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The Grove of a Spruce Tree 🌲

selflessSpruce1515 March 9th, 2022

Hello! You can call me Spruce. I just discovered this interesting diary entry section of 7 Cups, and this is something I’ve been looking for. I need a place where I can spill out all of my thoughts without criticism, and that’s not something I can really rely on through 1:1 chats (even though I haven’t been here for that long, it’s my upfront impression).

I would prefer to keep this as a space for myself, but if anyone would like to send supportive comments for my post, just dive right in! I don’t mind at all 😊

So for anyone who may be reading this, there may be some rough topics such as family stress, severe self-hate, and some pretty graphic flashbacks (but not too graphic). I will try my best not to make this an inappropriate space, but I just wanted to give a heads up just it case it starts getting to that point.

Donuts are in full supply at all times, so feel free to grab a snack when you travel by 😊 And feel free to greet me when you’re here - I absolutely love meeting new people, and I want to build my support group here on 7 Cups ❤️

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selflessSpruce1515 OP July 12th, 2022

Hello hello, my amazing grove visitors 🤗 ❤️

I wanted to announce that starting this Friday, I will be putting this account on self-care for the rest of my break, which will last until the beginning of September. This means that I will not be available to respond to *any* pm's or forum tags until I return from my break. If time allows, I may temporarily return to respond to some of them, but otherwise, I will not be active here very much.

I really enjoyed the few days when I was on my break from my self-care break, especially for my birthday- you all made that day so special for me, and I cannot thank you all enough for your efforts, which made me smile so bright (and may have brought a few emotional moments, hehe xD). But now, it is time for me to focus on my studies (and on myself in-between), since two important exams are approaching rapidly.

*hugssssss* I love ya all beyond words, and you will be in my thoughts during the rest of my break. Take very good care, everyone 🤗 💖💖💖

(Note: I will not be putting my account on self-care until this Friday, so I will respond to any pm's or forum tags before that date ❤️)

Tagging my grove visitors: @Angelx28 @Sunisshiningandsoareyou @emotionalTalker2260 @Everlee @coldbreeze00 @mytwistedsoul @fearfearfear @BookishBlue13 @AGuardianAngel @Wheeki16 @JennyINFP @SystemFireSkye @CupoSad076 @DonaldDraper @FreddieOnyx @jv13076 @BlueDarkAurora @TryingTBH2021 @taylorhugs12 @elli025 @Wefington @ruggedheart0 @kieran000 @Fluffysheep8 @KaikaiKitan @MelodyoftheOcean @TheRandomEMT @tidyHickory3283 @Swiftygirl13 @Sky9763 @Harsvin @HopieRemi @Iamsidhere @WarmLightXO @GloriaD @VaryingCloud @GoldenNest2727 @shinequeen001

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Sunisshiningandsoareyou July 13th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

Aw you'll be missed, Spruceyyy. Take good care and good luck for the studies/ exams, you got thisss. 💖 Cannot wait for September already hehe. *hugs tight* and *parcels endless hugs for your break* 🤗 Seee youu, lovely friendsiee. 💖

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selflessSpruce1515 OP July 13th, 2022

@Sunisshiningandsoareyou

*hugs tight and accepts the parcels* I'll miss ya so much, Sunny Sunnnnnn 🥺 Tanku so much for everything, and for the best wishes too 🤗 I send you the very best as well, and keep on shining with those radiant beams of yours, my dear friendsie 💖💖

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VaryingCloud July 13th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

May that bright smile on your face never fade Spruce!💖 Study well!!! Best of luck once again for the preparations and exams!💖 See you soon! 🤗

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selflessSpruce1515 OP July 13th, 2022

@VaryingCloud

Aww, Cloudddd 🥺 Hehe, I'll do the best I can to keep on smiling, and thank you for the best of luck 🤗 ❤️ See ya soon, and I'll miss youuuu 💖💖

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VaryingCloud July 15th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

Aww miss you too Spruce *hugs*!❤️ (For some reason not getting the notifications.. didn’t get for this one too *sighs*)

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selflessSpruce1515 OP July 15th, 2022

@VaryingCloud

*hugsssss* ❤️❤️

(Smh, I didn't get a notification for this post either :') The tagging system really needs to keep every tag from each thread, and not make them disappear when a new tag is made in the thread 😀 But even then, they miss tags *also sighs*)

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VaryingCloud July 15th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515 🤗

