@amiableBunny4016 Here? It's a big Huge noticable change 😞 not liking it a single bit

@mytwistedsoul

..... nothing in life will ever be the same anymore

@amiableBunny4016 I know 😞 I wish I had some words of wisdom but I don't. Somethings you just can't ever really prepare for 💙

@mytwistedsoul

.............

@amiableBunny4016

sending hugs for bunny bean if okay <3

@LoveMyMoonflowers

*hugs*

At this point I should really be asking myself 

Why am I here.

I don't even login anymore. 

Who even follows this thread anymore 😶

@amiableBunny4016

me 💜 and soul buddy.. and sunnie bean 🥺💕

@LoveMyMoonflowers yes yes @Amiablebunny4016 ❤

@amiableBunny4016 We do but haven't been able to be  around much. Dealing with things in our world. That doesn't mean you haven't been in my thoughts Little Bunny 💙

@Amiablebunny4016 🤗

6 days ago was the first anniversary of this diary thread

@amiableBunny4016

awwe 💜

i've been so selfish recently

@amiableBunny4016

why do you think that, bunny bean? ): me no think your selfish. 

here goes nothing

at this point

there is no point

in continuing

to live 

a nightmare.

@amiableBunny4016

*gentle hugs if ok* 

@amiableBunny4016

hi bunny. i’ve just been thinking of you 🌈 me knows we see you around in forums… but idk i just miss you (': sending lots of love your way 💜 me knows bunny’s been a busy bean lately and life has… been tough (': but i’m proud of you for still being here and for being able to come this far 💙

please try being kind to you bunny bean (': please try. 💜 me loves you! 🌈

born of fire and wind and dust. born into the chaos of the world. and the winds blow around, the sun dips down, the flowers bloom, but no one ever stays. 

@amiableBunny4016
Only those fated will ever stay,
The others will only go their way,

So jus find the ones who are right,
They're worth putting up a fight,
At the end of the tunnel there'll always always be light.

@RakyTacky

.....

these song lyrics are so relatable

"I used to float, now I just fall down
I used to know but I'm not sure now
What I was made for
What was I made for?"

@amiableBunny4016

that’s honestly so relatable bunny bean (': 

i don't like light anymore. mind if i sit in the dark for a while?

the light only reminds me, that someone will take it away from me

@amiableBunny4016 Hey you 💙 I've been Mia. I've missed you. *don't shake your head* I have. I know things are still hard in your world. Things got pretty *** here in my world and i haven't had much time to be here 💙 *offers hugs* 💙 How are you Bunny? 

@mytwistedsoul

hey soul buddy💛 its okie. sometimes things in our own world go a bit crazy and we be extremely busy💛 i hope things getting better for you and i am sending *bunny hugs if okay* . if not you have can a nice big *high five*. 💛  me is fine. thank you for asking. 💛  thank you for your kindness. i appreciate it! 💛 

@amiableBunny4016 I really appreciate that you understand 💙 Tbh - I'm not sure if things are better or not just yet. We've suffered some losses and are mostly numb. *accepts Bunny hugs and give you a high five too just because* 💙 hmm - fine. I'm glad to hear you're fine buuuutttt - idk why I'm sensing a but. Probably because I know what fine means to us here. I hope you know that I'm always willing to listen. I saw somewhere - idk how long ago a post you were looking for an atl? Are you still? I can ask my friend to message you if you'd like. She's really nice 💙 But there's no pressure ok? Much love to you Little Bunny 💙💙

@mytwistedsoul

Hi 💙 I'm sorry to hear about your losses and pain :( take your time and (try) to be gentle with yourself. Me understand life is ups and downs and the downs can be really overwhelming, eventually we feel numb 💙 I'm so proud of you for sharing . Your amazing! 

.. hehe 💙 you is very clever soul. I don't really have any words to explain anything. Just the same really. Life goes on 💙 this trauma will continue. And yk.. we live. We die. And that's it. 💙 I'm getting there. Ah don't worry about atl. I'm fine 💙

Thank you for your help 💙

Bunny 

@amiableBunny4016 May I speak freely with you? You can always delete it or I can. 

@mytwistedsoul

its not crap. its beautiful. its rather inspiring now that i read it 💛 thank you soul. maybe your worries have just come true.... maybe i have just given up. 

here we are . once again. living in a home thats not my own. already left everyone's hearts. 

@amiableBunny4016 I just had an OMG moment when I saw the length of what I wrote. I'm sorry it got so long. Makes me almost wish I would have done a TLDR 😬 I really do care about you Bunny. Even a million miles apart - I care about you 💙 I see the sweet - caring - good hearted and wonderful person you are and I wish so many good things for you 💙

@mytwistedsoul

no i haven't moved. im just saying... it feels like i am living in the same home. but everyday, it feels different. 

this is the desperation yet again..... to be loved. to be seen. to be heard. just once again. 

@amiableBunny4016 Oh I was taking it literally - duh soul - sorry

@mytwistedsoul

does it really matter anymore? probably generational. but hey, it doesnt matter now. because she only makes excuses like "he still loves us". *** ***. if she doesnt love me how is she gonna love him? *** coward doesnt give ***. she as just as bad as he is. 

@amiableBunny4016 I asked about your brother because some parents do have favorites. They can cater to one child and be abusive to another. Women can be jealous of their daughters. Or hate their son's because they remind them of husbands. Knowing the whys doesn't change the fact that the abuse is still happening.