For Kyler Buddy š
Hi Kyler š I hope youāre doing okies šĀ
This is just a little thread Iāve made that can be our forum space (: like we were talking about earlier in TCR.Ā
Edit: Please donāt read/post here unless youāre Kyler or me. š
hey kyler buddy š
Niiiii *hug attack* hey hru missed you
@kylersartpace
kkkkkkyyyyyyllllllleeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrr missed you too. i'm uh not the best lol but surviving and trying. š Howās you kyler friendĀ
@LoveMyMoonflowers
kyler rn is iffy not good but not bad anything on your mind u wanna talk to me about?
@kylersartpace
is there anything ni friend can doā¦? <3 *hugs if okay?* š
Idk. :') tw///grief, loss, mention of sui, please donāt read if it will trigger you: i lost two friends on here. the first oneā¦ my other friend told me they comm1tted :( and the second oneā¦. it was announced hereā¦ turtle passed away. I miss them both so much, itās just been hard.Ā
@LoveMyMoonflowers
turtle...??? the 1 ik....???
@kylersartpace
the ATL turtle :( brilliantTurtle89
@LoveMyMoonflowers
no...youre joking...pls say youre joking....
@kylersartpace
ā¦. š„ŗ
@LoveMyMoonflowers
where....was it said...
it cant be true....it just cant be....
@kylersartpace
I wish i knew what to say. š but the link is hereā¦.Ā https://www.7cups.com/forum/siteupdates/General_2444/RememberingBrilliantTurtle89_331695/
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yeah...i...found it....i dont believe it...i...i cant...
@kylersartpace
š *offers safe hugs - no pressure*Ā
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*hides in hug crying*
@kylersartpace
*big warm hugs* š„ŗ </3 :')
@LoveMyMoonflowers
the tears wont stop...but im not meant to be crying...my parents are awake...ill get in trouble....
@kylersartpace
oh no friend :( me understand. it's okay to cry tbh - it should be okay at least š to merely express our emotions, what we are feeling. i'm sorry your parents would be mad about it if they saw you cryingā¦. :( *hugs* ik it hurts. š grieving with you, kyler friendā¦. we sitting with you and grieving with you, me, and everyone who knew and loved and cared about turtle. š love you kyler friend, i know it hurts. :') I donāt have the right words tbh. i'm not sure what to say. but if you ever need to talk about how your feeling about this ni friend is just a tag away :') Hugs you š i tried journaling to process some of it but couldnāt get many words outā¦. but do you think journaling may help you friend, i know it helps some people process :( Ā
@LoveMyMoonflowers
dont think itll help me...cant find words....
@kylersartpace
I understand š
@LoveMyMoonflowers
sorry im giving really bad responses....also ni...your other friend...do i...know them...
@kylersartpace
your not friend, itās okay. š i donāt think your responding badly at all or anything like that
no friend i donāt think you knew themā¦Ā
@LoveMyMoonflowers
ok...got the tears to stop...for now...but could break again any second....but cant let myself...
@kylersartpace
I'm sorry for the late reply friend :( im here now though, im sorryĀ
@LoveMyMoonflowers
its ok ni...dont be sorry...
@kylersartpace
Okayā¦
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*big hugs* feel like u need that...
@kylersartpace
Hugsā¦ šĀ
Idk I'm just numb again.Ā
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yeah i get that dw...im trynna make me numb...but rn...im talking to my gf...
im not sure whether this happens on your device sometimes :( but this happens on my phone and ipad sometimes, the replies basically get swallowed by the wallā¦.Ā
i'm sorry friend but could you repeat that here because i canāt read the entire thing and if i try to copy/paste itās not working so well :( i'm sorry. š©·Ā
(i might poof cos my mom says we gotta go out somewhere, for some shopping or something)Ā
@LoveMyMoonflowers
all good no need to be sorry
yeah i get that dw...im trynna make me numb...but rn...im talking to my gf...
@LoveMyMoonflowers
hey ni...idk if youll see this today....but would u wanna help me with something...