*sighs together*

But we still are so pro that we find them xD (positive twist hehe) So yay! 😀

Hope you’re studying well! ❤️ : )


selflessSpruce1515 OP July 15th, 2022

@VaryingCloud

Yessssss, our detective skills our on-point, so there's a positive 🕵️

And my studying is going as well as it can for right now, thank youuuuu 🤗 💖

(I was just about to tag myself for like the 5th time today, but I caught myself 😌)

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VaryingCloud July 15th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

🕵️‍♀️ Indeed! Hehe

Glad to know that about your studies 🤗 Keep up the great work!💖

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selflessSpruce1515 OP July 13th, 2022

Update: I will be putting my account on self-care starting today, since I will not be online tomorrow. However, if I am able to be on my computer on Friday, then I will temporarily return to respond to any forum tags. ❤️ If not, I wish you all the veryyyyy best, and I will see ya all in September. 💖

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RhayneClouds July 13th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

Ill miss you spruce. Make sure you are taking care of yourself and your mind. remember that you are amazing! *huggs*

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selflessSpruce1515 OP July 13th, 2022

@RhayneClouds

Aww, I'll miss ya too, Rhayne 🥺 Tanku sooooo much, and you're amazing too ❤️❤️ *hugssssss* 🤗 💖

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mytwistedsoul July 14th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515 Have a nice break Spruce ❤️ wish you all the best on your exams

Miss you ❤️

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selflessSpruce1515 OP July 14th, 2022

@mytwistedsoul

Thank you, Soul ❤️ I wish you the very best, and see you in a little more than a month 🤗 I'll miss ya too 🥺 💖

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GoldenNest2727 July 15th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

I wish you tons of luck. You got this!

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selflessSpruce1515 OP July 15th, 2022

@GoldenNest2727

Thank you so much, Nest! Wishing you the best 🤗 💖

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emotionalTalker2260 July 15th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

*hugs sprucie* 🥺 nooooo, i miss you 😭

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selflessSpruce1515 OP July 15th, 2022

@emotionalTalker2260

*hugssssss and sends tons of plushies* 🥺 I'll miss ya so much, my dear Emosaurus 🥲 ❤️ (🤫 I may be visiting once a week during my break, we'll see- I wouldn't leave for so long without visiting in-between 💖)

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emotionalTalker2260 July 15th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

*hugs* by time you come back, emo may have made 2-4 plushies D:

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selflessSpruce1515 OP July 15th, 2022

@emotionalTalker2260

D: Well, you can make a mystical spruce tree plushie to remember me by 😌✨ Maybe if time allows, I can visit more, but we will seeeeeee 👀 Hopefully my studies won't absorb too much of my time :')

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July 15th, 2022

miss you already ❤

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selflessSpruce1515 OP July 15th, 2022

@DonaldDraper

Miss ya too, Donny Donnnnn 🥺 ❤️❤️ See ya soon 💖💖

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selflessSpruce1515 OP July 23rd, 2022

Hello hellooooo 🤗 ❤️ Wow, it's been a while since I posted here :/ I missed forums so much :') I've spent most of my visiting time in group chats, but I thought it would be a good idea to check on my forum friendsies as well 😛

Here's a little reminder for everyone who needs it 💖

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Tagging my grove visitors: @Angelx28 @Sunisshiningandsoareyou @emotionalTalker2260 @Everlee @coldbreeze00 @mytwistedsoul @fearfearfear @BookishBlue13 @AGuardianAngel @Wheeki16 @JennyINFP @SystemFireSkye @CupoSad076 @DonaldDraper @FreddieOnyx @jv13076 @BlueDarkAurora @TryingTBH2021 @taylorhugs12 @elli025 @Wefington @ruggedheart0 @kieran000 @Fluffysheep8 @KaikaiKitan @MelodyoftheOcean @TheRandomEMT @tidyHickory3283 @Swiftygirl13 @Sky9763 @Harsvin @HopieRemi @Iamsidhere @WarmLightXO @GloriaD @VaryingCloud @GoldenNest2727 @shinequeen001

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emotionalTalker2260 July 24th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

that’s a cute image *not me crying while answering*

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selflessSpruce1515 OP July 24th, 2022

@emotionalTalker2260

Aww 🥺 *super comfy hugs for the amazing Emosaurus* ❤️❤️

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emotionalTalker2260 July 24th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

