Rain’s Space ☔️

(Tw) 04/06/23

hey.. if you’ve met me before, I just want you to know that I’m sorry. just, sorry.. I’m something useless and broken that you should stay far away from. but you didn’t, or I didn’t, and I’ve left an indelible mark on your life… no matter what happens now, I’ve probably impacted you in some , albeit small perhaps, way.

I just feel I should be apologizing.. for all the times I’ve given you suggestions that I haven’t heeded myself, for all the times I’ve tricked you into believing I’m something more important than I really am, for all the times I’ve made you feel that you would be safer with your guard up.

I just feel so worthless… yeah.. my worth is on the negative side of the scale, actually. Hey- you, who’s reading this: I’m curious.. why are you still reading my worthless content? please don’t think you have to upvote this as a favor to me; I’m not saying anything good or helpful here.

Sorry.. anyway.. just ranting here. At this point, I’ll perish in defeat with the words “I’m sorry” on my lips. not immediately ofc, because my brain is slowly killing me (:

tc and have a good day 😊

Hello Rain! How are you doing? I havent seen you for a while. Hope you are well, take care and have a amazing day or night! 💙

05/06/23

people do awful things to each other, don’t they..? even and especially the ones who claim to be “religious “ or “good people”themselves. i hate that.. people ✨

honorable song mention: “broken”, jonah kagen

06/06/23 ✨ tw ✨

scars.. we love to hate them, don’t we? they’re reminders- of the bad places we’ve been, of the struggles we’ve faced,

of the choices we made. I suppose that they’re also reminders of how far we’ve come.. yes, we may have been in some dark places, but we’re still here, aren’t we..? That we’re here in this moment, with another chance to win.

now.. how to make myself to believe this..?

07/06/23. tw (:

*echo echooo

can anyone hear me? I’m speaking, but no sound seems to come out…I was born with a voice, I think.. but either I forgot how to use it, or they forgot how to listen.. or perhaps both, who knows.

I feel so helpless here.. always getting pushed into decisions. oh, what’s that? i have confidence issues? I wonder why..

I don’t want to think anymore.. im tired. that’s all. i don’t want any more family drama, I don’t want to have to make life decisions in a week, I don’t want to do this anymore.. my home is not a dollhouse, I am not a barbie doll. i am not your puppet. kapeesh? (:

somebody told me something today… someone who means a lot to me shared this quote: “butterflies can’t see their wings. they can’t see how truly beautiful they are, but everyone else can. people are like that as well.” - naya riviera

hhh- I don’t have wings.. I can’t fly.. im stuck. im unhappy when others make decisions for me, but I can’t seem to make decisions for me either (:

fun fun fun.. life is amazing. i am amazinggg 🙂 mhmm. yeah.

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