Tragic Comedy or Comic Tragedy? My Daily One-Liner
First Day, My Way.
That means, I make my own rules...more than one line to begin. Just reminding myself that I am allowed to be less than perfectly positive every minute of everyday. I have more emotions than just joyful all the time.
Last line for today...I am grateful that I do experience joy, and that by experiencing hardships, I am able to recognize true joys.
4/4 ... I want to feel free, so I hope I dream of flying like a swallow or hawk, maybe a kingfisher so I can dip down in the water too.
4/5. I woke up feeling refreshed this morning for the first time in so long I can't remember😃
4/6 felt anxious about upcoming procedures, really about not being able to get the preps right in my head. I cant read them myself or get the things i need to follow them.
4/7 i feel stupid... Mixed up provedure dates with appointments but now have more time to get correct prep directions and what I need.
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4/11 fantastic disability support room chat today. I have been crying a lot when I've been in 7cups community. I don't think that's a bad thing. I think I am finally mourning what was lost so I can continue finding what I have. Seems like I've been fighting so long I never gave myself a chance to grieve after losing all of my faculties and one single day. I am so blessed that many of them have come back and are still continuing to get better after all this time. Grateful for understanding and helpful people at home, online, and other places I go.
@adaptableOcean4193 im proud of you ❤️. Hope you continue to stay strong and god bless.
@compassionateOak202
Thank you. That is very sweet as well as very helpful. I'm going to have to remember that one day at a time thing a little better. I have a tendency to be future-oriented. I guess I want everything right now. I should be spending my time appreciating that unlike so many others I don't have to get up for work. hooray! I would have been calling off anyway... I can't even imagine trying to work, while navigating all this physical and emotional illness But I know plenty here do. I say a prayer for all of you.
@adaptableOcean4193 As a constant worrier and overthinker, I would agree that we need to appreciate what we have now instead of trying to think about the past or the future. I also have so much going in my mind but my heart tells me I'm not ready or fully recovered yet. So it's going to take some time before I can make amends with those I've hurt unintentionally and move on. 💙
@compassionateOak202
I see you working to find the authentic you, the one you recognize as good and loving and sometimes angry and hurt. I'm no expert but I expect allowing yourself to actually feel them instead of numbing them allows us to actually empathize with ourselves and others, and learn to be of comfort to ourselves and others. I bet you have already done some making amends and the rest will follow at the right time. You don't seem like kind of person who deliberately goes around hurting others, But it does happen when we can't think clearly due to our own pains. I think you're pretty amazing, And I have read quite a bit of your posts and threads. I know you have been very helpful to me. I hope there are people who are as helpful to you.
@adaptableOcean4193 I'm very touched by your words, Ocean. It means a lot to me. It's been a slow and steady progress, but I feel like I'm getting there. I'm grateful that I've managed to reach out and find myself a support group as well as people here like you. So it feels like I've gained something new after losing what I had. Anyway, thank you. 💖
