For Kyler Buddy 💜
Hi Kyler 💜 I hope you’re doing okies 💕
This is just a little thread I’ve made that can be our forum space (: like we were talking about earlier in TCR.
Edit: Please don’t read/post here unless you’re Kyler or me. 💜
hey kyler buddy 💜
Niiiii *hug attack* hey hru missed you
@kylersartpace
kkkkkkyyyyyyllllllleeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrr missed you too. i'm uh not the best lol but surviving and trying. 💜 How’s you kyler friend
@LoveMyMoonflowers
kyler rn is iffy not good but not bad anything on your mind u wanna talk to me about?
@kylersartpace
is there anything ni friend can do…? <3 *hugs if okay?* 💜
Idk. :') tw///grief, loss, mention of sui, please don’t read if it will trigger you: i lost two friends on here. the first one… my other friend told me they comm1tted :( and the second one…. it was announced here… turtle passed away. I miss them both so much, it’s just been hard.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
turtle...??? the 1 ik....???
@kylersartpace
the ATL turtle :( brilliantTurtle89
@LoveMyMoonflowers
no...youre joking...pls say youre joking....
@kylersartpace
…. 🥺
@LoveMyMoonflowers
where....was it said...
it cant be true....it just cant be....
@kylersartpace
I wish i knew what to say. 😔 but the link is here…. https://www.7cups.com/forum/siteupdates/General_2444/RememberingBrilliantTurtle89_331695/
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yeah...i...found it....i dont believe it...i...i cant...
@kylersartpace
💜 *offers safe hugs - no pressure*
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*hides in hug crying*
@kylersartpace
*big warm hugs* 🥺 </3 :')
@LoveMyMoonflowers
the tears wont stop...but im not meant to be crying...my parents are awake...ill get in trouble....
@kylersartpace
oh no friend :( me understand. it's okay to cry tbh - it should be okay at least 😔 to merely express our emotions, what we are feeling. i'm sorry your parents would be mad about it if they saw you crying…. :( *hugs* ik it hurts. 💜 grieving with you, kyler friend…. we sitting with you and grieving with you, me, and everyone who knew and loved and cared about turtle. 💜 love you kyler friend, i know it hurts. :') I don’t have the right words tbh. i'm not sure what to say. but if you ever need to talk about how your feeling about this ni friend is just a tag away :') Hugs you 💜 i tried journaling to process some of it but couldn’t get many words out…. but do you think journaling may help you friend, i know it helps some people process :(
@LoveMyMoonflowers
dont think itll help me...cant find words....
@kylersartpace
I understand 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
sorry im giving really bad responses....also ni...your other friend...do i...know them...
@kylersartpace
your not friend, it’s okay. 💜 i don’t think your responding badly at all or anything like that
no friend i don’t think you knew them…
@LoveMyMoonflowers
ok...got the tears to stop...for now...but could break again any second....but cant let myself...
@kylersartpace
I'm sorry for the late reply friend :( im here now though, im sorry
@LoveMyMoonflowers
its ok ni...dont be sorry...
@kylersartpace
Okay…
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*big hugs* feel like u need that...
@kylersartpace
Hugs… 💜
Idk I'm just numb again.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yeah i get that dw...im trynna make me numb...but rn...im talking to my gf...
im not sure whether this happens on your device sometimes :( but this happens on my phone and ipad sometimes, the replies basically get swallowed by the wall….
i'm sorry friend but could you repeat that here because i can’t read the entire thing and if i try to copy/paste it’s not working so well :( i'm sorry. 🩷
(i might poof cos my mom says we gotta go out somewhere, for some shopping or something)
@LoveMyMoonflowers
all good no need to be sorry
yeah i get that dw...im trynna make me numb...but rn...im talking to my gf...
@LoveMyMoonflowers
hey ni...idk if youll see this today....but would u wanna help me with something...
@kylersartpace
Kyler bean I'm so so so sorry :( I was away, i’m really sorry. *** i shouldn’t do that, leave impulsively like that I’m so sorry
this was 3 days ago so i’m probably really late but what was it i could have helped with friend :(
@LoveMyMoonflowers
its ok...u can still help...its ehh...a projec....for turtle...
@kylersartpace
oh 🩷 i see friend… that’s sweet <3 what is it
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i wanna draw a memorial piece with the community of a turtle....and on the shell have words that people give me about...what they feel represents turtle...so im asking others to pick 1 word each....
@kylersartpace
Okay friend 🩷 how about you make a forum post about this asking the people who knew turtle. maybe you can go to that post and see all the people who replied and tag some of them….? <3
i'm sorry if i seem a little insensitive…. i don’t mean to. i'm still really numb tbh and don’t know what to feel or think. i haven’t processed it completely still…. im sorry if i seem insensitive
@LoveMyMoonflowers
idk...im scared...plus idk how many ill need....i have 3 so far...do u wanna help?...u dont have to...
@kylersartpace
its okay, i understand <3 but if you want the community to help a bit i can make the forum post asking if you want?
what words did you choose friend 🩷 I can think of…. loving. Turtle was loving. she loved us. she was like a mom.. she was loving and wise.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
u can if u want....others i asked gave me the words of compassionate motherly and gentle...
