ocd

@MindonFire6 you're so kind for offering support 💕

anyone have contamination ocd ?

@butterflyy3 kinda? It was worse during the height of covid but now my impulses sometimes override it. Like ill put a fork in the sink then ill get an impulse to eat the last bit of food still on the fork even though its been in the dirty sink. Idk if this answers your question

@butterflyy3 I do, I struggle mainly with contamination ocd (which got a lot worse due to the pandemic for fears of covid contamination) plus elements of magical ocd and just right ocd.

Hello @ivoryApple2943

I have the same experience. I have a fear to contamination, especially during the peak of pandemic. I can literally consume liters of disinfectant alcohol just to ease my anxiety about germs. I repeatedly spray alcohol all over my body, use alcohol every time I touch something.

@Hypergraphia Yes, I can totally relate! It's exhausting and it just makes my world smaller and smaller because of the fear of getting in contact with other people and the outside world in general which my ocd perceives as one big threat! 

Hi! I understand that you certainly don't have to respond to this (extremely long) text, or even have to read it. Have a great day!

Here we go:

I’ve been experiencing some annoying and disturbing obsessions and compulsions that affect my happiness and how safe I feel, also they affect my concentration if I’m feeling anxious during schoolwork. The symptoms def increase when I’m anxious.

I’ve looked at symptoms, and I show quite a few related to ocd (but I know I can’t self-diagnose myself), such as:

-most symptoms of paralysis related ocd (I experience sleep paralysis, so that might have triggered it)

-MANY harm ocd obsessions/intrusive thoughts

-Performing any action over and over, e.g. closing doors

-Rearranging, reordering, organizing things repeatedly

-Changing wording many times in emails or notes

-Extreme need for balance, such placing items symmetrically or walking with the same amount of pressure on each foot

-Lining and arranging my clothes in a certain manner in the closet (rainbow, shirts then dresses then jumpers)

-Usually anxiety over prime numbers and numbers not a multiple of 5 (for example, the number 43 causes me great discomfort..

-(I have Volume OCD, I get stressed and must round up or down u number to a multiple of 5, though it might be too loud or too quiet.

-checking behaviours

(I don’t know if it’s related to ocd, but if I know it is, I can get help on how to get rid of these)

I feel like I want to get tested for OCD, but I'm afraid my mum won't take me seriously when I ask her, or it will cost too much.

I want to figure out if I should ask her and explain it, and if so, how..

Thnx so much!!

HERE ARE SOME REAL LIFE EXAMPLES FOR ME:

For some reason, I feel compelled to make everything even if I haven’t done the same to another side. 

For example, on my keyboard, I feel compelled to press/type the letter that I haven’t been using, just to make it even to the ones I use. 

Like when I’m typing, I rarely use the q or w, so I feel really uncomfortable, as if I am drawn to press them, filling the space. 

Usually on my keyboard and phone I will type those letters just to make it even like thisqwqqw, and then delete it.

Sometimes I have to slide my hand across the screen to fill the empty spaces on it that haven’t been touched.

Not doing this brings me a lot of discomfort, but when I “make it more even” I feel better.

Another example is today, in class, my teacher typed this on OneNote: RAtios. This gave me an unbearable amount of stress and discomfort as well as a bit of anxiety for some reason 😂.

Next, usually, if I scratch my palm on one hand, I feel compelled to mirror that on the other hand, so they feel the same (one usually feels empty until I scratch both). This is the same with nearly every movement my hand makes on certain days. (like scratching one leg, I gotta scratch the other equally)

Lastly, if I find that I wrote something in the wrong spot of the paper, I suddenly feel a surge to scribble that empty space, which usually results in me scribbling over a few notes, and the scribble usually extends to the edge of the page (filling the “empty space”.

Also if I picture a number like 43 (sorry, I just hate that number 😂), I just scribble it out in my mind for some reason. I don’t understand why this happens:(

This mainly is in my mind, as the “empty space is actually not empty compared to the rest of the paper, but my brain just wants me to fill it?

(Sorry, that’s a lot of information)