in the wonders of my mindš.
hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didnāt look like meš§makes sense doesnāt itšsince there can only be one *me*āØone of a kind now arent Iš/sar. one out of 8118835999āØš·can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss youāre also one of a kindš sorrysorry haha :Pš¤im just messing around xDšalso itās 2am- but shush no snitchingš¤«Iāll sleep in a whilešwhen Iām feeling a bit more sane :>šš©·
wanted to have my own space.š for thoughts feelings vents or just anything on my mind.š
to whoever'sĀ coming acrossĀ :'3šplease dont lurk here.š©· I know anyone can have access to this forumĀ :')šbut please be respectfulš©·.(but honestly..I know someone will either way :Pš yāall get crazy nosy haha- itās alright.šnothing too interesting will be here anywayšif you would like to come in and be supportive itās completely okiešbut please donāt make it a regular or "normal" thing if that makes sense. just have a sort of limitšbecause Iād still like this to be just my space ^-^š)
oh btw i skipped skl at some point I donāt remember when but donāt worry it was scary as *** Iām not doing that again š I did it like twice
oh also Iām addicted to vape š¤·āāļøĀ
I love music on a different level nowĀ
music >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
(travis scotttt >>>>)
I forgot to say I have to go
also I randomly started getting nauseousĀ
like I feel car sickĀ
and my head hurts
and
anyways
i need to
i have to to
byee<33
Could you eat something when you get home...maybe that would help...
Ill reply to the stuff later but
i forgot where the crisis lines were šĀ
I kinda need one
right now
andĀ
I looked it up
obviously
but itās like idk
none of those are what im looking for
trust Iāve like went through all of those at some point
and
im looking for that thing that like š maybe im talking abt that time a listener reported me but like it was this big list of all sorts of resources like numbers and textlines and stuff and for different countries it was here but I canāt find it anymoreĀ
oh brb
@iloveyouxx Not sure if it will help, but I foundĀ this. (Yes, it's a safe link)
@slowdecline48
tysm <3 I figured it out back then but this was rlly interesting :0 I just read all of it xD and I donāt like reading. I just needed something to focus on (which..I canāt. I canāt focusā¦on anything.) but yeah this did help fs š¤
how do u feel nauseous if u havenāt ate anything. Is it possible. like not just nauseous like ur literally abt to throw up a three course meal and like you canāt do anything normal or normally because of the nausea. like you canāt talk (i canāt either way cause I lost my voice-) or walk and lying down makes u feel worse but sitting upright makes u feel even worse and thereās no way ur gnna standĀ
nd likeĀ
u canāt drink water
is this nausea or nausea nd smth else ;-;Ā
im not sick.
i donāt even wanna eat tho. first few days I was set on intense exercise and no eating and it didnāt rlly take me a long time to realize I rlly canāt do it. or likeā¦I canāt do as much as I though I could (for he exercise) like my body idk how to explain it I do push myself I do idc if im so tired or my legs are shaking orĀ
oh i have to go lemme speed this up
but yeah itās not that tho itās like
i literally canāt. so now im starving myself even more
and
bro what whatre they saying bro šĀ
i cant
okay i have to go byeĀ
@iloveyouxx like stomach pain, you can get nausea from hunger. Speaking from experience, no medical knowledge, but you know that
Hope youre okay <3Ā
No one can do intense exercise without eating. Whatever gave you the idea that you could?...
I couldn't do that & would never try. The best athletes out there stay fueled up...like five to seven small meals a day, for a lot of 'em. It's safe to say neither of us is anything close to a pro athlete of any kind.
Starving yourself is not a good idea, Nadia. Sit down & have a salad & fruit juice, at least.
@unassumingEyes @slowdecline48
I wrote a long *** *** and the whole page restarts and itās gone šĀ
this is so sad I wrote a lot š that I wouldāve actually wanted to be read šĀ
but itās okay ***. to summarize as much as I can because I can genuinely feel myself lose energy to type rn
but I had to go out nd meet w some of my family this morning bc they jst got back from traveling and like idkĀ
bro š I was gnna vm nd somehow send it here in a link or smth cs my fingers are getting tired but my dads here now
so yeah we were gnna have breakfast and I ate and there was nothing wrong with anything I ate but I had to excuse myself nd spent like 15 minutes in the bathroom throwing up.
a lot of blood. I still have a problem with that :ā) but yeah and all the food I ate
nd
i feelĀ
drained
nd
weaj
okay I canāt anymore byeĀ
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@iloveyouxx the first thing- felt. I wrote a response to slow today...huge...
Its gone- i really dk if i can write another xD
The other thing...hope youre feeling better rn. Lots of love and optional warm hugs
@unassumingEyes Whatever you'd meant the response to be, I hope there was a good reason for it...all of which is to say: did I p1ss you off? š
@slowdecline48 oh dear, no ofcourse not. Should have been more clear, yeah?
No, i was just thanking you for the advice- im really kinda going blindly in my religious studies, so its well appreciated. I'd already been avoiding the new testement, but now i know what to actually go for. Thank you!Ā
And i did ask, are you christian? Its probably obviously, but Id rather not assume xDĀ
Your wise, detailed replies are always appreciated, dont hold back on us!Ā
š¤£ "Christian"? Me?Ā Nooo, never been one.
I've met quite a few Christians in my life, & had some interesting experiences. A few were unpleasant or annoying; other experiences were eye-opening; a couple times it was just ridiculous. š Met a lot of Christians when I lived in Texas (no surprise there) & more where I am now (ditto), & some of them were my friends. I have studied some of Christianity's history, particularly that of the later Catholic church & the early history of what would later be the Eastern Orthodox church. Fascinating stuff, & it meshes nicely with "Western civ". I've been inside a few different churches, even...but I never bought into their faith. Nor have I ever been seriously tempted, though I've seen it do a lot of good for its followers.
I didnāt even know that word censoredĀ
@iloveyouxx Hey, what's happening?
Did you eat dinner? If you did then you kept it down, didn't you?
...this post-meal puking has got to stop. You do understand that, right?
ā¦.
uhm.
I feel like Iāve been depending on ppl too much latelyĀ