THETAJFTOJS II

Pornography use happened…less than 1/2 hr

My tinnitus was acting up and I'm hoping my hearing won't somehow become as affected as that of the elderly woman who welcomed me at the 'karaoke table'^1.

Furtado's 'Turn off the light' has rapping which is too overwhelmingly fast for me, I can't sustain the deep voice I was going for, for my take on Mr.Kitty's 'After dark' without chest strain and Tom Petty's barely not spoken poetry pacing on the ephemerally mild 'Square One' was where I experimented a bit.

`_` Meaningful time still since I learned that opting for a deeper voice will entail more effort than what my apparently deep and not too pleasant or memorable speaking voice already does, the pacing in 'The night is young's is still a hope of mine even if pacing for hip-hop stylized stuff ought not be underestimated as that's overwhelming in its own rate even if lyrics are fine and pc enough. 'Learning to play' and other Petty picks might suffice but I find it hard to cover him and not immediately think 'country' ( :| don't really understand how 'heartland rock' is a thing).

Most importantly ?, a culminated lesson in 'bar culture' from someone whose had the privilege of exposure to this via an aunt's business even if drinking doesn't appeal to me due to long-standing 'specfic family member use modelling for it'.

Sitting by yourself at a bar, at least when you're also in a participatory involvement like karaoke will get you outed and I can't find any gaurantee for how reception into a circle will be welcoming anymore than a cafeteria scenario. Also, even at that table*, I was not up for small talk.In a sense what worried me the most, ties in to an intrusive thought of ppl 'force feeding me' alcoholic drink. I've always understood and seen how alcohol is a social lubricant and when you overlook the health effects of ethanol what comes is a 'loosening' in a sense of hypothetical less inhibitation to banter which I wasn't keen on. Eating communally in mind ought to suffice but from what I've seen thus far most karaoke bars aren't great for eating.

^1 ._. two things I feel were curt of me to do (i) to have stood to write my next pick whilst someone else was singing and possibly distracting them and (ii) with a somewhat feigned efforts having my back turned by a 1/4 to some of the table while I looked at the person on stage) since I wasn't up for small talk.