*hugs* 🥺💖

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selflessSpruce1515 OP July 24th, 2022

@emotionalTalker2260

If you need to talk about anything, I'm here for you, okie? 🥺 ❤️

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emotionalTalker2260 July 24th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

okies *hugs* 🥺💖 *loves apricot* 💖

selflessSpruce1515 OP July 24th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

*hugsssss and loves Emosaurus* 💖💖

selflessSpruce1515 OP July 24th, 2022

We're just gonna change that tag and pretend no one saw that 😀 --> @emotionalTalker2260

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Sunisshiningandsoareyou July 23rd, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

Aww Spruca the eternal smile spreader is here doing just that, yet again. 💖 Thankiees for the wonderful reminder, read it with Sunnie Sun now. 🤗

*tackle hugssss*

You've been in my thoughts, Spruceyyy, so good to see you in forums hehe. How have you been? ❤


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selflessSpruce1515 OP July 23rd, 2022

@Sunisshiningandsoareyou

Sunny Sunnnnnn 🤗 💖💖 *tackle hugs back* I've literally just been thinking of you too, omg :') It's sooooo good to see ya too ❤️❤️

Things have been mostly alright, tanku for asking ❤️ I've been struggling to stay focused on my schoolwork, honestly, but I'm working through it 🤗 Almost done with the last few assignments that I need to get done before I study for exams. Last night was a bit rough for me, but today is much better 💖

How has the amazing Sunny Sun beennnn? ❤️

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Sunisshiningandsoareyou July 24th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

Aww 🤗💖

I'm glad today was better and you've been doing alright mostly. "Alright mostly" is such a #mood and super relatable lol, I've been doing alright mostly too hehe, trying trying, yes, that's all we can do and that's more than enough, even if we sometimes struggle to believe it. ❤

Super duper proud of you always, Spruceyyy, I know you're doing your best (or trying to). Yay on completing the assignments, I bet it's a hassle managing so much, the schoolwork sure is no fun at times, if I do remember though, Spruceyy is one person who does enjoy schoolwork, mhm? :P That's honestly incredible and again, you are doing the best you can, and it is more than enough. You're allowed all the breaks in between too. ❤

And gosh exam season approaching 👀 study well but don't forget to engage in self-care alsooo, youuu so got this. More *hugsssss* 💖

Sunny Sun is doing alright mostly too lol :') ooh but it's raining here, and I kinda enjoy the rainy weather, or like the "after-it-rained" weather, everything looks 10X pretty and nice. Also getting a bit chilly and breezy, the kind I find super cozy and comfy. Love ittttt. 🥰 *is wrapped in blanket while typing this* hehe!


Oooh and a little something for Spruceyy and everyone coming across:

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selflessSpruce1515 OP July 24th, 2022

@Sunisshiningandsoareyou

Awww, Sunny Sun always has the most amazinggggg words to say at the right time, hehe ❤️ Yusssss, trying is the most we can do in a lot of situations, and it's most certainly enough 😌 I've been trying to tell myself that lately, and it's helped for sure 💗

Hehe, Sprucey doessss enjoy her schoolwork ❤️ It just starts getting a bit overwhelming just when it all starts piling up, while anticipating the exam dates fast approaching. Buuuuut, that doesn't mean I'm giving up- I admit, I may have procrastinated a lot last week (🥲). However, I want this week to be different 💖 I want to get everything done before the first exam, which will be in around 3 weeks- I have a goal, and Imma achieve it like the mystical spruce tree I am 😌✨

Yus, I'm also trying to take breaks in between ❤️ I'm thinking of doing some more breathing-related exercises, like yoga and meditation, since they usually help with my anxiety. It's so strange how both activities work for me, and are completely elusive to a lot of people xD I guess being an empath and being able to get in touch with myself easily can help with that, hehe ❤️

Thank youuuuu 🤗 ❤️ I hope they go well- the one exam that's coming up is supposed to be a difficult one, so hopefully I'll make it out of that one xD (I know I will though ❤️) *hugsssss* 💖💖

Aww :') You know, the messages you send me apply to you toooooo, my dear friendsie ❤️ Maybe you're the one who should read them again 😛 Hopefully things start looking up for you too, and be sure to take care of yourself, okie(?) ❤️ Hehe, I have a totally different opinion on rainy weather, honestly xD I guess it really has to do with overcast- it kind of lower my spirit, since I'm so connected with nature, and especially weather patterns :') (don't ask me how- I have no clueeee xD I'm literally able to predict when a storm is coming 1-2 days before 😀)

