in the wonders of my mind💗.
hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didn’t look like me🧐makes sense doesn’t it😛since there can only be one *me*✨one of a kind now arent I😁/sar. one out of 8118835999✨🌷can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss you’re also one of a kind💖 sorrysorry haha :P🤍im just messing around xD💞also it’s 2am- but shush no snitching🤫I’ll sleep in a while😁when I’m feeling a bit more sane :>😛🩷
wanted to have my own space.💜 for thoughts feelings vents or just anything on my mind.💙
to whoever's coming across :'3💜please dont lurk here.🩷 I know anyone can have access to this forum :')💙but please be respectful🩷.(but honestly..I know someone will either way :P💛 y’all get crazy nosy haha- it’s alright.💛nothing too interesting will be here anyway💛if you would like to come in and be supportive it’s completely okie💛but please don’t make it a regular or "normal" thing if that makes sense. just have a sort of limit💛because I’d still like this to be just my space ^-^💛)
@yyeyiiLy
replying here if okie💗since the page the convo started in is starting to be pretty far back :0💕hard to find it- :P🩷
(I’m sorry if I seem off. I’m just like dead inside aushqahajajjajiajaj XD🖤)
:P I wish everyone’s pain upon myself :P./gen.💜no one deserves it.🤍I know it’s hard but I know I’m mentally strong and prepared enough to handle it.💜if I was suffering knowing i was helping sum in any way possible I’d suffer with a smile. but it’s not that simple.🩷I was gonna ignore that- "I’ll probably be gone soon anyways" :')💙because ignoring and avoiding is how I deny what I don’t want to hear or know.🩷but. that’d make yu think I just didn’t care.💜which- we all knuw is *beyond* far from the truth :D💖💖I love you sm- :') <3💗the loaf and care I have for yu is endless- like nyan cat :33🌈💖💖💖💖💓💓🎶🌈✨nyan nyan nyan nyan nyan nyan nyan nyan nyan✨🌈🎶so I should say sumthing💗I knuw yur going through sum horrible things🩷struggling so much is so unfairly common now.💜generations change and people change and people- seem to be getting worse by the minute🩷I’m committed to being here for yu- until yu get out of this temporary situation and after💖I want to be here for you.💕I want to help.🩷yur so much more than what yu go through💗and there’s only so little you’ve gotten to see.💜yur life has value- I’m not gonna go on about "whoijsuhns you’d be hurting so any people by doing this blahahaha you’re loved by a lot shnwiuyw" because I don’t know that. but I do know I love you- and I care🩷and to me- you’re so worth fighting for💗luvly yu knuw it actually takes a lot to take sumone to the option of sewerslide. right💙? let’s talk about what yur feeling💗?/nfta.💕but I’m just worried about yu. you have strength within yu to overcome this💖yu knuw luvly me and my frend we made a thought out list together of things that made them happy/better in general💗for anytime they were feeling low💓we could do that💕? or we could create a safety plan for yu💖a personalized safety plan- designed for yu💗luvly- yu know I’m here right- and I love being here more than anything🩷here for *you*💖yu *c a n* get through this and yu totally will💕and we’ll do it together💓I don’t at all want to make yu feel like- like it’s that simple. it’s not. life is so annoyingly complicated and *hard* :P💜it’s not like I’m trying to tell yu "I can help you- you can be helped but you’re just doing this to yourself- I’m here- take it or leave it whisnhsniuns" yu don’t get how much I almost *hate* it when people do that :P like no- "take it or leave it" it’s not that simple bubwqehbixq😭sorry just remmebering sumthing- but I just want yu to know I’m here- if and when yur ready- I’d love to be as *here* as I can, and I’d love to listen and help💗luv yu <3💓