@kylersartpace
Kyler bean I'm so so so sorry :( I was away, iām really sorry. *** i shouldnāt do that, leave impulsively like that Iām so sorryĀ
this was 3 days ago so iām probably really late but what was it i could have helped with friend :(Ā
@LoveMyMoonflowers
its ok...u can still help...its ehh...a projec....for turtle...
@kylersartpace
oh š©· i see friendā¦ thatās sweet <3 what is itĀ
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i wanna draw a memorial piece with the community of a turtle....and on the shell have words that people give me about...what they feel represents turtle...so im asking others to pick 1 word each....
@kylersartpace
Okay friend š©· how about you make a forum post about this asking the people who knew turtle. maybe you can go to that post and see all the people who replied and tag some of themā¦.? <3Ā
i'm sorry if i seem a little insensitiveā¦. i donāt mean to. i'm still really numb tbh and donāt know what to feel or think. i havenāt processed it completely stillā¦. im sorry if i seem insensitiveĀ
@LoveMyMoonflowers
idk...im scared...plus idk how many ill need....i have 3 so far...do u wanna help?...u dont have to...
@kylersartpace
its okay, i understand <3 but if you want the community to help a bit i can make the forum post asking if you want?Ā
what words did you choose friend š©· I can think ofā¦. loving. Turtle was loving. she loved us. she was like a mom.. she was loving and wise.Ā
@LoveMyMoonflowers
u can if u want....others i asked gave me the words of compassionate motherly and gentle...
@kylersartpace
those are perfect words š©·Ā
she was also fun-loving and funnyā¦. she wasā¦ :') the best turtle in the whole world, really. š©·Ā
I miss herĀ
i donāt mind making a post like that but it would take some time friend
@LoveMyMoonflowers
its ok ni dw i aint beenĀ able to even start it yet....i miss her 2...a lot....since tuesday...i havent really taken care of myself...ive been a mess....
@kylersartpace
š I understand. i been kinda a mess too tbh. tw///thinking about crisisey stuff latelyā¦. but what happened friend :( *hugs if okay?*Ā
@LoveMyMoonflowers
been thinking about stuff 2....but i like have barely ate not slept well...barely getting out of bed....just everything....
@kylersartpace
:( at least itās your summer break but i'm sorry you not been sleeping well and not nomming much friend :( š is there anything ni friend can do to help kyler bean..? <3
@LoveMyMoonflowers
honestly...idk....i really dk how to even help me...let alone how others can help
@kylersartpace
i get what you mean tbhā¦
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yeah....doesnt help when i get shouted at for it all...
@kylersartpace
that certainly wouldnāt help, being shouted at is the worst :(Ā
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yeah...i dont plan on eating at all today....
hi friend š
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Hey hru doingĀ
@kylersartpace
hi <3 idk how iām doing, how are you? <3Ā
@LoveMyMoonflowers
rn im...ehh...very dizzy...and faint...but yeah...what u been up to
@kylersartpace
wait why? whatās happened :( well i been sleeping a lot today and yesterday. on friday my skin had some weird allergic reaction to something :/ i didnāt get much sleep at all that night so i slept the entire day on saturday lol. i'm ok now i took some anti allergy medsĀ
@LoveMyMoonflowers
glad youre ok now and well idk y i am..i get it a lot...but ill be ok im in my bed...
@kylersartpace
i hope youāll be okay :(Ā
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i will be...promise...
@kylersartpace
hugs if okay. <3Ā
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*sicky hugs*
@kylersartpace
*Huggies*Ā
@LoveMyMoonflowers
just be careful so i dont make u sick...
missing u and thinking of you kyler š howās you tonight š @kylersartpace
@LoveMyMoonflowers
missing u 2...rn...im not good...
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*huggwie attack*
@kylersartpace
hugs <3 wuv you kyler bean /p
@LoveMyMoonflowers
love u 2.../p no more leaving me pls....
@kylersartpace
i'm sorry.Ā
<3
do you ever find a song thatās so relatable that you have it on loop for like ages. thatās me rn.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yep...100%... and its ok dont be sorry...
