Reconnecting
Hi @helgyafy @tinywhisper11 @mytwistedsoul
I hope you don’t mind me creating this thread. I’m sorry, I haven’t been online lately and I couldn’t find where we’ve chatted before. I think of you all often and the kindness you’ve shown me, and I wonder how you’re doing. I really hope you’ve been well. I’m sending you prayers. Please pray for or think of me too when you have a moment. Please let me know how you’ve been.
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@mytwistedsoul Ok my turn to check on you. ❤️ I just wrote a couple says ago, so I hope this isn’t weird. I had a feeling like your name kept popping up in my thoughts and you might need a kind word today. In case you need to hear this, you are a very special, kind person, and we appreciate you.
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas I'm worried about soul, I hope he's ok
@Tinywhisper11 I’m worried about him too. This was one of the first thoughts that came to me this morning and why I logged on here to check. Holidays can be wonderful and painful at the same time. I hope maybe he is just spending some time focusing on himself. He spreads so much kindness here.
How are you, Lola?
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas I'm ok ❤I've been away for a few days with food poisoning 🙁 I came back yesterday, and no signs of soul anywhere🙁 he would tell us if he died right???😂😂 I'm sorry😂😂😂 yeah! I'm really worried
@Tinywhisper11 Oh no food poisoning is awful. I’m happy you’re feeling better now.
Knowing soul, I don’t think he would want us to worry too much. It’s hard not to I know, this time of year especially. He has said the holidays are difficult. He may just be needing time.
@mytwistedsoul when you come back and read this I hope my talking is ok. Please know it means you are cared for here. You are noticed and an important part of our family here.
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas Of course it's alright for you to talk ❤️ Thank you for the reminder
@Tinywhisper11 That's what happens when you eat vegans (smh)
@mytwistedsoul 😂😂😂😂😂
@BlueDarkAurora Hey. ❤️ I was wondering if you might like to join us here. Your name always shows up on my notifications at the perfect time with the sweetest words. I’ve seen how kind you are to so many here. You seem like a wonderful person to know.
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas that's a great idea ❤ Aurora is a really kind great friend ❤
@Tinywhisper11 <3 :')
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas awwwwww that's so sweet and kind :D <3 Thank you for including me <3 I'm so excited *-*
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas good morning everyone ❤
Did you all know vegan meat is actually really tasty😋 the worst part though is actually catching a vegan😁
New years resolutions? Any one making one??
@Tinywhisper11 Good morning:) I hope you start the new year with so much love and light<3 Keep being you always cause
I haven't made any promises yet but I'll be writing some goals in my journal today. What about you?
@BlueDarkAurora aww good morning ❤ nah! I don't need to make any new year resolutions because I'm already perfect 😁😇
@Tinywhisper11 😂
@Tinywhisper11 yes n_n !!!
@BlueDarkAurora that sounds great! A good time to review and renew goals.
@Tinywhisper11 😂 Vegans are hard to catch because they run on plant power.
I haven’t thought about New Year’s resolutions actually. But I think I already knew as soon as you asked. This year it is critical that I finally learn how to really love myself.
That, and exercising more so I can catch a vegan. 😜
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas 😂😂😂😂 learning to love yourself sounds really great ❤ I could do with a bit more self love myself🙂❤
@Tinywhisper11 You're learning<3 It takes time to unlearn the hate we've been subjected to by people and/or circumstances. It takes time to know what words are truly our own. I'm still at the first step on my journey to self forgiveness and that's okay, it's still a win cause that step came after so much hate and resentment.
You know pain and you know love and maybe your heart just wants to take it all on yourself so that no one suffers but you get to let go as well, you get to feel the love that radiates from your wonderful self. I hope you get to see what we are seeing in you everyday.
@BlueDarkAurora ❤❤ I guess we are all in this journey together ❤❤ I'm so glad I met you ❤ I love you ❤
@Tinywhisper11 me too :D<3
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas How are you doing? <3
@BlueDarkAurora You’re so sweet. 😊
I’m doing ok, thank you for asking. ❤️ I am going through the divorce process after a rough couple of years. There are parts of it that are a relief, anxiety and fear. My nervous system got really stressed out. At the same time my heart is heavy, despite everything I deeply cared for him. Very complicated bond and emotions. I have moments where the emotions are overwhelming, but I’m also distracted with the things I need to get done. I know at some point a flood of my own emotions is coming. I’m trying to take better care of myself so that I can cope as best I can when it comes.
Life sure is complicated sometimes, isn’t it? I’ve been struggling with fears of being alone. I don’t have close family or friends. But my children give me joy. For the moment I feel a sense of trust that everything will be ok. I have no idea what direction my life is going, but maybe that means there’s room for something really great to come in.
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas I strongly believe that good things are coming your way ❤ your a strong lady, your gonna be just fine, and we are all right here for you ❤
@Tinywhisper11 Thank you so much for that. I appreciate you more than you’ll ever know.
