do you have anyone to talk to?

myself............

@amiableBunny4016

*sits with bunny* 💙

@amiableBunny4016 *sits with Bunny and Moon* I'm only a tag away. There's no pressure though and I know it kind of feels weird to tag someone and say hey can you talk with me? But you're always welcome to 💙

@mytwistedsoul @amiableBunny4016 

Big hugs for you and Bunny Bean, if okie. 🩵

@LoveMyMoonflowers Big hugs back 💙💙

i cant *** do this anymore. I cant do this. i cant do this.

*** go away. i hate you. i hate you . i hate you. i hate you. please leave me alone. i hate you . stop it. these voices in my head .... just shut up. 

@amiableBunny4016 Sometimes music can help block them out. Something loud and thumping. Metal core - Wage war - Manic  Here is one of many

@mytwistedsoul

hmmm....

@amiableBunny4016 hmmm? No good? That's ok - it's an acquired taste I guess. Would you like to talk about what these voices are saying? 

have you ever tried smiling whilst you have this deep sadness and anger inside of you

@amiableBunny4016

mhm… 💙

anyone here?

@amiableBunny4016

hi… 💜

@amiableBunny4016 *sits with Bunny and Moon* I got sidetracked... a dumpster fire 😅 crazy days

shhh... I'll behave now 😇

@mytwistedsoul @LoveMyMoonflower

Hi ni. hi soul

soul, wat? lol. me no understand. you alright? haha. 

@amiableBunny4016

hehe soul buddys just talking about something we were talking about in my diary forum 🤪

@LoveMyMoonflowers

Ohhh. Sorry. Me misunderstood 💜 I see. :') 

@amiableBunny4016

no worries. 💙

did… i say something wrong? im sorry. i feel like i said something . 

@amiableBunny4016 Aww it's ok Bunny. I was just being weird

@LoveMyMoonflowers I don't think you said anything wrong 💙 There's bound to be some occasional misunderstandings since this is all text based

@mytwistedsoul

mhm…

@amiableBunny4016 I'm ok 😊 just looking for marshmallows

What's on Bunny's mind? 💙

@mytwistedsoul

marshmallows :o *sends marshmallows your way*/ bunny's fine. nothing really. just getting my life together. hehe.

@amiableBunny4016 Thank you for the marshmallows 💙 getting your life together sounds good! Yay you! 😊 Not to sound doubtful but you really mean that? I'm sorry that's sounds lousy from me. Guess I just worry about you. Sometimes I say  I'm ok or things are fine because that seems to be what people want to hear - ya know? Got any tips or pointers for us? 💙

@mytwistedsoul

you know what.... im not okay. but if i tell people im not okay...then what? nothing. nothing changes. the only fact is that i will feel worse. guilt. guilt drowns me. that i will become a burden. a weight on people's shoulders. because i have put enough weight on everyone. and you know what.. i dont even know how to deal with it.... so i dont know any tips or anything..... I dont have answers to any questions.... im 14 years old. and im tired. some people think i just need space and i hate the silents between every conversation... or the silents that fills my heart.... and how words get stuck in my throat.... or the space between every word.... or the empty space in my life..... because im so torn apart in this .. abusive place. im tired . because whats left of words.... whats left of me.....

You're right. People offer platitudes. Say they hope it gets better. I don't mean to add to any bad feelings you're having and I certainly don't want you feeling guilty for adding weight to my shoulders or anyone else's. I wish I knew the right things to tell you. I wish I had answers for all of us. I only worry because I care. I care because I think of you as my friend. But all I can offer and give you is kind written words but I also know that sometimes we need and want more. It frustrates me that my hands are tied that way. I'm sorry I can't do more to help your situation - how sorry I am - for everything 

@mytwistedsoul

And that's true. We can't Do anything. It's worrying. And it's scary. But... That's all we can do. Listen to each other through these screens. 

wohoo.. she is shounting again... someone distract me....... please......... i beg someone to do something

@amiableBunny4016

*hugs you tight if okay*

..........

@amiableBunny4016

sometimes Ni likes to look at pictures of cutu animals. 💛 hehe. me just wanted to share some with bunny bean if okie 🐾 

@LoveMyMoonflowers

aww cute you just made my day first time I smile all day

@LoveMyMoonflowers So many cuddly beings 😊 

@LoveMyMoonflowers

Aw. Thank you Ni 💙✨

~ and here I appear once again~ 

       ~a disappointing appearance~ 

@amiableBunny4016 Never a disappointing appearance Bunny 💙 I always enjoy seeing you 🙂💙 

@mytwistedsoul

hi. 💜 missed chatting with you recently. how's it going? what you up to? also, i read your poetry in your diary thread. 💜 its beautiful. and .. you got this 💜

@amiableBunny4016 I've missed chatting with you too 💙 hmm - it's going I guess. It's a grey dismal day here but it matches my mood so at least we're color coordinated lol

@mytwistedsoul

awww. i know how you feel. <3 im just sitting here listening to "home by edith whiskers" staring at the wall. its night outside, its dark. i like this darkness. i drew on some beautiful stars i had collected near a beach i went to a long time ago and kept. coloured it in black and drew stars on it. hasn't snowed yet. i dont mind snow. honestly.....hehe. has it snowed there?