Buuuut, everyone has their own conditions that they enjoy, and I'm so glad you feel cozy and comfy in the rainy and post-rain weather 🤗 ❤️❤️ Blankets are so cozyyyyy :') ❤️❤️

Awwww, Sunny Sun using their mystical powers to protect me and other amazing hooman beans :') How sweeeeeet 💖💖

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Sunisshiningandsoareyou August 3rd, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

Oh dear I'm so late to this :')

I know Spruceyy is super wise already and soooo glad the reminder has been helping.

Aw any particular reason making you procrastinate? (I procrastinate too doing things lol, so I know it's not easy getting to it when we finally can but yay trying), and yes yes, Sprucey got thissss. Anticipating exams is no fun either, but I hear you've been on track with the studies and again, not surprised coming from you, who gives the absolute best at everything, andddd yesss, you being the mystical Spruce tree will achieve all 'em goals weeee weee, I believe in you always. ❤ yay for taking breaks and engaging in self-care too.

How has the past week been for you? :o

Aww I'm so happy breathing exercises and getting in touch with yourself work for you, and help you calm anxiety, it's amazing when we find something working for us lol, so yay youu!

Hahaha I know you will too *hugssss backkk* 💖

Lol thankyouuu xD and you know what, I agree! I see it the same way actually, I read what I've said to others *always*, something about being kind to self doesn't come as easy as being kind to others (sad, but true lol) so I like this "indirect" way of feeding some kind words in my mind too haha. Almost like "woah if I'm telling this person that breaks are fine, maybe they are fine for me too, or so i can hope to try believing" (🥲) ~ I meannnn these are also the times when I come across my typos lolol, but that's a different story xD

Bottom line, yes yes, we should try to practice what we preach too, I try also. 🤗💖

Aww yes me lovely friendsieee, trying on that front too xD (okieee!🥰) thankieees for being ever so thoughtful and sweet, Spruceyyy, you have a way with your words.

Aw that's completely okay, yes exactly, different people can like different weather conditions. I agree as well, the weather conditions can really affect our mood at times, and the connect is surely felt. I guess I find comfort in gloom lmao 🤭 and Thankyouuu, blankets are indeed so so cozzyyy! 💖

(wow I won't ask how okay lol, but that's impressive😮, to feel so much connected with nature and weather patterns, how cool haha, maybe that's another super power of Spruceyyy, now we knowww 😛 yayyy)

Hehe yessss, sun gotta look out for everyone in the vicinity of their sunnyrays and more :P 💖

*hugs tighttttt*

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TheRandomEMT July 23rd, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

Awwww Sprucceeee, thanks, I really needed this

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selflessSpruce1515 OP July 23rd, 2022

@TheRandomEMT

Randommmmmmmm ❤️❤️❤️ *super tight hugs for you* Long time no see, my dear friendsieeeee 💖💖

Truthfully, you have been in my thoughts too these past few days, and I miss you on the teenie side of cups :')

How are youuuu? 🤗 ❤️❤️

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TheRandomEMT July 23rd, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

Spruce ❤️

I'm not doing OK but it's OK. How have you been?

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selflessSpruce1515 OP July 23rd, 2022

@TheRandomEMT

Aww, I send you the very best ❤️❤️ If you ever need to talk about what's going on, I'm always here for ya 🤗 ❤️ *sends positive vibes your way* 💖

I haven't been doing the best either, but today has been better ❤️ Just a lot of studying and anticipating some upcoming exams, which has been taking up most of my time :') But it was good to catch up with you and everyone else on cups 🤗 ❤️

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TheRandomEMT July 24th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

Aww, thank you so much Spruce. I hope everyday keeps getting better for you because you totally deserve it ❤️❤️❤️

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BlueDarkAurora July 24th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515 So very kind of you to take the time out to give us such sweet reminders ^-^ I hope you remember it for yourself as well <3 Your kind soul and sweet gestures are noticed and appreciated very much. Hope things are going well for you and hope you are taking care of yourself.

