Hi all,

Hold your all doing ok❤️

Today is a bit of story time from me (if I'm honest I don't even know if I have told you all this story before) and then tommorow I will do poetry cos it's kinda late rn.

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When I was 11 (baring in mind I'm 13 now) school almost felt normal. Nothing much. There and here I was bullied but you know school was chilled and relaxed.

But one day my eyes of the world has changed. The danger of 1 single story. A short story changed my whole perspective of the world. it only took 1 girl to meet me and it changed my life

Tw/bullying

I was sitting at lunch alone of course. I didn't have friends. I was just sitting on my own with the food I had been given. I watched children go by as everyone chatted and some people were shouting. It was always like that at lunch time. A girl, very nervous who was younger than me stood there. Asked me "can I sit with you?". I said "of course you can, you didn't need to ask". She stared at her food for a while and I decided to start a conversation. I asked her "you ok?" And she told me..."the boys in your year group keep chasing me and calling me names. They do it nearly everyday. Calling me fat and ugly". She then began to talk about her struggles at home with her mom pregnant. I looked at her and just listened and supported her. Tried to tell her it was ok to reach for help. We even became good friends. Every time she caught sight of me she would come over and hug me with a huge smile. Yet being there for her felt like the world to her. I left that school. No idea what's happend to her now. But my footsteps and my kindness has left marks. Be kind. Starting a conversation can change someones life.

*This is a real story. From my own experience. Please don't be insensitive and assume I made this up. People do go through this. It's not a joke**

Kindness can change the world.

Don't let anyone pull you down, your not what people say, you are what you want to be.

Bunny

heyo,

lol. oof. hope your all good ! i know its hard to be okie and make it sound like everything is okay.. but here is a reminder:

its okay not to be okay

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I have nothing to say really. To be honest, people have been so supportive on my forums. At the start it just felt like a silent crowd and my voice is just never existent. But yes, I was wrong. Thank you all so so so so much for being awesome and contributing to my forums! You all dont know how much that means to me........ hehe.

tagging some amazing friends:

@Sunisshiningandsoareyou (i really hope i didnt miss out on the is like i always did with tagging you) @TabbyCat97 @Tobedoctor @Selflessspruce1515 @YourCaringConfidant

and of course if you no comfy with me tagging you pls let me know lol.

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And yet again just know: that storms pass. the sun rises. the day comes. Nightmares dont last forever. The pain your feeling right now.... The feelings your feeling....... They are a small part of your life. One day the brightest days will come. You will see.

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yeah dont ask i have nothing to write about today. I need some poetry /writing ideas from you all.

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Bunny

I... Love.. you... - poem by @amiablebunny4016

Someone...

Someone once told me they loved me...

I said.

I love you too.

Because I trusted them.

Because I had known them.

Because they loved me.

And then a day came...

Where someone told me...

They hated me.

I lost all my peace and serenity.

I fear.

I fear that one day the world...

The world will hate me..

And turn on me...

And maybe ...

There is no love.

Maybe I was loved.

But no longer loved.

Bunny

the lack of sleep I have😂😭

Hi,

Hope you all are okay.

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This is a vent post so trigger warning: abuse

Me and my mom had an arguement today. And it really made me realise how much words hurt. Told me that even dad is sick of me and doesn't love me. That the world is better without me. That my mental health was fake. Shouted at me. Its was I call mental abuse. Constantly hurting me. Telling me that if I didn't exist her tounge wouldn't hurt so much and her heart wouldn't best this loud. I wonder if she ever feels my pain. I wonder if the world loves me. I wonder if you will ever accept me. I wonder if anyone believes me.

Bunny.

Someone once told me you have to be strong and courageous to live in the scary world.

but how to have courage when you have lost all your strength?

Hey beautiful people,

When you shine your light in the darkness of life , you shine light amongst people, people you love, people you care about , people who we describe as our 'family" or our "friend", we even shine light on strangers. During the day the stars and the moon hang in the sky providing light. To guide us through the dark. And even tho their shine isn't as bright as the sun, small glimmers of hope shine in the sky. In the day the sun rises and a big ball of beautiful light shines amongst us. So even in the dark, life gets better. Even in the day, life will get better. You are your own spark. You have this beautiful flame inside of you. Embrace it love. You got this.

Love,

Bunny

Hello,

Well *** . I got *** up didn't I? I can't even *** reply properly. My life really did get to me badly. Anyways, hope you all are doing well. I know i have been a bit inactive in this corner but yeah. Here is a poem. And even tho I am *** feel free to read it and cry in loneliness with me.

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Protect me-Poem by @amiablebunny4016 (me!)- for my abusive parents

You said.....

You wouldn't let the world hurt me.

You would defend me.

You would be a shield to any harm.

And I believed you.

Because .....

I thought....

You cared.

That you loved me.

And I loved you.

That you heard me.

You were supposed to protect me.

You were supposed to nurture me.

Maybe my vision of the world was just......

nothing.

And you let go of me.

And you turned on me.

And one day....

You showed me your true colours.

Since then....

I have lived.

Survived.

Tried to hide my sorrows.

Stuck in the misery of life.

Hidden in the cries of my soul.

Thanks for everything.

You hurt me enough.

Now its time to let go.

Bunny

Hello all,

Hope everything is going well. Today is just a bit of a short post:

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I always see the world as a chaotic, strange, noisy place. When you sit in a classroom and everyone starts talking and shouting. When you go to a shopping center and all you hear is chatting and noise. When you go out in the park and hear children screaming and shouting on the swings "mommy! Come and push me in the swings" or "I want to go to the slide". Every moment passes. We humans are social creatures. Sometimes you just want silence. To sit in a silent place. But even in silence. Our silence gets broken. And chaos returns.