a chat for keineahnung123 and ray 🙂
hey! how have you been? the holidays were so crazy i am happy they are over now. i am off work today so i am cleaning and rearranging my room. i think the change will be good for me mentally and emotionally. i’ve been feeling pretty good lately. im feeling less lonely. more eager to get out and meet someone new. march will be 1 year since my breakup so its def time to get back out there.
how are you feeling today??!
we got a little snow. it’s so nice 😊
@keineahnung123 lol i forgot the @ hahaha sorry
@raymond1203 heyyy omg i couldnt find the post lol, have seen a glimpse but then lost it hahaha. im glad you feel good and seem to be more over that breakup yayyy, actually its snowing A LOT atm here :)) and i love it, everything is white... How have you beeen these days, youve said better but we havent beeen chatting much lately. also have we talked about new years resoultuions? idk, but im kind of on track with mine, doing veganuary now and its actually not hard for me, have some good and easy recepies i like, i think my parents find it a bit weird haha but whatever. also i wanted to go jogging more, i wanna go 2-3 times a weeek, not exactly on it, have been jogging 2 times this year, but thats okayyish. i discovered how important pace is.i really have to tame mysalf and run SLOWW. so my heartrate doesnt go up. this way i dont have to stop and walk (feels disappointing everythime, eventhough ik its fine) and im not THAT tired at the end, and its much more enjoyable.just feels a bit weird, but its actually reccomended to run really slow so im doing everything right i guess. also got a smart watch (not a fancy one) for christmas and it helps to keep track of my heartrate and pace, but tbh i jst try to run as slow as possible lol.
hey. i’ve been a bit sad lately. i was really hitting it off with a friend but something abruptly changed and now she doesn’t talk to me. it rly stinks. i miss having friends. i haven’t had many since the breakup. and i realized that’s almost a year so i need to get back out there. i’m joining the gym. gonna start going after work. i have my bag packed. today might be day one. depending how work goes.
@raymond1203 hey, so sorry to hear that with your friend, it suck when youre getting mixed signal or dont talk to you anymore... maybe youll get it sorted out tho, but either way going to the gym is great. you have a good attitude, today might be day one. dont expect too much of yourself tho. But just starting is sooo good:)
yeah idk what’s going on with her. it’s all i’ve been thinking about. i don’t want to think like this i don’t want to be hurt by this. i tried reaching out and sending a message. i asked if something happened bc i feel like i lost my friend. i think she saw the message and laughed at me. she didn’t respond. i bring drinks into work for everyone and she didn’t take hers. she left it on the table. she knows she’s hurting me it just isn’t something she cares about. it’s cool i’ll be fine. just sad today.
@raymond1203 hmmm it sucks... but is there any way youre overanalyzing it ? our minds often think of the worst cas scenario. idont think she laughed about you, only a really mean person would do something like that. if im not feeling to good or am under a lot of stress i somtimes dont answer texts and keep to myself. maybe in a few days youre talking again like normal.
i can’t stop thinking about it. i’m so pathetic. i feel like my boy made a move on her. she would def laugh at me. she’s a verrrry tuff person with a big attitude. this actually hurts. i had a close friend for tho first time in a long time. guess i fu.cked it up like i always do
@raymond1203 mmmm so sorry its like that atm. but you are not pathetic. i see why you feel like that, cause i talk to myself the same way , but its not good. You did nothing wrong. if she decides not to talk to you apruptly then she is weird. its not a problem with you, but with her. Also keep in mind people who seem very tough have still struggles like every person. many are qute insecure but would never show it.
i’m sorry. my mind is racing. i need to chill. this may be in my head. it does have me feeling like a pathetic simp. and that’s not me. i’m just rly hurt bc i think something is going on and rly just wanted to help. if she would just talk to me straight up i’d feel so much better. she says she cares but this proves she doesn’t. i was there for her when her mom died every step of the way. i was an aaaamzing friend. that’s why i think it’s my boys fault
sorry for dumping all of that. i feel like such a burden.
it turns out the girl is trying to get transferred asap. she still won’t talk to me. all she said was “yeah we’re cool dude lol” and i know what that really means.
i wish we could just talk straight up. but she explodes very easily. she needs help but doesn’t want it and refuses so there’s really nothing i can do
maybe her getting transferred will be better for me
@raymond1203 heyy sorry i didnt answer sooner. you can dump all that here, dont feel like a burden. It that is a let out for your thoughts and emotionst then thats good, keep on doing that. seems like shes really not well, maybe under a lot of emotional stress and shutting herself up from you. Its her. its not you. please remind yourself you didnt do anything wrong. I see why you feel *** and i guess id feel the samein your shoes, but remind yourself its not your fault. People who arent well sometimes act not nice and are not nice to their surroundings. thats because of their problems. its not fair, but iguess she cant help herself. If she wont let you help her then try and let her be, although ik its hard and it hurts... maybe someday shell get back to normal and you two can talk... offering her to talk and help is all you can do i guess
that’s the best advice! you are a thousand percent right. i’m at work now and im feeling slot better. i have plans to hit
the gym after work but i gotta gget to a membership first. i tried on the ap but it didn’t work so i have to go in.
starting a new routine and im very excited about it. i have off tomorrow. gonna continue the rearranging of my room
hbu any plans this weekend
Heyy, how was it at the gym? Did everything Wenn well? I was at a frinds flat yesterday with somf other friends thst i havent seen for a while, it was good:) hope youre well
that sounds very nice i hope you had fun!
no gym yet. it’s super busy on the weekends. i’m gonna go monday after work
i played hookie from work today lol i figured the other manager was gonna bail again and im tired of it. so i called out.
i was going crazy inside the house so i went for a walk to some department stores. i bought some clothes for the gym. i feel like that’s the typical move for people who do not last long at the gym hahaha but this is something i really want to stick with. i want to do it right. i am very clueless bc i have not been to a gym in a very long time.
maybe you can keep me accountable…i promise to be honest
i am too skinny now so i want to build muscle. i found some protein powder so i can make drinks for breakfast
@raymond1203 omg i just wrote a tex and then it disapperaed :/ have to start new. last thread got too long so startin a new one.
its good to have someone to rant to, thank you:)
i can imagine its annoying to see your ex on *** over and over. is it really bothering you? you could consider blocking her, just so you dont see her profile anymore. i dont think she could see it.
Valentines is a big thing in the us, isnt it? here not tooo much, people gift their partners flowers if theyre nice, but thats about it for most. what did you think of to give to the staff? Thinking of valentines day makes me think of a song lol. its a song by a german singer. she mostly makes songs with kinda sad/dark/deep texts (but in a good way, i love her music). The title is translated: " the love is dead" and she relaesed it last year on valentines day and i love that hahaha
@Keineahnung123 btw i just realized that the sun is shining?!?! lol last days felt like we were living in a clous, soo foggy and cold the whole time, no sun in sight. i think ill get ready, go grocery shopping, need to stock up on some vegan food lol, and i hove i can go for a jog before tutoring, at least the weather seems good and i haven been for a few days