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amiableBunny4016 November 20th, 2022
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Hi everyone,

Im gonna be posting here every week. So.. you may or may not have seen my poems across 7cups or my writing. Anyways, if you have not then thats okay.

Let me introduce myself. You can call me Bunny/Violet/Bun Bun. I am from the UK and I am 13 years old. So I came here to inspire, to love, to show kindness and to be respected. The biggest power on this planet is love and kindness. Humanity is in a state of disaster. Panic. Hatred. But hate never beats love. Because love has more power than hate.

I was bullied for over 6 years. I learnt alot across the years. I learnt to overcome. Learnt to love. Learnt to forgive. I am human. I am not a robot. I am not a stranger anymore. I am me. And if people wanna judge me for who I am then I say.... I forgive them. And I know that they can change.

Like Martin Luther King once said, “Returning hate for hate multiplies hate, adding deeper darkness to a night already devoid of stars. Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate, only love can do that.”

Humanity is changing. The world is awakening. And more and more people are realising the reality. The reality of social media. The reality of trauma. The reality of life. This is who we are. And together we form as 1.

We live in a big world. Scary. Isn't it? But its to beautiful. Its so beautiful how the sun rises. How then stars glimmer every night. How the wind howls. Isn't it? and we dont realise how beautiful it really is until..... we think about it. Think deeply about it and you will find how beautiful it is.

If your feeling alone right now. just know that.....

Your strong. Even if you dont believe it.

Your worthy. Even if you dont believe it.

You can get through this.

I am here for you.

We are here for you.


Thanks for reading, This is me, Bunny and this is my world.

Take care,

Bunny

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amiableBunny4016 OP February 15th
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@mytwistedsoul

eh, i'm fine. 💙 hehehe. thank you soul. is you okay? is today better?

mytwistedsoul February 15th
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@amiableBunny4016 Praise cheesus and be healed!  Better than I was - for now anyway - I lose my grip sometimes.  Thank you for asking 💙

amiableBunny4016 OP February 15th
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@mytwistedsoul

*sends comfort beams* i always like to give the example of learning how to walk. when you first take your steps, you can loose balance at times 💙 loose grip of holding on to something. (i know this example is a bit cliché hehe) you got this :) 


mytwistedsoul February 15th
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@amiableBunny4016 Probably tripped over a chewy crouton 😁😂

*Seriously though - thank you. We'll figure it out eventually I guess. Eventually it has to get better 💙

amiableBunny4016 OP February 15th
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yk whats fun about dealing with tantrums with a little brother? seeing the pain in his eyes as he screams and jumps around. and doesnt listen. 

amiableBunny4016 OP February 15th
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he is having a tantrum when im ill. *** ***.

amiableBunny4016 OP February 15th
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Oof 

amiableBunny4016 OP February 15th
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... I can't do anything anymore... I can't...

amiableBunny4016 OP February 16th
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....isn't it weird..... witnessing strangers do things can be so emotional..... seeing pain in their eyes...... even when im sitting on a bus......

amiableBunny4016 OP February 16th
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standing near a bus stop..... and someone starts a conversation with me...... made the whole lot big of a difference to my day. 

amiableBunny4016 OP February 16th
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i do not belong...... anywhere. anymore. and never will.

amiableBunny4016 OP February 16th
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i- im triggered

LoveMyMoonflowers February 16th
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@amiableBunny4016

what’s wrong bunny friend? 💜 /nfta 

amiableBunny4016 OP February 16th
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@LoveMyMoonflowers

i- she- how....... Ni- 

LoveMyMoonflowers February 16th
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@amiableBunny4016

*gentle hugs for you if okay* 💜

LoveMyMoonflowers February 16th
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@amiableBunny4016

she…? did your mother do something, buddy…? 😞 /nfta 

amiableBunny4016 OP February 16th
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@LoveMyMoonflowers

ni ........ hug ..- she.... please

LoveMyMoonflowers February 16th
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@amiableBunny4016

💜 it’s ok friend. no pressure to tell me anything buddy 💜 it’s ok - me understand it hard especially when we triggered 😞 here with you friend 💜 (if your comfy) 

LoveMyMoonflowers February 16th
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@amiableBunny4016

*hugs bunny tight if okay and doesn’t let go* 💜 

amiableBunny4016 OP February 16th
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...... 

amiableBunny4016 OP February 16th
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when you let your little brother watch YouTube....


Later...





He asks: 'why are their family so happy? Why is mommy always shouting and being abusive?' 

amiableBunny4016 OP February 17th
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my eyes hurt from crying........ too much. 

mytwistedsoul February 17th
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@amiableBunny4016 *offers safe gentle hugs* What has you so upset? 

amiableBunny4016 OP February 17th
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@mytwistedsoul

......why do words hurt so much? 


like no matter how strong i try to be, i always end up like this. like knowing i'm numb to this ***, but her words seem to always get in my head. and it never goes away. it seems like... when a parent tears a child apart, a child wont hate their parent. they will hate themselves. 


mytwistedsoul February 17th
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@amiableBunny4016 I think some of it is the way they're delivered - the context. When we're trying so hard to be good and then to be told we're not. They stick with you and we start to believe them. Our brains are kind of wired so that words affect or experience of the world. And if they're said deliberately - we know they're intended to hurt 😞

You're absolutely right. Having your parents tear you apart - you don't hate them - you end up hating yourself and then you tear yourself apart

amiableBunny4016 OP February 17th
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i could create a whole river from all the tears i have cried in my life

amiableBunny4016 OP February 17th
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just got told to shut up in a chatroom because i was being nice  :') 

amiableBunny4016 OP February 17th
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did they really have to use caps to make me shut up? 

mytwistedsoul February 17th
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@amiableBunny4016 Wow. Where are the mods when that goes on? Should they be there to give reminders of how it's supposed to be a safe supportive place for everyone? 

amiableBunny4016 OP February 17th
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@mytwistedsoul

Yeah no it got sorted out.. I'm fine 

amiableBunny4016 OP February 17th
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i wish i could erase my memory and forget i lived a childhood

amiableBunny4016 OP February 17th
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14.......15........16....17........18........19......20.......21.......22......23......... 24..... 25....... 26.   ............. 27.....28.....2- how long is this gonna go on for

amiableBunny4016 OP February 17th
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dear me,

shut up. shut up. and shut up. and i hate you. :) your welcome. thank me later. 





love from,

yourself

amiableBunny4016 OP February 17th
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trauma 


things you want to forget , but can't. 

amiableBunny4016 OP February 17th
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i lost that child in me...... she is gone somewhere.

amiableBunny4016 OP February 17th
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a conversation with yourself:

hi

how are you

 alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. alive. 



your inside: 

dead. 

amiableBunny4016 OP February 17th
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we grow to live trauma.



trauma lives inside of us

amiableBunny4016 OP February 17th
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momma, do you love me?




of course not.

amiableBunny4016 OP February 17th
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the trauma line ends here. 





and starts somewhere else.

amiableBunny4016 OP February 17th
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remember this? 

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or this? 




just remember that bunny is lost. she isn't there anymore. she's dead.

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