@kylersartpace
those are perfect words 🩷
she was also fun-loving and funny…. she was… :') the best turtle in the whole world, really. 🩷
I miss her
i don’t mind making a post like that but it would take some time friend
@LoveMyMoonflowers
its ok ni dw i aint been able to even start it yet....i miss her 2...a lot....since tuesday...i havent really taken care of myself...ive been a mess....
@kylersartpace
😔 I understand. i been kinda a mess too tbh. tw///thinking about crisisey stuff lately…. but what happened friend :( *hugs if okay?*
@LoveMyMoonflowers
been thinking about stuff 2....but i like have barely ate not slept well...barely getting out of bed....just everything....
@kylersartpace
:( at least it’s your summer break but i'm sorry you not been sleeping well and not nomming much friend :( 😔 is there anything ni friend can do to help kyler bean..? <3
@LoveMyMoonflowers
honestly...idk....i really dk how to even help me...let alone how others can help
@kylersartpace
i get what you mean tbh…
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yeah....doesnt help when i get shouted at for it all...
@kylersartpace
that certainly wouldn’t help, being shouted at is the worst :(
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yeah...i dont plan on eating at all today....
hi friend 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Hey hru doing
@kylersartpace
hi <3 idk how i’m doing, how are you? <3
@LoveMyMoonflowers
rn im...ehh...very dizzy...and faint...but yeah...what u been up to
@kylersartpace
wait why? what’s happened :( well i been sleeping a lot today and yesterday. on friday my skin had some weird allergic reaction to something :/ i didn’t get much sleep at all that night so i slept the entire day on saturday lol. i'm ok now i took some anti allergy meds
@LoveMyMoonflowers
glad youre ok now and well idk y i am..i get it a lot...but ill be ok im in my bed...
@kylersartpace
i hope you’ll be okay :(
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i will be...promise...
@kylersartpace
hugs if okay. <3
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*sicky hugs*
@kylersartpace
*Huggies*
@LoveMyMoonflowers
just be careful so i dont make u sick...
missing u and thinking of you kyler 💜 how’s you tonight 💜 @kylersartpace
@LoveMyMoonflowers
missing u 2...rn...im not good...
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*huggwie attack*
@kylersartpace
hugs <3 wuv you kyler bean /p
@LoveMyMoonflowers
love u 2.../p no more leaving me pls....
@kylersartpace
i'm sorry.
<3
do you ever find a song that’s so relatable that you have it on loop for like ages. that’s me rn.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yep...100%... and its ok dont be sorry...
@kylersartpace
i might go it’s 3:23 am. i’m sorry… ill be on in and out for a bit longer, don’t wanna get caught though
@LoveMyMoonflowers
its ok ni...u need some sleep...i might pass out soon...i dont feel 2 good...heads really hurting...and im really dizzy...and ive been crying so yeah...
@kylersartpace i'm ok i guess. idk 🤷🏻♀️ hru
@LoveMyMoonflowers
im....ehhh...tired but ok ish
@kylersartpace okay 💙
*doesn't know how to do conversations…*
@LoveMyMoonflowers
dw idk how to do convos either
@kylersartpace hehe. 💙
@LoveMyMoonflowers
sooooooooo eeeehhhhh wyd
@kylersartpace uh cupsing/replying to something on here lol. that’s it really 😭 wbu?
@LoveMyMoonflowers
about to draw even though ill fail
@kylersartpace awww :( is it a drawing for someone?
@LoveMyMoonflowers well yeah it is but its not the 1 youre thinking of...rn i cant start that 1...cant even start the 1 i was gonna...mother annoying me...
@kylersartpace i'm sorry i know i was supposed to help… with one of them… with the forum thingy.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
yeah but its ok ni...dw about it
@kylersartpace mhm…
@LoveMyMoonflowers if anything...idk if ill ever be able to get around to doing it...
@kylersartpace awww. :(
@LoveMyMoonflowers
sorry...
@kylersartpace you don’t have to be sorry <3 i should be sorry, idk how to help with anything…
@LoveMyMoonflowers ni...u have nothing to be sorry for
@kylersartpace okay…
@LoveMyMoonflowers i do though so yeah sorry...
@kylersartpace No you don’t 💙 i can’t think of anything you gotta be sorry about friend. *hugs if okay* i promise
@LoveMyMoonflowers im sorry i cant do the drawing...im sorry for coming into your life....im sorry for everything...
friend what makes you say that 🥺 i'm glad i have you in my life. your my friend 💙 i care about you. I guess i don’t help so well all the time but i do care about you. you don’t have to be sorry for being in my life 💙 and i think it’s okie if you take your time with the drawing and work at your own pace friend. I understand the procrastination though and perhaps the different things that might be causing it. 💙
@LoveMyMoonflowers its not procrastination...i just fully cant do it...and i say it because its true...im sorry for being in your life....im sorry for even existing...
@kylersartpace 💜
what makes you say that friend… what makes you say your sorry about existing and being in my life… i'm sorry your hurting so much right now, but i promise i don’t see you like that. i'm glad u exist
@LoveMyMoonflowers
because its something i need to be sorry for...i shouldnt be in anyones life...i just ruin everything...
@kylersartpace what makes you say that friend… that you ruin peoples lives. you didn’t ruin mine and there are people who would say the same as me friend
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i ruin everyones life ni....i say im gonna do something then never do...im never really there for people and if i try to be....i make things worse....just everything...
@LoveMyMoonflowers
hey....im...sorry...
@LoveMyMoonflowers hey...
