in the wonders of my mindš.
hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didnāt look like meš§makes sense doesnāt itšsince there can only be one *me*āØone of a kind now arent Iš/sar. one out of 8118835999āØš·can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss youāre also one of a kindš sorrysorry haha :Pš¤im just messing around xDšalso itās 2am- but shush no snitchingš¤«Iāll sleep in a whilešwhen Iām feeling a bit more sane :>šš©·
wanted to have my own space.š for thoughts feelings vents or just anything on my mind.š
to whoever'sĀ coming acrossĀ :'3šplease dont lurk here.š©· I know anyone can have access to this forumĀ :')šbut please be respectfulš©·.(but honestly..I know someone will either way :Pš yāall get crazy nosy haha- itās alright.šnothing too interesting will be here anywayšif you would like to come in and be supportive itās completely okiešbut please donāt make it a regular or "normal" thing if that makes sense. just have a sort of limitšbecause Iād still like this to be just my space ^-^š)
Iām soscared today us actially off and Iām doing this for nothing
in englsihĀ
the kid that normally sits next to me switched seats (thank goddd š Iām not trying to be mean itās not like I donāt like him cause heās āweirdā I donāt like him cause heās weird and thinks he can say stuff to me and my friends and just act the way he does but anyways idrc)
weāre reading
āreadingāĀ
āno one has a book so everyoneās reading from their deviceā cause we lost our privilege of going to the library cause idk our behavior or smth
i walked in like 20 minutes late (I have a reason) and the teachers usually nice but when I walked in she was already yelling at the class this is how it wentĀ
ā*yelling tone loud xD* bakahkwgeyens I donāt remember what she was saying) blahajalhbka you guys canāt- why are you late.ā āmiss can I talk about it later becau-ā āokayā ābaksgskahajajala continues yelling at classā
and I just walked to my seat
and sat downš
I love how no one cared tho. no one even looked at me or anything and the teacher was just like kinda yelling at me in the middle of yelling at the class and then continued yelling at the class right after so it was like fast and like nothing rlly happenedĀ
bro
theres this guy in my class
hes reallklyyyyyy popular and heās always with like the most popular kids and stuff
and heās chamaki and like actually a jerk heās horribleĀ
but
okay wait weāre going to break
also waitĀ
really fastš
@mytwustedsoul I never even got a notification for the upvotes or reply or anything but I just decided to check just in case and you did reply Iām sorry Iāll read it after school cause I have to go anyways hope youāre okayš
@iloveyouxx It's okay š I been having trouble with notices too. They seem to be hit or miss a lot of the times for me too.Ā
@mytwistedsoul
i didnāt even tag you right š thankyou for understanding š and yeah itās so tricky Iām always scared it wouldāve done that and the person would see me online for a long time and think Iām ignoring it or smth and Iād even talk to them while I havenāt replied still ):
@iloveyouxx You don't have to worry about that with me š I don't have expectations when it comes to people replying - unless it's a check in thread or something. Even then I keep my expectations low lol
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:ā)
bro.Ā
whys it december..
I know itās so random but like
im looking atĀ
the timeĀ
and I see that too
why :ā) whyās it december š like I know
its december because
november past
but it doesnāt feel like december
this is making me feel so weird oh my godĀ
I feel uncomfortable š
I saw a cat. Ā like I think on Friday I was walking back from school and on the stairs that lead to those 2 doors of my apartment I see a cat and the second I acknowledge the cat I drop my bag and take out my school ipad and through those 2 doors you canāt see from there but the people inside can see you and thereās always that security guy sitting there but I donāt really care like anyways look at it look at the cat :3
btw like the whole time I was trying to take photos of her she kept like glaring at me and she was meowing a lottt right at me so I was like maybe she doesnāt like taking pictures š
also
when I put my ipad back in my bag and I was going in my apartment I opened one of the doors and she was about to like run in and I felt so bad but I had to go in quickly because I wouldāve gotten in trouble if I let her inš
i have more cat photos but waitĀ
Iāll brb xD
aw no those are videos and videos donāt pop up here ): well here are some other recent photos of a different cat I saw :3
dont ask where I was
these are some
and yes I needed to capture every movement :3 sheās so majestic to look at Ā
actuallyĀ
Iām almost sure the first cat was a girlĀ
this one Iām not entirely sure
@iloveyouxx Aww it's so cute! I like tuxedo cats š
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can we talk about how *** some parents are at being parentsĀ
like imagine not even being there as a parent to your daughter so the only way you could find out anything about her or what sheās doing is by every night waiting for her to go to sleep just to look through all her stuffĀ
imagine every time your daughter goes to the bathroom you stand outside quietly with your ear to the door (like wtf do you expect to hear *** bro) and even if your daughters just sitting in her room with the door open youāll stand behind the thing literally in the creepiest way just watching her until she notices you or doesnāt and youāll pretend to be doing something or like you were just walking in or somethingĀ
imagine having your daughter talk to other people about you and say she doesnāt consider you a dad but just a part of her childhood traumaĀ
imagine having your own daughter be scared of you for years. and imagine now every time you yell at her for anything she genuinely doesnāt give a *** like imagine now every time youāre yelling at her all she can think about is bro arenāt you the same guy (this whole bit was too rude ***)
imma stop it here
but bro
my dad
i had smthĀ
my dad went through my stuff while I was sleeping and he took it
I got more
hid them better and for longer until he found it and took it again
and it went on 2 more times and each time Iād get moreĀ
this Tuesday when I tell you Iām gonna have like a *** bucket full Ā
I donāt even need that much tbh i want it but Iām not that desperate to own itĀ
im just doing it causeĀ
whyre you taking my stuff
im just gonna get more then
and this time he wonāt even see a glimpse of that ***Ā
anyways
monday and tuesday are off next week
for idk I donāt remember and thursdays off too for academic review day :>Ā
my dads obviously not showing upĀ
and then after that so this week weāll only be in school wednesday and fridays a half day and then one week after that and we have end of term break :>>> which is 3 weeks
i swear I feel like I already talked abt this
also
i kinda just randomly got sad a little while earlier
so Iām gonna go now :> byeee
(this whole bit was too rude i guess*)
whyd so many words censorĀ
I forgot abt that
@iloveyouxx It really sucks that instead of coming and talking with you he sneaks through your things. I know you said you don't give a *** but that would make someone feel a little paranoid about anything they're trying to keep private. I'm sorry you have to deal with all that š
I donāt know why but Iāve genuinely just been so sad lately.
āI dont know whyāĀ
no actually I donāt know why cause like yeah the stuff I go through would make someone sad but like Iām used to it Iām just a lot sadder than usual I donāt want to do anything or talk to anyone and I just feel awful all the time Ā