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Kaela123
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PANIC/INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS
Anxiety Support / by Kaela123
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 March 15th, 2016
...See more I feel like this is the third day I've posted in here I've had no sign of letting up. I'm fearing this is the end and it's going to last forever. I feel so weird and different. I was just fine, I'd been fine on the intrusive thoughts for a good year. Now I've had some awful thought about my boyfriend, Saturday and it's cycled into this awful feeling of utter guilt and numbness. I'm absolutely terrified. I know I'd never do the things the intrusive thoughts say but I can't let go of the fact I'm thinking them. I can't imagine feeling this horrified for the rest of my lfe,I just recently sought help yesterday and I had a bit of hope and in a flash, it was gone that night. I don't even have a psychiatrist appointment till April 5th. I'm so panicked I'm losing mind. Now I have a whole bunch more thoughts that I don't love my family and boyfriend. Will it end!? I'm scared and need hope has anyone had luck with a medication to combat the intrusive thoughts?
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ANXIETY ☹
Personality Disorders Support / by Kaela123
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 March 7th, 2016
...See more I can't let these intrusive thoughts go and it's stupid because I fully know and aware I'd never do them, it's the fact that I'm thinking them that makes me feel so guilty and horrible. I'm terrified they won't ever go away. They're about my boyfriend whom I love deeply. I've never had ANY about him prior and I've had them before but I'm afraid I may never recover this time. I'm so scared. :( what if they truly last forever? What if it gets worse and I can't be around him for fear of thinking these things. I was just fine. I don't understand. I can't let go I keep obsessing, and obsessing and obsessing more about them and I just want this nightmare to stop. I was just SO FINE. Am I ruined forever?
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Intrusive thoughts
Personality Disorders Support / by Kaela123
Last post
 March 7th, 2016
...See more I've had anxiety and depression for a few years now, I'm 22. It's usually one or the other. I've suffered intrusive thoughts before but haven't recently. Well, I've recently fell in love and I'm so happy with him. But every time he leave I have crushing anxiety. I can deal with that. But... Now it's intrusive thoughts as of yesterday I had one about him. My boyfriend. And I CANNOT COPE with it. I love him more than anything and I feel so guilty I could die. I cannot stop obsessing about having them and it's destroying me inside. I'll be okay for a minute and than I remember the thought I had. I'm so scared I'll keep having them and they'll never stop. What if I can't let go? I'm scared.
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