I never expected compliments or love at home. I heard it from someone outside of my house. 

It breaks me. 

they didn't care about me. it was all just a joke to them. you know... Childhood. It wasn't.... Reality. it was all just a laugh and a joke. like once you give birth one, you don't have to take responsibility for that child. twisted reality slowly shredded like bone, and rolled up, beaten and scarred and covered, you hide the child's light that was once in them. you hide away their innocence from the world. 

'your a big girl. Stop crying. That's stupid' 

I'm a big girl. 

'shut up. listen to me. I'm your mom, I know what's best for you. your a child. I'm the adult' 

I'm a child. 

The contrast between being a small child and being the big girl. 

:') my brain just can't.

@amiableBunny4016 *sits quietly with Bunny* She doesn't even know what's good for her let alone a child 

@mytwistedsoul

:') 💙 yeah

sometimes wishing it would end can't be enough :')

anyone here? :')

yep. her love doesnt last. the way she came to my room that night and i slept in her arms....

there she goes again..... screaming and yelling on things that arent my fault.........

she told my brother "why cant you be like your sister"

im glad he is not like me. 

just look at me........

i like to fake a smile through the pain.

this is so relatable

i feel sick....... every time i eat... i feel sick. every time something goes down me, i feel sick. every time i drink water, i want to spit it out. 

i could say this to my mom......

but i think she would beat the *** out of me

my heart is beating so fast

@amiableBunny4016

*sits with Bunny if ok* 💜

i wish i had the same passion on here like i used to....... 

:')

@amiableBunny4016 I'm sorry you're feeling this way but I can relate to this. Some days it takes a lot of energy just to be here

@mytwistedsoul

💙 thanks 

@amiableBunny4016 I understand teenie town is pretty chaotic right now do you think that could be contributing and well - people can take a lot of energy too

@mytwistedsoul

or perhaps its just me and my emptiness. 

devoid of life...... thats how i feel. like a lifeless skeleton. like existence merely sits on the fact that i breathe.

why do i always feel sick,. what the *** is wrong with me

@amiableBunny4016 anxiety can make you feel sick. Can you think of when it may have started?

@mytwistedsoul

i dont know. it wasnt like this before. even when things were bad. its only recently, i feel more sick..... 

@amiableBunny4016 Could it maybe be a flu bug? Are you running a fever?

@mytwistedsoul

probably. i kinda feel hot. its probably just a bug. or just me not eating enough. or me just being a girl and stuff :') 

@amiableBunny4016 If you have a thermometer you could check it quick. Maybe you could have some toast or crackers? Peppermint can help nausea - if you have any mint tea handy or ginger ale 

@mytwistedsoul

our kitchen is almost empty. we have bread and butter. and thats what we have been surviving on for the past few days. im sure my moms laziness helps. 

we had a thermometer. and now it doesnt work anymore . 

life finds a way ✨hehe

@amiableBunny4016 even some bread might help. Unless you have a toaster. The microwave can kind of make toast - sort of - like a chewy crouton lol

@mytwistedsoul

you make me giggle. lol. 

@amiableBunny4016 they say laughter is the best medicine :)  probably not a good idea of you're eating chewy croutons tho 

@mytwistedsoul

c h e w y          c r o u t o n s - new trend of 2024 ✨

i dont know why chewy croutons sounds like a title of a song. 

i found a ladybug to accompany me in my illness :0

@amiableBunny4016 LOL! It does sound like it should be the title of a song. It'll be a number one hit. Chewy Crouton will be world wide :D

Aww she must have come inside when it started to get cold out. :) A very nice spring like visitor for you

@mytwistedsoul

yes it would be #1 ✨ a new trend

yeah, its very cold outside. there have been alot more in my house recently. my little brother gets scared of them, so im tryna get him used to these little creatures. it just gets colder and colder in the uk. lol.  heheheh.

@amiableBunny4016 It's gotten colder here too. And there's more snow on the way. Yay! *Excuse my eye roll lol* I'm ready for spring! I hope you can help him get over his fear of them. They're really good bugs to have around. They eat bad buds that can destroy gardens and flowers

my pfp has been the same for god knows how long......

oof. i threw up some ***. i havent even eaten anything. it was just yellow ***. 

@amiableBunny4016 That's why it's yellow :( your stomach is empty. Maybe try to take little sips of water in 20 or so minutes 

I hope you feel better soon Bunny 💙