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas I'm much better 😁❤ feel sick on and off but all going well ❤
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas I won't say that I can understand what you are going through but I can totally understand all the emotions that rush in following such a huge step. I just let go of something I was working for this year cause I know I deserve better and I'm so glad that somewhere in your heart you know you deserve better as well. The trust that you ignited in yourself is so beautiful and something that I feel proud of :D
I know the fear of being alone is scary but losing our own identity for someone is terrifying as well. The love you gave in this relationship is not lost, it's now turned into chapters in the book of your life. The first time reading through the pages is going to be hard, there will be missing but then there will be lessons learned as well. You're just going to grow from here. Through all this I'm just so glad that your children are with you. I would happily watch the stars fall apart if it meant my mom would find her happiness<3
@BlueDarkAurora Thank you for such a beautiful message. You always have such a way with words. I really like how you said that the love I gave isn’t lost, that made me cry. I like to think of it that way. I don’t want to have regrets. I sort of have a lot of them in my life, but at the same time there’s something inside me that knows I’ve tried my best. I have learned some things, and some things I would have done the same if given another chance. So how can I regret that? I am where I’m supposed to be. Pain doesn’t have to feel like the end. Thank you for caring. ❤️
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas Thank you for saying that and thank you for always being so appreciative of others<3 aaaaand look at how well you expressed things :O what you just wrote is so motivating :D
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas goood morrning friends ❤ I just went duck hunting with my dog😁 didn't catch anything though🙁, maybe I need to throw my dog higher🤔🤔
@Tinywhisper11 You made me think of this old video game.
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas that looks funny😂😂 what is it??
@Tinywhisper11 I think it was just called Duck Hunt on the original Nintendo back in the 1980s. It came with the original Mario Brothers game. It was pretty good technology I think for the time. If you missed the duck like in this gif, the dog would pop up and laugh at you with this annoying sounding giggle. 😂
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas 😂😂😂😂😂 I would shoot the dog😂😂😂😂😂😂
@Tinywhisper11 Oh believe me, I tried. So much clicking that did nothing. 😂
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas :O I remember this, it was so frustrating xD
@BlueDarkAurora Yessss! 😂😂
@Tinywhisper11 xD
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas a firework just went off, only one but it was loud. It's not even close to midnight yet🙁 triggered some flashbacks 🙁 flashbacks are scary
@Tinywhisper11 <3
You're okay<3 You're safe<3 I'm holding you hand<3
@BlueDarkAurora 😭😭😭 thankyou ❤🙂
@Tinywhisper11 I can't stop shaking and crying🙁 maybe I'll just try sleep the bad thoughts away ❤
@Tinywhisper11 okay <3 But if you can't sleep I'll be around for some time<3 Please let your heart know that all your friends are here with you<3
@BlueDarkAurora ❤ Thank you I'm doing ok now ❤❤sleep always helps make things better 😁❤ hugs you tightly ❤
@Tinywhisper11 Oh no, I’m sorry I didn’t see this sooner. I forgot all about people doing fireworks tonight. They are really startling and scary. I’m glad some sleep helped. I don’t know what our time difference is (don’t tell me, anonymity), but if there are any more, try to remember that you are safe in your home and the fireworks are just noises that can’t hurt you. ❤️ Happy New Year Lola ❤️❤️
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas thanks sweetie ❤❤ happy new year ❤❤
@BlueDarkAurora How are you today Aurora? (What do you prefer being called?) Happy New Year to you too! ❤️
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas I'm okay, thank you for asking<3 you've have such a gentle vibe :D You can call me anything you like n_n What about you?
Happy new year<3 I really hope this new year you get to have so many new beginnings and get to know yourself in ways that feel healing and so so meaningful<3 I'll be keeping you in my thoughts<3
@BlueDarkAurora Thank you 😭 you will be in my thoughts too! People here have been calling me Pieces and I like it. 😊 I’m looking forward to getting to know you more this year. I am sending my best wishes towards the things you are working towards for yourself too. ❤️
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas aw that is so sweet<3 Thank you
@Tinywhisper11 Happy new year<3<3<3<3 :D I truly truly hope this year you get to visit so many beautiful places especially beaches<3 You beautiful sweet soul<3
@BlueDarkAurora I love you ❤ happyyy newww yearrr 😁❤
@Tinywhisper11 almost got yeeted @_@
@BlueDarkAurora 😂😂😂😂😂😂
@mytwistedsoul <3 I have you in my thoughts as well <3 I hope you're safe and doing okay<3 Happy new year ^-^
@BlueDarkAurora happy New year soul ❤❤ please be ok ❤
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas gooooodddd morrrniingg everyone ❤ pinch, punch, first of the month
@Tinywhisper11 Good morning:))
@BlueDarkAurora heyyy! Where you sending me😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
@Tinywhisper11 @BlueDarkAurora 😂😂
@Tinywhisper11 haha not you xD
