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It is a weird thing when something goes bunk on my 'Archiver0' account, wherein I can access the listener account I tried making once which I thought long deleted but not the member account which I've been using for a while now but can enter through this rrreally old account, reactivate and continue my 7cups presence from here.
=~= All this b/c of how iffy the account deletion processes are and how this site seems to have an issue if you attach a previously used email to a new identity on here ?.
It friggin s--ks how I think I'm needing to unlearn a few bad habits from my first time 'adulting' in my own residence through a winter of drifting off to sleep while internet using on my bed without washing the dishes or brushing my teeth.
In the beginning and middle of winter it might well have grown out of how the f--g limited sunset upon work ending and arriving home would mean I was barely able to be awake for ~2 hrs after getting off the work clock before slumbering and waking at some niche 'after midnight but before dawn' instance of time.
We're not at that point and if anything, I'd want to wake early to embrace the opportunity of the moving vitality feasible only in the precious summer heat and light but I know that isn't likely to happen if I don't sleep early as well.
Okay I've much to say but I'm here to at least verify that no 'API error' msg appears for this banal posting.
Went to a flotation tank on the Thursday before Canada's 'Victoria day' and I regret to not have said yes to a question about needing ear plug.
Epsom salted waterlogging a bit, still in my left ear, `_` =_= why that one ?.
Super fortunate to have been mostly successful w/clothing fits from a thrift store where there are no fitting rooms.
Some stress and fuss during the latest venture which I might explain after but among the thoughts I'm left with is this.
Finding jeans which are 32+~35 in length for my waist size is frustrating and I shouldn't rush it, not the least b/c of the d--n variability of their being fitting rooms or not.
I thankfully realized how I actually graciously have a lot of 'non-athletic' shorts I can wear (d--n the brevity of Canadian summers) and if anything when it comes to exercising particularly what I feel I lack are compression shorts. A hassle to find b/c of my proportions I'd gander =_= -- online ordering might have to be considered. Start with one even if it's tempting to buy two.
Similarly that last sentence can apply to the possibility of a blazer. While I still mean to find a warm to cool weather vest, I feel that a light to neutral hue (but not dark and somber) blazer can do me well for the 'Miami vice' look I'd like to pull off, preferably with a not so heavy fabric.
I actually feel confident in what gathered shirts I have so far even if shirt searching particularly is comfortably/easily fun to do.
=_= The drag is going to be having to plan out the laundry for it all before even wearing it. Always hygienic to wash thrift store clothes purchases before wearing them.
That I'm still waiting for a Wii motion sensor to arrive, makes me impulse on another fantasizing of leisure goods on my mind.
The Xbox360, PS3 and Nintendo Wii are what's considered 'the 7th gen of console gaming' (Seventh generation of video game consoles - Wikipedia) . For perspective the 1972 release of Pong would be considered 'the first gen'
I've said before somewhere how I find that after the 7th gen of gaming , even with the increase of realism in say AAA titles, the games themselves became less and less inspired even if the mastery of polygon (in contrast to vintage style pixel and sprite) graphics was no longer novel and hence it's video games don't really interest me beyond that. That's not to say I wouldn't find say a remake of GBA in 'HD 2D' or a GC game in 'the latest 9th console game graphic's engine' astounding to look at but that the stylishness and fun diminished after that for me, is telling.
When it comes to the Wii and Wii U (the Switch is apparently an 8th gen-er like the PS4 and Xbox One) both have a legacy of mixed reception b/c of how much they used periphery hardware (case in point, the motion sensor I'm still awaiting).
This being said..if I were somehow committed to 'contemporary gaming' I'd be fine with the emulator stuff I've the privilege of accessing with so much pre-gen 6-ish content..but when if I ever were to choose to seriously follow further on saying 'Valve' or 'Steam' (I forget which one's which), I suppose I'd become a 'PC gamer'.
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Ideally, I prefer to have a second laptop since in a lot of ways computers are important work machines and to compromise what work-machine I have on high-demanding frivolities like gaming and the processing powers it entails etc, I much prefer to have a second machine (with no neccesities for peripheries) ready.
