my journal: various subjects, opinionating, CW at times
The title explains itself.
If you're interested in the ramblings of a middle-aged man with chronic conditions who, at times, sees things a little too clearly for his own good, then read on.
Sometimes I get political, but it won't be all the time.
I don't mind comments in general but if you're going to differ with what I write, that's fine--as long as you can explain your position clearly & reasonably. Rants, shouting & general incoherence will be ignored or flagged, depending on the situation. Try to remember that not everyone else in this world holds your beliefs.
Every so often I may post art or snapshots of projects I'm working on.
If you're still interested after reading all the above, great. (I do wonder at how much time you have on your hands, though)
After reading posts from people here in CupsLand, & one by someone in the other community I'm a part of (it's not about mental illness), I wind up at an observation I've made more than once:
It's amazing how people stay religious, despite all the evidence that we live in a universe that is unconcerned about anything living in it.
....except it's not so amazing, when you remember that people do it out of need.
I kinda miss my own tradition. It would be nice to find a synagogue to go to, re-learn Hebrew & start studying the Torah...hang out with some of my people. But to do all that I first must believe in a god...the god of Abraham & Moses. I'd have to believe that this god exists, that he is omnipotent & omniscient, & that he cares about all of us. And I've always had trouble with that.
I need to package up the stew & put it all in the freezer....maybe I should reheat it & add vegetables, if I can get some this Tuesday...
Am tired tonight
Today was mostly 💩y. My head was flaring so I didn't get much done...now it's almost 10 at night. My ears are still ringing & the head pain is there but I can focus a little bit...if I feel better soon, I'll do laundry.
Also - I added the two cans of veggies to the stew. Packaged up most of it & now it's in the freezer, where it will become five ice blocks with a plastic outer layer. Let's hope the plant parts lighten up the stuff.
In a few days I will be another year older. Which sucks, TBH.
It's weird when you're in one of the chat rooms here, & it just halts for no reason. Not a technical glitch as far as I know...it's like everyone in the room just suddenly runs out of steam. Have seen it more than once. Does everyone just get tired or what?...
Had some stew tonight...maybe my lower tract will handle it okay, now that the corn, okra, etc. have lightened it a bit. I hope.
As a result of sleeplessness due to chronic illness, & boredom, I found this:
@slowdecline48 😳 Omg! 🤣🤣 I think that might be one of the best country songs I've heard in a while! 🤣
...while the S&P & NASDAQ indices bounced back up from approx. 5,762 & 17,760 respectively. We'll see what happens. As usual, the smart thing to do is watch & wait.
Fuksticks.
Two tasks to do today--both of 'em important--& right now I'm back in bed because I'm having a flareup. Head suddenly felt heavier...& my lower back hurts a bit, too.
Only hope is to somehow recover enough before the day is over. It isn't all that likely now because I'm stressed out over the prospect of not getting anything done today.... I hope my prescription doesn't get sent back.
The things I would do to have a robot body built & my brain removed from the useless carcass it's stuck in, & transferred into the new one...yeah. Turn me into a cyborg. I could easily live out the rest of my days without this crippled bag of bones & 2nd-rate organs.
So I finally managed to leave my rented crackerbox & pick up my new pills.
They were prescribed to me to alleviate what I thought & was told was Meniére's disease, & more recently was informed it might be something else. The medicine is supposed to cut down on the head pain, vertigo, & flare-ups thereof...it has this cautionary label:
Are you getting this?
😒
@slowdecline48 Counterproductive comes to mind 😬Â
Out of boredom & sleeplessness, I started cruising around CupsLand... Found a question & decided to answer it, rather thoroughly. You can read it here.
Let the flames begin.
- A local Thai restaurant was doing badly...finally it came under new management last year. There was improvement in the decor, the schedule & most importantly, the food. It looked like the place was on the rise. I didn't go for at least two months...then I checked it on G00gle Maps yesterday. At least two bad reviews & now it's "temporarily closed". And I had hopes for the place.
- A bar & grill in town shut down about mid-year (2024). I was glad at the time because the place had been going downhill for a while before that.
- About two months ago, I discovered that one of the grade schools I went to in my hometown closed its doors in June, 2020. Rising costs & declining enrollment made it impossible for the school to keep going.
Nothing lasts forever.
The earth keeps turning & orbiting mindlessly.