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So be proud of yourself even at times when you have to take breaks or when everything is still, remember all that you have achieved and have faith that you will achieve so much more. :)


coldbreeze00 July 25th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

Aww Thank you so muchhhh!!🎄❤️

July 25th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515 you are valued too 🤗💖

tidyHickory3283 July 25th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

I am a hooman bean of few words so I don't know how to express what I want to say 😅 but *lots of huggies for ya* ❤️❤️❤️❤️

VaryingCloud July 25th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

Lovely reminder Spruce! Anddd we love you too!! 💕🤗

Kieran000 July 27th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

Positivity.. with or without it, you’re all loved here in a cool way 😎😮

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mytwistedsoul August 2nd, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515 Just dropping off a hey and a hug ❤️

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selflessSpruce1515 OP August 2nd, 2022

@mytwistedsoul

Aww, hey hey, Soul 🤗 ❤️ *hugssssss* 💖

How are you? ❤️

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mytwistedsoul August 2nd, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515 I'm ok 🙂 How are you? Your studies going good?

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selflessSpruce1515 OP August 2nd, 2022

@mytwistedsoul

I'm doing alright 😊 And my studies are going well ❤️ I have an exam in 2 weeks, and I'm on track when it comes to studying for that ❤️ I'm just a little stressed over a research project that I'm working on, but I'll get through it 💖 I appreciate you asking 🤗

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mytwistedsoul August 2nd, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515 I'm glad to hear you're doing allright and that your studies are going well. I hope your project goes good - I have faith in you and I think you'll do awesome! ❤️

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selflessSpruce1515 OP August 2nd, 2022

@mytwistedsoul

Aww, thank you, Soul! Hopefully everything is going okie in your world, my friendsie 🤗 ❤️

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mytwistedsoul August 2nd, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515 My world is hot and humid lol but we're keeping cool with the AC 😊 chillin' like a villain

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selflessSpruce1515 OP August 2nd, 2022

@mytwistedsoul

Same here xD It's 88 degrees F here right now with 50% humidity, so trying to survive in my air-conditioned humble abode 😌 And nuuuu *yeets the word* you are not a villain in my eyes :') There's gotta be another word to rhyme with chillin' to replace villain 😀 ❤️

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TheRandomEMT August 2nd, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

So I was just walking by and I think I overheard something...you guys have ACs??! 😭

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selflessSpruce1515 OP August 2nd, 2022

@TheRandomEMT

Aww nuuuuu, Random 😭 *shares the AC's power with you* It saddens me that there are certain places that don't have AC's :') I hope that you're able to stay cool however you can ❤️❤️

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TheRandomEMT August 3rd, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

Thanks Spruce ❤️

It's true that our weather is overall good but we're the least prepared for a hea wave just like now

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mytwistedsoul August 2nd, 2022

@TheRandomEMT *sending you some chilly vibes* I hope you have some way to cool off. Make sure you drink lots of water!

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TheRandomEMT August 3rd, 2022

@mytwistedsoul

Thanks. I sure will! Thanks for the reminder

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mytwistedsoul August 2nd, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515 That's hot! It's not quite that bad here. 😋 I've never had a word yeeted before 😯😁 lol

Did Bob Dylan chill? I'll be chillin' like Bob Dylan. Chillin' like apple pie fillin'?

*big hug* it was nice talking with you today. Thank you ❤

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selflessSpruce1515 OP August 2nd, 2022

@mytwistedsoul

Lmaoooo, yus xD To yeet essentially means to throw, but in a lighthearted manner 😌 All of the teenies use it, and I didn't know what it meant until I came on here xD So spreading the knowledge ✨✨

And omgggg, I love it 🤗 I would think Bob Dylan would be chillin' with his guitar, strumming a mighty tune ❤️ Apple pie fillin' also works, hehe 😋 I've been craving apple pie, so thank you for making me hunger for it even more 😭 💖 I have one in the fridge, so maybe I'll steal some later 👀

*hugsssss* It was so great chatting with you toooo 💖💖

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mytwistedsoul August 3rd, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515 You have apple pie in the fridge? I hope you've had some by now - maybe a small extra slice for the rattie 😊 and maybe some ice cream too 😋

Soul yeeted down a hill but not gently 🤕

Wish you the best on your project Spruce! You can do it! ❤️


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selflessSpruce1515 OP August 3rd, 2022

@mytwistedsoul

Hehe, I did have a slice 😋 And of courseeee, can't forget about the rattie *passes a slice and ice cream for you* ❤️ I love having vanilla ice cream with pie- something about the combo just *works*, ya know? 💖

Oh nuuu 🥺 Is Soul okie? *hugs* ❤️❤️ Next time, there's gotta be a mattress at the bottom of the hill- don't want you hurting yourself :')

And aww, thank youuuu 🤗 ❤️

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mytwistedsoul August 3rd, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515 Yum! Thank you! 😊*happily munches pie and ice cream* they compliment each other. Is apple your favorite?

