sickness
Fallen back on jutting bones
Sinking closer on empty bliss

I got no empathy

Forget all the weekend blind
Nothing left to consume
Nothing left on the mind

At age 3 I was afraid

Of monsters that crawled out from

Beneath and clawed their way

Across the floor and onto my bed.

By 10, I'd outgrown the childish fear

Of fanged beasts and the devil's incarnate.

I was only afraid of the big bad wolf

Prowling the hallways and using my mom's room.

At age 16, I learned to hide my fear of burly men

And swallow the tears that threatened

As he blocked the light and my sobs

Went ignored by my mother.

20, and I'm standing on the edge-

Overcoming my fear of heights.

Remember that time we talked all night?

When the moon glowed and stars so bright?

I remember the dewy grass and your white smile

I asked if you would just stay a while

And you, those white teeth in that smiling mouth

Promised me that, even if all went south

I could always find you, the North Star

And if I called, you wouldnt be far

But you lied to that naïve me

Because when I called you ignored my plea

I didnt want you, I needed you there

Didn't you know where?

I guess thats the paradox of a promise

To you, it scattered like that dewy mist

That we lay on that promising night

For me, it was the only constant light

Today I Stand

Today I will stand

Against the depression

Against the anxiety

Against the loneliness

Against the bullying

I will make my stand TODAY

So now I stand