@kylersartpace
i might go itās 3:23 am. iām sorryā¦ ill be on in and out for a bit longer, donāt wanna get caught though
@LoveMyMoonflowers
its ok ni...u need some sleep...i might pass out soon...i dont feel 2 good...heads really hurting...and im really dizzy...and ive been crying so yeah...
@kylersartpace
ill get sleep yeah
wait what happened? can you get some water kylerĀ
@LoveMyMoonflowers
crying...was because i got to talk to my gf...i hadnt head from her since yesterday...and i was really worried...i had her brother tell me what happened yesterday and stuff....but yeah...
@kylersartpace
i hope sheās okay :(Ā
@LoveMyMoonflowers
shes ok...she had..fainted yesterday...and hit her head really hard...im guessing she was also dealing with age regression...because she doesnt really remember much from being in hospital...and her brother said she was acting like a child...(i had to explain to him what age regression is) shes home now...think she fell asleep tbh...
@kylersartpace
oh no š„ŗ v understandable youād be worried about her buddy. a lot happened š sending love to you and to her too. :(Ā
i might go friend it getting hard to stay up and my eyes feeling droopy. iām sorry. stay safe šĀ
@LoveMyMoonflowers
its ok ni sleep well ily /p
@kylersartpace
love you too š /p good morning <3
wait itās 11 am here so does that count as morningā¦? š
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yeah it does...
@kylersartpace
hey. š
@LoveMyMoonflowers
hey...
@kylersartpace
hi <3 whatās up?
@LoveMyMoonflowers
ehhhh the sky?...
@kylersartpace
hehe. i do that too. sometimes i say the ceiling š *hugs if okie*
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yeah so hru
@kylersartpace i'm ok i guess. idk š¤·š»āāļø hruĀ
@LoveMyMoonflowers
im....ehhh...tired but ok ish
@kylersartpace okay šĀ
*doesn't know how to do conversationsā¦*Ā
@LoveMyMoonflowers
dw idk how to do convos either
@kylersartpace hehe. š
@LoveMyMoonflowers
sooooooooo eeeehhhhh wyd
@kylersartpace uh cupsing/replying to something on here lol. thatās it really š wbu?Ā
@LoveMyMoonflowers
about to draw even though ill fail
@kylersartpace awww :( is it a drawing for someone?
friend what makes you say that š„ŗ i'm glad i have you in my life. your my friend š i care about you. I guess i donāt help so well all the time but i do care about you. you donāt have to be sorry for being in my life š and i think itās okie if you take your time with the drawing and work at your own pace friend. I understand the procrastination though and perhaps the different things that might be causing it. š
@LoveMyMoonflowers its not procrastination...i just fully cant do it...and i say it because its true...im sorry for being in your life....im sorry for even existing...
@kylersartpace š
what makes you say that friendā¦ what makes you say your sorry about existing and being in my lifeā¦ i'm sorry your hurting so much right now, but i promise i donāt see you like that. i'm glad u exist
@LoveMyMoonflowers
because its something i need to be sorry for...i shouldnt be in anyones life...i just ruin everything...
@kylersartpace what makes you say that friendā¦ that you ruin peoples lives. you didnāt ruin mine and there are people who would say the same as me friend
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i ruin everyones life ni....i say im gonna do something then never do...im never really there for people and if i try to be....i make things worse....just everything...
@kylersartpace :') ik the feeling tbh š i understand the feeling. It's ok if you say you want to do something and then find you can't bring yourself to do it, or you justā¦ canāt somehow. it happens. I think the real, good friends would understand that. if you said you wanted to do something for them or something and couldnāt do it, i think they would understandĀ
we canāt be there for people all the timeā¦ often times we dealing with our own stuff. some days itās harder to be there for people while other days it might be a little easier. i know you do care about your friends and the people you loveā¦ šĀ
you donāt make things worseā¦ š„ŗ And tbh kyler if you think about it i havenāt helped you much either. i try but i never really help..Ā
@LoveMyMoonflowers ni...i do make everything worse...everyone hates me for it...im gonna go...im gonna lock myself away...make everything better for everyone...
@LoveMyMoonflowers
hey....im...sorry...
@LoveMyMoonflowers hey...