;-;- *looks around to see who yur talking about*- 👀💕*confuzzled*- meee???? T^T💜bruh I look like- I look like-….. idk what I look like but it’s not pretty😭I’m one of a kind✨in the worst way possible💃🏻✨🦕🕺actually tho I’m so fluffling fuglyy T^T💙plus idk why I put those photos cos like that first one was my worst ever😭I was crying in it :3🩷also…TW caps but- WDYM you want my hair so badly omg look at YOUR HAIR😭😭😭😭YOUR HAIRS PERFECT AIGHAYFBUBAYUGB-😭😭😭😭😭literally SHUSH cos I’m offended😭😭😭😭💗/j/lh/lh
burden* :')💙it autocorrects for me too but. to the word gift is odd.💜kiloaf D:💓I meant irl yu goof🩷/lh💕ofcourse I can call yu a good persun💗the best ever persun💖with the best ever soul💓that has goddesses for parents☠️☠️💜no cos actually what are yur genetics my god😭💖
💖kind peoples deserve all the kindness there is to offer💖🐛🐛🐛🐛
hehe.💜i mean by my dumb 7yo idea of jumping I could’ve just gotten badly injured- since I didn’t plan it that high up.💙and I mean now I know- much- simpler TvT ways. to do that- no possible survival and instant- yu know- I should stop talking🩷
smh.💜I didn’t know burden could also autocorrect to someone :P🩷but yus I agree.💙the way I burden the universe is v special :P🤍sumthing no one’s ever seen before anajajajajaj XD💕
🥺just not okay🩷🥺don’t simplify it all up🩷it matters and yu matter💜
D: D: D: D: D: D: D:< eurghhhw*sgtsogyiusbo teachers not knowing how to do their jobbbb- throw a🥖at them-
🥖🥖🥖🥖🥖🥖how🥖dare🥖you🥖mistreat🥖my🥖friend🥖she’s🥖not🥖only🥖gorgeous🥖but🥖she’s🥖also🥖so🥖smart🥖and🥖talented🥖and🥖amazing🥖and🥖it’s🥖about🥖time🥖you🥖start🥖appreciating🥖her🥖🥖🥖🥖🥖🥖🥖smh🥖🥖🥖🥖🥖🥖🥖
awe💕I appreciate yu :3💕but I wouldn’t do that to you🩷I’m xD a lot xD💜
awwwwe💓it’s hard to believe :’)💜I’m happy I know yu🩷
I’m on 3% so I had to summarize it up :P💜I got through..154 months XD💙why does that actually feel so little…
also nvm I got a charger :3💓I’m here for you too💕💕/vvvv(vvvv)gen💖
kiemiluv do yu think we should make a forum :0🩷becos I know no one ever comes here cos yk..who cares xD💜
but I also know sum of my ex friends just come here.💙they don’t upvote anything or talk or post they just show up and watch me say a bunch of depressing miserable emo stuff and they leave :P🖤would yu feel better making a forum for just us two and nu lurkers💗just a thought🩷we talk a lot lmao :P💕💕💖💃🏻
im gonna end this here becos my dads gone and that gives me a chance to start..inhaling XD🩷
TW and becos I accidentally made myself bleed-
I started writing this at 3 and it’s 6 now TvT💜I’m sorry for replying late in general.🩷I don’t mean to- it’s just hard to find the time and energy to sumtimes💙I luv yu (# I lost count-) <33💖take care please💗💕
@iloveyouxx
ur so nice 🥺 im gonna cry- 😭💕 i wish so badly you didn't have to feel this way... i wish i could be there when you cry so you could cry on my shoulder, i wish i could be there when you need a hug so you could hug me, i wish there was a word to ease all of your pain... you have worth and i see it, and im always here for you because i care <3 you're not just something to toy with and pretend to be nice to, i care because you're a person with feelings, and you're an amazing person for that🩷 trust me when i say it gets better, trust me when i say you have all the reasons to stay 💓/gen <3
words cannot describe how thankful i am for your support nadialuv 🥺💜 but reallyyy im not that worth fighting for <3 im js worried abt my littlwe sister is all 💓 (well for the most part anyway)
I- noooo ur my one and only in the most gorgeous way a nadia can be💜 but if you want me to be *completely* honest, i'd say ur a 8/10 /gen💕 which is still gorgeous, ofc. <3 dudeee... my hair is *soo* ugly fugly wugly, like, it's oily and dry and it takes like hoursss to put it in a freaking ponytail that looks decent. or *any* hairstyle that looks decent-
u could never be a burden to me🩷 oh- goddesses for parents💀 ahaha i guess my mom is pretty but i- nooo im like an uglier version of her-
nope. (tw caps) NOPE. do not call yourself a burden >:( you are a gift... duh. <3 anyone can see that. 💕/gen <3
oh my gosh- why are you so funny- that literally made my day, the 🥖-
wow... they just watch you suffer like that ? that's just- wow-
a forum for us wuld be great🩷 <3
