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iloveyouxx March 17th

hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didnā€™t look like mešŸ§makes sense doesnā€™t itšŸ˜›since there can only be one *me*āœØone of a kind now arent IšŸ˜/sar. one out of 8118835999āœØšŸŒ·can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss youā€™re also one of a kindšŸ’– sorrysorry haha :PšŸ¤im just messing around xDšŸ’žalso itā€™s 2am- but shush no snitchingšŸ¤«Iā€™ll sleep in a whilešŸ˜when Iā€™m feeling a bit more sane :>šŸ˜›šŸ©·

wanted to have my own space.šŸ’œ for thoughts feelings vents or just anything on my mind.šŸ’™

to whoever'sĀ coming acrossĀ :'3šŸ’œplease dont lurk here.šŸ©· I know anyone can have access to this forumĀ :')šŸ’™but please be respectfulšŸ©·.(but honestly..I know someone will either way :PšŸ’› yā€™all get crazy nosy haha- itā€™s alright.šŸ’›nothing too interesting will be here anywayšŸ’›if you would like to come in and be supportive itā€™s completely okiešŸ’›but please donā€™t make it a regular or "normal" thing if that makes sense. just have a sort of limitšŸ’›because Iā€™d still like this to be just my space ^-^šŸ’›)

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iloveyouxx OP August 6th
iloveyouxx OP August 6th

oh and my dad called to, he wanted to tell me to make sure I donā€™t eat too much so I donā€™t gain weight

iloveyouxx OP August 6th

I literally saw him take a picture of me on a hospital bed like can you not and whatā€™re you gonna do send it to the family group chat?Ā 

iloveyouxx OP August 6th

I just think life goes by a little too fast to just sit around and be sad weā€™re all struggling just stop

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iloveyouxx OP August 6th
(by the way, how youā€™re feeling is valid and the things I say are only to me and only apply to me <3 :I)?
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iloveyouxx OP August 6th

I had a friend and afterĀ she thought I was dead she just completely switched up her whole personality

and I feel like itā€™s my fault

what if me being depressing all the time makes people feel forced to say something like I remember that one day I mentioned something I wonā€™t say now but suddenly itā€™s like everyone just :ā€™) well they left again right after but.Ā 

I feel bad I complain too much and I obsess over small stuff in like all of my friendships and I mess everything up


iloveyouxx OP August 7th

I donā€™t know what to say because. I donā€™t want to think about anything bad right now. okay well of course I am but maybe typing it out would make it worse?Ā 

iloveyouxx OP August 7th

I think itā€™s okay to be alone

i guess

im fine without people stressing me out

iloveyouxx OP August 7th

my second uncle (itā€™s easier to think of them by an order if that makes sense? I have 4 uncles) was mad at his daughter (my cousin) for not facing her problems (something about a lawyer test and she made it so that she does it past the time she was supposed to I think and it has a bunch of great opportunities if she makes time to study etc thatā€™s why he was mad) and then I guess to release his anger? he started yelling and saying that my problem is that Iā€™m shy and I need to face my problems and etc et+ cetdtc instead of avoiding them like his daughter.Ā 

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iloveyouxx OP August 7th

Iā€™m not avoiding my problems. and Iā€™m not shy either you ever think I just donā€™t wanna talk to you?Ā 

actually. now that I think about it

"nervous or timid in the company of other people."

but still I donā€™t like the word and itā€™s my problem why do you care. go fix your problems? or talk to your daughter. he said he doesnā€™t wanna talk to her cause heā€™s mad at her.

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iloveyouxx OP August 7th

iiiiiii um sound really mean :ā€™) Iā€™m sorry. *takes it back* Iā€™m not mad at him. Iā€™m not even mad at all Iā€™m just being stupid

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iloveyouxx OP August 7th

I think Iā€™m done with trying to change myself for others

iloveyouxx OP August 7th

I am proudly myself/j