Consider the sites myAbandonware or Old Games Download - Abandonware and Retrogaming to look at vintage PC games
That said `_` , even if unappealing expense numbers weren't an issue for me it'd be tedious for me to look up specifically the tech specs I'd need. I've said before how I much prefer pixelated games with the pre-console gen 6 looks..but I can understand if the entailments to consistently handle a 'HD 2D' game like say 'Wandering sword' might actually entail similar processing power to doing something as 'crazy' as trying to play the PS1 era JRPG 'Chrono Cross' via Steam even if little somewhat pixelated sprite characters might make you think others (I wouldn't fancy to play Chrono Cross on PC since it seems like the kind of game which while turn based has controls which doesn't readily so seamless with keyboard configurations).
Yet I think to myself, when it comes to a sturdy,stalwart and long-lasting laptop (note, I'm saying desktop) PC these days it seems that we've got a significant issue of 'only these certain name brands are good at doing the job' and for laptops (in contrast to phones) it'd be Apple.. '_' `_` and personally that sounds weird to me, to use an Apple laptop for committed and consistent PC gaming.
I've said before how gracious I am for my apartment but I've yet to say how gracious I am for not being a next door neighbor to whomever's apartment is above me and from which bizarre and jarring sounds abound.
It s--ks to be stuck indoors on a preciously lit and heated day due to dog-sitting for a creature which doesn't really like walking to much when the weather is way more advantageous than winter.
Super frustrated and on the way to an acupuncture appointment in a bad mood; trying not to post on here.
Bunk laptop problem persists and might still persist after check up for it tomorrow. Stupidity which is so much f--g traffic on a mundane Tuesday afternoon coming south to north or west to east (out of the less Hamilton-centric regions including Burlington and Toronto).
Stupidity which is how remotely spaced apart public bikes are until you in the western neighborhood again. Stupidity is how the mere elevations between the mall and Dundurn are off-putting if you can't aptly bike through those kinds of ups and downs with so limited biking methods no less.
Stupidity the stronger word to inconvenience or frustration b/c how we all want to d--n banal obstacles when we d--n well know an apparently 'not asking for much, it's sssooo ordinary right ?' request or goal and what mundane a stepping stone it is.
F--k this traffic. Holistic health place nigh within site.
Driving course, hobby courses (vocal or art ?), dating...which one of reaching those four will agitate me more within the brief span of acceptable and more light and heat season when being productive doesn't feel like it has as much a reason to stop (unlike the effin winter)
Cell phone data is precious,f--k the price of it.
The day was bright and gorgeous like this one.
Fun to have found this out: https://rec.mcmaster.ca/programs/classes
I can't find a registration spot for a fencing intro class on ~July the 10st but there's a lot more classes than at the community college I knew of (=_= the one where I'm not even allowed to be barefoot to do yoga) and with the registration processes they have in place it makes me think they take it more seriously, so a $20 to ~$55 hike seems not entirely invalid to me now.
Some things begin around the fall and winter seasons.
Had trouble booking a follow-up acupuncture appointment and really hoping for no phone tag inconvience whensoever I get a reply back.
Why the impulse to crave to be somewhat of peak fitness examplar beyond the usual craving to be unambigiously appealing in one aesthetically imeediate way ?. Why what seems to be asking to be 'more brawn than brain' in one sense ?. It's b/c*even if I typically appreciate 'the baseline' of what the (usually 'hospital-centric) Canadian and my province level health coverage does, I'm not much fond of, nor find much fun in interacting, socializing and hinging on the healthcare system** .
So maybe the sooner I look and do stunts like Zac Efron, the more I'm distant I become from going senescence based frail anytime sooner ?.
Additionally, I can't stand how so much of the ontology of becoming skillful at most anything is through that usually nonverbal slog of 'practice'. Thus, the more understanding I have the corporeal, kinesthetic and kinesiological significance of a practice, the more confident, the more trust I can have to make decisions which are effectual and have a preferable 'economy of movement' to them..there is a f--g difference btw a 31 yr old neurodivergent 'weirdo' doing this in contrast to an allegedially neuronormative, high ego and narcissism tween-late 20 male meathead or a (past me) 'mysteriously barely functional' underdeveloped undiagnosed autistic male minor who is ridiculed to having mannerisms and attitudes more befitting of someone 1/3+ younger.
