Tragic Comedy or Comic Tragedy? My Daily One-Liner
First Day, My Way.
That means, I make my own rules...more than one line to begin. Just reminding myself that I am allowed to be less than perfectly positive every minute of everyday. I have more emotions than just joyful all the time.
Last line for today...I am grateful that I do experience joy, and that by experiencing hardships, I am able to recognize true joys.
I have forgotten to come here to post a line per day. That's maybe a good thing. I haven't been in the best of spirits but I think I'm coming back around. I am beginning to accept that this might be the best it's going to get physically. I don't really want to accept that because I'm afraid I will give up too soon, but I'm tired And maybe accepting will give me a reprieve.
I was upset earlier today at a reminder of what I cannot do for myself, a couple of people here helped me remember what is important, and encouraged me to both ask for help, and possibly accommodations, as well as to stay calm. I am collecting myself now...In the past week, I have done 3 loads of laundry completely, slept as needed, made progress with my eyes, and was able to go to the hospital cafeteria by myself and carry my coffee to a table without aid. I went back for a salad, then again for cheesecake. A silly way to get lunch, but I did it!!! Oh, I also found out that cheesecake tastes the same whether it is right side up or upside down!
@adaptableOcean4193 Apologies for few days late response!
I love plain cheesecake! I would always prefer it as my birthday cake. Anyway, I'm proud of you for being able to get things done. It's a good reminder to pause and reflect before we choose how we want to react when facing the same usual challenges that affect us.
I love the way you think about your replies and give the people you are speaking with a sincere but positive reply. I hope when you are talking to yourself, you are doing the same. You truly are your own best friend, or should be. I wish I had known that a long time ago. I knew I liked spending time with me, doing my own things, but was so mean to myself in my frustrations at any minor mistake or lack of ability. So much wasted time, except for learning. Always seems like I learn the hard way. I suppose it is true, we best learn from our mistakes.
@adaptableOcean4193 thank you Ocean. It's taking me a while now to be able to forgive and accept myself for what I've done in the past, but getting immense support from you and all others I've met has significantly improved my recovery. It really feels good to know that I'm not alone in this journey. And I'm also truly grateful that meeting and talking to you is part of it. 💖😊
prior comment was for CompassionateOak202
Today was an excellent day. I 'graduated' Occupational Therapy. I will assess and likely move forward to Physical Therapy for Vestibular (balance) Manipulation, then if approved, for strength and stamina.
I was able to turn corners with my walker without having to step backward to keep from falling most of the day. I did not stress my messed up rides today, and figured out a way to get home, even though it took a few hours. I visited Walmart and purchased my own groceries, and made it through that big store on my own without knocking things over, getting too tired, or running over anyone. Thank goodness they actually had one human checking out groceries. Self scan does not work for me. I can't see the bar codes.
@adaptableOcean4193 I'm so proud of you, Ocean! Hopefully everything continues to work well for you. I live in the city so I haven't been to Walmart physically in years. But I do have a local Target store that also has self checkouts the last time I visited. I never got to try one myself, maybe someday. Although doing things alone sounds great, I would honestly stress out if something goes wrong on my end hahaha.