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Modal0154 April 27th, 2023

Sigiendo desde aqui 5 of 5: The hypothetical equivalent to a journal from the old journal section - 7 Cups Forum

It is a weird thing when something goes bunk on my 'Archiver0' account, wherein I can access the listener account I tried making once which I thought long deleted but not the member account which I've been using for a while now but can enter through this rrreally old account, reactivate and continue my 7cups presence from here.

=~= All this b/c of how iffy the account deletion processes are and how this site seems to have an issue if you attach a previously used email to a new identity on here ?.

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Modal0154 OP June 3rd, 2023

'When you're on your own' has been said by Albarn to be the conceptual beginning to 'Gorillaz'.

:I Looking forward to the moment when I think the song 'El Manana' will encapsulate the vibe of something I see rather than something I experience.

These videos apparently set in chronological order as per the virtual band's lore (surprised by how there's a video after the 'Cracker island' one).

https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLupIZC02E6mRz_uqFp8BiLuEZ3-ZUjJZB

The rare confidence 2D gives in the 'Tomorrow comes today' which suitable gives the vibe of an 'intro to the group's video..it already had a Bob Smith of 'The cure' vibe before getting to this mashup https://youtu.be/cQ8FMkyTeng

Modal0154 OP June 6th, 2023
"Horror fiction tends to be reactionary. It's usually about a return to the status quo--the monster is an outsider who must be banished from the sanctum. But over and over again I've created monsters who came from the outside and who call out to someboy to join them in the sanctum"-Clive Barker
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"Eroticism is contrary to customary behavior as contrary to acquisition...our self-assertion in the social sphere is always tied to behavior aimed at growth. But in the fever of sexual passion we behave in a contrary fashion: we expend our forces without counting, and we lose substantial amounts of energy without restraint and without gain."--The accursed share vol. II, George Bataille
Modal0154 OP June 7th, 2023

Forest fires have caused Toronto schools to close down early…that’s been the source of the smoke I scented yesterday at +3 and this ongoing morning ._.

The first 0:27 seconds and 2:21+ of this

https://youtu.be/UUALzDYYwN4

( not to deny a bit of an antsy reservation seeing Cyrillic and hearing that narration given,since last mid February)

and this are on my mind

https://youtu.be/2fngvQS_PmQ

Wondering if my at-work email might have any comments about this..



Modal0154 OP June 9th, 2023

Worried about having eaten to many parathas lately.

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Modal0154 OP June 10th, 2023

Pornography use happened…less than 1/2 hr

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Modal0154 OP June 10th, 2023

Ibid

Super appreciative of the 4:45-5:00 of the remark wherein Todd demonstrates the Italo-house piano chords: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K96w5QF-lAs&t=329s

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Modal0154 OP June 10th, 2023

Maybe in one way my porn based self-loathing is the deep I’ll-never-act-on-in-a-self-deletion-way “I don’t deserve to live” impulse. It’s not about looking up anti-suicidality stuff or Berserk stuff.

I might well be unhealthy in habits today. I might eat take out again,b/c I’m too drained and upset to want to cook. The stress which comes with doing one tedious task to get to another tedious task which is mundane but you want to f—g get over with.

Departing with the money to buy a laptop substitute is f—g painful and tedious,even if you don’t get hit with a debit card decline since it’ll entail adjusting the daily point of transaction amount solely for that ‘ one and done’.

F—-g hate the chore of needing to shave. So envious of males who reach adulthood with barely any body or facial hair and not just the East Asian ones.

<~> >~< I can’t see myself making this request too often but with an interest of not adding to the slog by expecting to come across a listener,this is specifically one posting I’d fancy seeing feedback for.

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Modal0154 OP June 10th, 2023

@Modal0154

Cool https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Ha3ZpvLTdA (tips for transitioning to the Chrome OS from Windows)

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Modal0154 OP June 10th, 2023

I had my patience nary tried by what seemed to me like the brusqueness of an inexperienced call centre rep regarding how a Chromebook transaction almost didn’t get through. I tried again and it worked on the Walmart site.