Broke an ankle 😬 0 stars do not recommend. Still not sure exactly how it happened *smh* it's allmost all better now though

Take care Spruce ❤️


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selflessSpruce1515 OP August 3rd, 2022

@mytwistedsoul

You're very welcome 😌 And actually, my absolute favorite is cherry 😋 🍒 I feel like apple is a bit on the blander side in comparison to cherry ❤️ What about you?

Oh my goshness 😮 *comfy hugs* It's so strange that it happened so unexpectedly like that :') But I'm sooooo glad that it's almost better 🤗 ❤️

Take good care, Soul 💖

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mytwistedsoul August 4th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515 My very favorite is strawberry but cherry is a close second. I agree that apple is alittle more bland. Cherry is more tart I guess? But a fresh strawberry pie? Omg! Yum!

*hugs* I fell down a hill 😕 was doing yard work. That's the confusing part. I was at the top and then I was half way down it. I guess I just slipped?

Take care too Spruce ❤️


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selflessSpruce1515 OP August 4th, 2022

@mytwistedsoul

Strawberry is delicious tooooooo 😮 I haven't had it in so long, now that I think about it :') Yus, cherry is the right about of tartness for me 😋 I don't really like *too* much sweetness, so that explains why strawberry isn't my favorite– but I have to say, it's so yummy too ❤️❤️

That is possible– when we fall, everything happens so fast that you don't really realize the cause. And on hills, even the smallest missteps can make a difference *known from experience* However, the important thing is that you're healing up 🤗 ❤️

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selflessSpruce1515 OP August 4th, 2022

*amount (ughhh, my keyboard 🥲)

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mytwistedsoul August 4th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515 *snickers* autocorrect doesn't like yeet or blander 😂 pretty bad when you have to correct autocorrect lol!

That how I feel about blueberry pie. I love blueberries but in pie they're so sweet!

I think you're right and it just happens so quick. I'm sorry it happened to you too. I hope you weren't hurt too bad

Yep! 😊 healing up and hoping to lose the cast and the crutches in a couple more weeks - fingers crossed 🤞

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emotionalTalker2260 August 3rd, 2022

D: oops, I accidentally went very silent on the forums. Thinking of everyone here 💖 *offering hugs and cookies*

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mytwistedsoul August 3rd, 2022

@emotionalTalker2260 Hey you :) *hugs* ❤️

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emotionalTalker2260 August 3rd, 2022

@mytwistedsoul

*hugs*!

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selflessSpruce1515 OP August 3rd, 2022

@emotionalTalker2260

D: Where were youuuu? *hug hug* It's so good to see yaaaaa, Emosaurus 🤗 ❤️

How are you? ❤️

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emotionalTalker2260 August 3rd, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

were was i? Idk. Been working a lot lately and am mentally on another planet. Been shutting down a lot ☹️ So yeah *hugs* missed you 💖

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selflessSpruce1515 OP August 3rd, 2022

@emotionalTalker2260

Aww 🥺 Spruca can relate to that quite a bit these past few days, but we'll get through this ❤️ It's so good to have you back nonetheless 🤗 And I missed you toooo 💖

I found this dino plushie a few days ago that reminded me of you ❤️❤️ *passes the plushie to you*

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emotionalTalker2260 August 4th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

dinoooooooooooooooooooooooo

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selflessSpruce1515 OP August 4th, 2022

@emotionalTalker2260

Yusssssssssss 🦕 💖

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selflessSpruce1515 OP August 4th, 2022

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I can feel this all the way :') These past few days have been rough for me mentally, and I just want to have a good crying session- but I'm just incapable of crying right now.. 😔 Probably because I'm too burnt out to cry, but that doesn't mean I don't want to- welp ;-;

But on the flip side, I was able to get all of my coursework done yesterday, so all I need to do is study for exams and work on my project. I'll be okay ❤️

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Sunisshiningandsoareyou August 4th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

