Intrusive thoughts

@Kaela123sometimes you just need to accept the things not let them go

@squeek I just don't know how. I'm afraid. I know for %100 that I would never act on them, it's just the fact that I'm thinking it. I feel guilty and disgusting.

@Kaela123

Oh goodness, I hear your pain ❤️

Let's get one thing straight. Having these thoughts, being anxious, caring about your boyfriend, wanting happiness for yourself.......none of that makes you guilty or disgusting. It makes you human.

I'm afraid I don't have any magic formula to make it better. In your position, I guess I would try to rationalise those thoughts a little. Is your boyfriend giving you any reason to distrust him? If not, your thoughts are unlikely to come true. In essence, you're worrying over nothing. And although it's hard to stop doing that, it's fruitless. It achieves nothing except to hurt you. So try and be logical here, be kinder to yourself, relax, and enjoy being cared for, being loved. Believe in yourself as someone worthy of that. I wish you peace and happiness.

@BestIcanbe thank you so much. It's just so hard, I thought the thoughts would only last a day and it's been since Saturday night I can't let the guilt go. I know I wouldn't do them, that's not what's scaring me its just the fact I'm thinking them at all.