Lest we forget the horror of call centre work making ppl like that even if your skepticism towards there auditory face is more like a reservation than a sympathy

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Modal0154 OP June 10th, 2023

My tinnitus was acting up and I'm hoping my hearing won't somehow become as affected as that of the elderly woman who welcomed me at the 'karaoke table'^1.


Furtado's 'Turn off the light' has rapping which is too overwhelmingly fast for me, I can't sustain the deep voice I was going for, for my take on Mr.Kitty's 'After dark' without chest strain and Tom Petty's barely not spoken poetry pacing on the ephemerally mild 'Square One' was where I experimented a bit.


`_` Meaningful time still since I learned that opting for a deeper voice will entail more effort than what my apparently deep and not too pleasant or memorable speaking voice already does, the pacing in 'The night is young's is still a hope of mine even if pacing for hip-hop stylized stuff ought not be underestimated as that's overwhelming in its own rate even if lyrics are fine and pc enough. 'Learning to play' and other Petty picks might suffice but I find it hard to cover him and not immediately think 'country' ( :| don't really understand how 'heartland rock' is a thing).


Most importantly ?, a culminated lesson in 'bar culture' from someone whose had the privilege of exposure to this via an aunt's business even if drinking doesn't appeal to me due to long-standing 'specfic family member use modelling for it'.


Sitting by yourself at a bar, at least when you're also in a participatory involvement like karaoke will get you outed and I can't find any gaurantee for how reception into a circle will be welcoming anymore than a cafeteria scenario. Also, even at that table*, I was not up for small talk.In a sense what worried me the most, ties in to an intrusive thought of ppl 'force feeding me' alcoholic drink. I've always understood and seen how alcohol is a social lubricant and when you overlook the health effects of ethanol what comes is a 'loosening' in a sense of hypothetical less inhibitation to banter which I wasn't keen on. Eating communally in mind ought to suffice but from what I've seen thus far most karaoke bars aren't great for eating.


Goodness knows I'd want karaoke cafes to be more of thing and I know I can't always do karaoke..but 'the study' of my own voice still means something to me.

^1 ._. two things I feel were curt of me to do (i) to have stood to write my next pick whilst someone else was singing and possibly distracting them and (ii) with a somewhat feigned efforts having my back turned by a 1/4 to some of the table while I looked at the person on stage) since I wasn't up for small talk.

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Modal0154 OP June 10th, 2023

._. Frig, I have such a 'whimpery' voice by default if I don't put effort to it (like the 'After dark' song) showed me and when I try to hit high pitches on a microphone I can hear how much like my dad albeit like I'm perpetually muffled by something.

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Modal0154 OP June 9th, 2023

Is there a fictional character* or irl person whom I'd be curious to hear a voice AI cover Current 93 stuff =u=..

* Squidward aside

Modal0154 OP June 10th, 2023

Failed attempt at posting on Reddit: https://voca.ro/19Ocs3QuxFaI

going to try something new heart

https://voca.ro/13ul43wNsVSR

Cue ‘Wonderwall’ for what good mood might come from being heard and having feedback—I mean I’d like to think that what I just did will commend more than a dismissal from something if, they decide to say something else ,to act on something else rather than indifference

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Modal0154 OP June 10th, 2023

“Joy is the simplest form of gratitude”—Karl Barth

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Modal0154 OP June 10th, 2023

Self-compassion: not self-loathing for when I step out and remorse over heat and light I missed out on since I didn't leave earlier.

I live for heat and light.

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Modal0154 OP June 18th, 2023

Thus far into this year, whilst I'd still say I revel in heat and sunlight, the uncanniness of forest fire smoke reaching my locale ~2 weeks ago now highlights the more immediately dangerous elements of climate control which is more than about the personal comfortability limits of temperature thresholds.

`_` Forest fire smoke and graciously not say volcanic ash and fumes.

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Modal0154 OP June 28th, 2023

I tell myself how if there's truly only one person you follow for *** or Twitter such short forms aren't too bad. YouTube shorts is gaining more ground and substance but this fellow has good points on it https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1F85wJmhDkA