Oh noes, Spruceyyy :/ I get the struggle when you want to cry but the tears won't flow darn, that burn-out is so real :/ I hope the feelings find a let-out soonish (writing about is one way too, and yay *you* for for trying) *hugs tightttt* 💖

Super proud of you for pushing through, and acing the schoolwork. 🤗


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selflessSpruce1515 OP August 4th, 2022

@Sunisshiningandsoareyou

*hugs* Thank you ❤️ I may get back into the mode of writing entries on here daily– I'm sure they'll help me think through some things. And yeah :') There are times when I don't get why people think crying is too "childish." It's actually a really great way to let out the burden of your emotions, and the fact that I'm literally not able to– it's frustrating, honestly ;-;

Aww, thank youuu 🤗 I'm so glad I was able to get it done after so long, and now I can focus more on myself and what's important ❤️

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GoldenNest2727 August 5th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

If things ever ease up for you in real life, you should consider joining the Content Development and Marketing (CDM) program through the free 7 Cups Academy. Your writing is interesting to read, so it could be a good fit if you're ever interested.

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selflessSpruce1515 OP August 5th, 2022

@GoldenNest2727

Hey hey, Nest ❤️ I have actually been considering that program for quite some time now, and once things do settle down in real life, I will most definitely join. I really appreciate the feedback on my writing. It means a lot 🤗 💖

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selflessSpruce1515 OP August 5th, 2022

So I'm gonna start writing daily entries again because I know how helpful they were in the past. Especially now, with a lot of weight on my shoulders with everything that's going on, I think it's important to express my thoughts and feelings in a space like this. :') ❤️

Without further ado, let's roll right into this entry 💖

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Today was a pretty good day, if I would say so myself. 😌 I'm so glad that I don't need to worry about my coursework, since I finished it all yesterday. And I also finished my physics summer assignment, so yayyyy! 🤗 All I need to work on is my research project, which is going alright at this point. Just got some help from my mentors with setting up a few things, and now I'll be able to get this project jump-started again after a few months of stressful debugging and procrastination. Trust me, I absolutely *hate* procrastinating– it just causes so much stress in the long-term, and it's not ingrained in my system to leave things off for the last minute. But with the pandemic and all, my motivation has been at a minimum due to the emerging of my underlying depression and anxiety. At least now, I'm starting to get back into the "academic" mode, since school is starting soon and I'm having the first exam in a while (which is in around a week), so I'm starting to catch up on what I've missed from my procrastination phase. 😌 So that's goooooood 🤗 It's a sign that things are starting to look up, and I hope this will last until school starts. ❤️

However, from an emotional and mental health perspective, things have been kind of on the decline. My mood swings are starting to become more erratic, the first time in so long. One moment, I'm completely alert and content; the next, I get triggered by the smallest thing and get irritated; the next, I become depressed because I feel like I'm wasting time; the next, I'm shaking all over for no reason; the next, I'm completely fine again. It's been that way for the past month, and all of my commitments in real life are not really helping. 😀

One thing that would probably help is if I become more physically active; I usually am really active, exercising for 1+ hours a day. But lately, at least these past 3 months, I have lost the motivation to even go for a walk outside at times. This could be due to my depressive stages, which have been occurring more and more frequently.

The good thing is that I've been *trying* to get back into an exercise routine. I went to my local park and played some basketball, which is my absolute favorite sport. The pounding of the ball on the pavement, the swish of the hoop as the ball makes it in, the cool breeze that refreshes my mood as I run across the court– those are the moments that I really enjoy about the sport. I think it will be good for me to have a sense of normality again, especially since the pandemic has made such a negative impact on my mental health.

Right now, my stomach and chest are in so much pain, which is so frustrating. :') I'm able to deal with pain, since I'm used to it (not a good thing to get used to 🥲), but it's just the feeling of helplessness that I experience while in pain that negatively affects my mindset. I always want to be "in control," if that makes sense. I never like dealing with the uncontrollable, and it makes me overthink everything. It also reminds me of other things that I don't have control over, such as periods of dissociation, gender dysphoria, and more. I kind of wish my mind would give me a break from my problems, ya know? :')

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Woah, my first entry in a while, and it's a huge essay. xD Go meeee 😛 I'm doing something good for myself, and for the first time in a long time, I feel proud of myself. :') 💖 Can't wait to write more of these entries– this one was actually pretty fun to write. ❤️ Anyways, I'll end the entry here. I'm going to rest up and see if I can overcome my stomach and chest pains, and then see if I can get some more work done. Have a good night, everyone! 🤗 ❤️