I could complicate this more by bringing up the legacy of attitudes and social expectations b/c of c--y takes on 'the mind-body duality' give or take Descartes yadda,yadda.. '-' =_= or you know, 'most of it' could be alleviated by consistent socializing but even when I'm in a good mood that I barely have any free-time like many after 25+ let alone find age demographic cohorts in a stupid city which attitudes which range from self-deceptively stuck up and ignorant to prison yard personality is a deterrent for which the lockdowns were all the more of a boon to me.
* =_= recent perils like certain right-wing figures make things seem shaky and someone was nifty enough to make something of a musical out of the post-lockdown Canadian healthcare scene: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U_7weVo2qV0&t=2517s
**mental/intrapersonal healthcare I feel dissimilar about..one of those perks of 'climbing up' as per the Maslow's hierarchy that when the physical resource stuff is covered the more abstract stuff becomes pressing to you and what you focus to chipping at next..but even now I'm fine for the most part but find 'the next part' of addressing intrapersonal stuff in naturopathy and what internal competitive impulses I have
After busing thoughts
Most recent
That uncomfortable occasional staring at someone who you think you might know when on your way home on a 'can barely sit down' bus and you want to ask them ~"Excuse me as you [blank]" but worry that'll make things more uncomfortable or spark a conversation when you need to stop and get off soon anyhow
Them I don't mind--and there's a linger part of me wondering if I should've persisted in email penpalling them..thoughts of a phenotype of someone I had feelings for even with one or two attributes on my mind--tying in to what worries I've had recently that might've expressed itself in that dream overnight.
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The disappointment which comes when someone did something nice for you like wait until you got to the only bus stop and then like a salty,blustering local cliche you actually have to struggle and self-negotiate and self-argue lest you get all the more misanthropic does a f--g uninformative and stuck up in undertone "Let's gggooo!!" yell at the last stop which didn't understand counted for a stop, one street south 'and in front' for what buses go from west to east.
'_' >:I You still only get an hourly wage, a--hole !. It's not piece-work !. Switching to an alternate tone with a much more informative "Last stop!" does yourself a favour as well you callous self-deceptive,miserable lout
Ppl glorify driving to risk becoming like that !. Your not supposed to say you're going to look forward to the day of AI automated vehicles but twits like these aren't helping for a case against it.
Since I wasn't wearing my glasses at the moment I couldn't distinguish there age but if someone says some ~"It'll happen to you" menace what trusts-me, what confidence I have to say " -_- No I won't" is how most of my age cohort ran away from the region of the city where kind of shlock happens plus how sans immigrants it's mainly bitter over-the-hill ppl who you might stereotype to being sensitive to being reactionary b/c of how insensitive they are mannerism-wise.
Wednesday comes the bi-monthly beg bug inspection which compels me to clean before my vak-kay se termina.
Okay I enter my apartment, charge my phone, drink my refrigderated smoothies...
and I rreally don't want to go on YouTube but this late in the day you want to decompress and hence aren't up to making a new cognitive investment like committed book reading, fiction or otherwise or even audiobook listening.
Now what disappointment awaits me in investing a ~+20 minute pursuit a finding a suitable listener on here, after my smoothies as I choose to allocate my decompression energy like that,hmmm ?
=_= `_` S--t should've I at least wryly smiled at the purpose who I found familiar on the bus as to alleviate them ?. "Treat others as you would like to be treated" and had someone done that to me so soon after the saltiness of the previous public transit motorist, I'm not too sure I would've given them the benefit of a doubt to think it a generous gesture 'even though I should' `_` -~- .
Upstairs I go, hoping for no hallway banter or blockage.
F--k Google Pixel 7 Wifi issues or is it that some apps are just c--y at reception on it ?.
Vay-kay: vacation
This is the part where I realize how part of being resilient is ‘being happy’ even to an infectious degree.
Video essays on the vocal patterns and prosody of legendary nice ppl like Fred Rogers or Bob Ross, at least while they presented on TV* would be appreciated.
* I know how Ross was a radically attitude reformed ex-military fellow
Staples rep was passionate enough to dismantle laptop which he complimented and let me keep a wifi,ram card plus hard drive
Dismal is this having happened in this city, less than several days ago:
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=qveJePNC0do&feature=youtu.be