...accidentally made urself ...- uhm okie hope u heal <3 sorry if that sounds a bit careless/dry- i swear im not trying to be 😭 uuughhh im so bad at this😭😭 i genuinely hope all the best for u mentally and physically :') please keep that in mind <3
dont be sorry for replying lateee <3 i have no idea what ur timezone is soo... i get u too, but im always low on energy hehhE#WHSEWHIFsdcjhoews okay sorry im a bit chaotic.- I love you too N <3 you take care toooo 💕 i wish so much more for you than i say, dont leave yet 💜 (don't leave *ever*)
sorry if this all sounds a bit brief, by the way, i pulled an all nighter cos of *** and stuff soo... ilysm 💓<3/gen /p
@yyeyiiLy
I was just being genuine😭💕I didn’t even put any thought to my reply I just :P how I feel✨what I think✨and it all reflected on what I said :D💓I never fake care or love💗it’s vvvvvvv hard to not luv yu :P🩷yur too. luv-able :P💗
hey :0💜! I spot a kiemibean trying to switch this on me :0🤍
smhhhh now i have to make this about myself again D:🩷/lh💕sgyhagyhssyghhgwuyhssnjainatyehytw *attempts to switch this on your majesty*💖ki :3 kikiekeikeiekeiekekieke :3 I *love* your bio- sm :3💗
"trust me when i say it gets better, trust me when i say you have all the reasons to stay 💓/gen <3" repeat it to yurself <3
D: D: D: D: D: take that back D: D: D: D: D: D: take it back😭💜go ahead………..
how could yu say yur not worth fighting for🤧🩷yur the most fight-able for persun I know🤧💗very made up terms-✨
is yur little sister okie >:💕did sumthing happen💕/nfta.💕
notice how I slowly just can’t anymore. things no one else notices. but I’m just. trying.
bajajahahahhah -8* :P💜
now that I saw that clearer pfp yu had on earlier- :D I was convinced yu just took out a photo of sum gorgeous kpop idol TvT- and ready to go on a full rant about how fluffing *gorgeous* I’m tired but you broke the scale-
mm i dunno🐛🐛🐛🐛💕a lot would disagree🐛💕
awwe🥖🥖
hehe.💜I’m gonna ignore this part becos I started crying :3 if okie.💜
awe yay okie I’ll make it <3💕
🐛🐛🐛I’m sorry. it’s 5am and I’m just exhausted. </3 I’m sorry- I know you want to help (not really- (‘: )but I know you can’t. I know you try to act like you do but I know you can’t care. I was born to die later on sorry why am I still talking-
are you okay D: :c🩷I luv you more💓💗
:0 I noticed yu switched yur (*cough gorgeous*) pfp to a kittie🥺💜a vvvvvvvv cutuu and adorable kittie w a pretty background <3💕🐾but yur prettiness can’t be compared to :’)💖can I ask why yu switched it <3 or did yu just see a cutu kittie and wanted it as yur pfp :P💗🐾
I love you <3💗💗💕I have to leave for school soon :P🩷take care <3💓
@iloveyouxx
well- that just shows how nice ur sweet soul is 🥺 *searches up for a word in the dictionary to sum up what i see in you* you are... nadia :0 that's the best word to describe you :0 and a very beautiful sounding word hehe 💗
🥺🥺 im trying. <3
in my lil forum post i made i think it has something small about my sis? ✨😊
trying is enough. im always here for you, please know that. <3 nobody suffers alone, right? i won't let that happen to you.
nupe more like +80000*
aaaahhh 🥺 i appreciate you for saying that but i just can't believe you-
a lot *more* would agree
always okie to stick to what you're comfortable with nadialuv 💗
i'll be waiting :3 ✨
i may not be able to help you and i won't force you to see that i care, but i'll just stick with you because that's what friends do, right? 💕
nope im never okay but how can you possibly love me more when my love for you is so big it doesn't even fit in the universe 😭🥺
i just saw a cutu kittie and wanted it hehe-
i love you too N <3 i hope your day isn't *too* bad this time 🥺
chokes-🤍three upvotes- ;-;🩷not me assuming it’s a glitch- TvT💜then there’s other hoomanbeans getting 6+ upvotes on each one of their posts but. It’s still a lot for- *me*.-💙
it’s a glitch TvT-
……………
I didn’t get a notification for any of them- smh cups.🩷
reveall yurselvessss/j/j/j/j/j/j/j/j/j/j/j/j/j/j/j😭💗~
🖤 I luv yu, glitch XD🖤
I swear I’m so tired
Im so tired.