Sunisshiningandsoareyou August 13th, 2022

🌸 @selflessSpruce1515 🌸

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*leaves lots of caramel ice cream and hugs for Spruceyyy*

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selflessSpruce1515 OP August 14th, 2022

@Sunisshiningandsoareyou

Sunny Sunnnn 💖💖 *tons of hugs for youuuu* 🤗 ❤️

So good to see ya, my amazing friendsie ❤️❤️ I appreciate the reminder more than you realize 🥺 ❤️ This past week has been an off one for me, so I needed it so much 💖

*noms and shares ice cream with youuuu* ❤️

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Sunisshiningandsoareyou August 14th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

Aww I love when the timing hits right lol, also when is it not a good time to hug Spruceyyy and remind how amazing they are doing despite whatever is going on. 😛

*keeps hugging* 💖 here with youu.

Tis sad to hear past week has been an off one for you, but yasss, as always Spruceyyy holding on tight and trying their best, I just know it.

A new week ahead of us, I hope this one treats you so much better. *sending more love your way* because guess what? *you* deserve it and more always. 💖

*noms ice cream* weee weee thankieees!

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selflessSpruce1515 OP August 14th, 2022

Hi hi, everyone ❤️ It's been a while since I've posted on here, but I hope y'all are doing well 🤗 ❤️ Sending some virtual love to all of you, because no matter what, you deserve it 💖 *comfy hugs for all of you* 💗

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Have a good day/night, everyone! ❤️

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TheRandomEMT August 14th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

Aww Spruce ❤️

Sending back a virtual hug 😊

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selflessSpruce1515 OP August 14th, 2022

@TheRandomEMT

Hey Random 🤗 *hugs* So good to see you ❤️

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GoldenNest2727 August 14th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

How sweet! Hugs right back at ya!

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selflessSpruce1515 OP August 14th, 2022

@GoldenNest2727

Hey Nest ❤️ Aww *hugs* 🤗 ❤️ Sending you the best

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emotionalTalker2260 August 14th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

*tackle hugs apricot* 😮

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selflessSpruce1515 OP August 14th, 2022

@emotionalTalker2260

😮 *hugs for Emosaurus* It's so good to see youuu 🤗 ❤️❤️

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emotionalTalker2260 August 14th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

same for you 🥺💖💖💖

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selflessSpruce1515 OP August 14th, 2022

@emotionalTalker2260

How are you doing, my friendsie? 💖

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emotionalTalker2260 August 14th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

sick ☹️ I lost my voice

selflessSpruce1515 OP August 14th, 2022

@emotionalTalker2260

Oh no 🥺 Wishing you a speedy recovery, my dear Emosaurus 💖 *sends healing beams your way*

(And I'm sure you'll find your voice somewhere– it shouldn't be too far away 😛 *hugs*)

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emotionalTalker2260 August 14th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

How’s my bestie 🥺💖

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selflessSpruce1515 OP August 14th, 2022

@emotionalTalker2260

I'm doing good for the moment ( but a bit on the tired side :') ), thank you for asking 🤗 💖

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Harsvin August 15th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

Thank you so much for the tag, spruce *hugs* ❤❤

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selflessSpruce1515 OP August 15th, 2022

@Harsvin

Hey hey, Harsvin ❤️ You are so welcome 🤗 *hugs* 💖

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mytwistedsoul August 15th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515 * got it snail mail lol* I'm not getting tags right :/

*hugs to you* Thank you :) * sending some back* its nice to see you ❤️

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selflessSpruce1515 OP August 15th, 2022

@mytwistedsoul

Aww, tags have been a bit strange lately for me too, so I get it :') (If it wasn't for the snails, where would we be? 😛)

*hugs* Aww, of course! It's so great to see you too 🤗 ❤️ Wishing you the very best, okie? 💖

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coldbreeze00 August 15th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

awieee :’) *hugsss hugsss*❤️🍃

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selflessSpruce1515 OP August 15th, 2022

@coldbreeze00

*hugsss* 🤗 ❤️ (*noms the leaves* 😌✨)

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tidyHickory3283 August 19th, 2022

@selflessSpruce1515

I amm like- oh nuuuuuuuu :( I missed Spucie's loveee smh

but then after 5 seconds- ahhh it's fine I got soooo much of it today and gets it everyday lol

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