Ni's Little Solace
Not sure why I am creating this thread exactly, and I'm doing this so late at night as well :') I just felt... like I should do this haha. I do have a one line a day thread although I... don't think I have felt so free over there to write as much as I wished. So I thought maybe... I should just make another thread, a diary perhaps.. where I can really be myself.. and maybe post pictures and quotes, literary quotes maybe... and poems.. specifically haiku hehe. Also vents.. thoughts and maybe letters :')
Replies are welcome as well <3 although please remember to stay respectful and kind.
*sending lots of love and hugs because why not*
stupid stupid girl they will see stupid stupid
Bleh. sorry. I meant my parents. Not you guys ❤️ to clear any misunderstanding
@LoveMyMoonflowers
That is okie, Nii 🌙🥧🤗
*shares fries 🍟, burgers 🍔, pizzas 🍕 with Nii 🌙🥧, Sunshine 🌞❤, Soul 🐭*
@VictoriaLove7 How did i miss burgers and fries?! 😯 Thank you! 😊
@LoveMyMoonflowers If it's worth anything to you, welcome back.
(I didn't see you around here for a bit)
@LoveMyMoonflowers sorry I had to skip to this page lol 😅 Your reply was 1 letter wide! 😁😂
I guess you'd get used to it and maybe it helps stop teeth grinding at night or has an added benefit
I caught myself humming Hush-a-bye mountain earlier lol. Made me think of you and now I realize you should be sleeping 💙
@mytwistedsoul My ortho says if you grind you get holes in the retainer so that’s fun to think about 💀 thankfully i dont grind? I think. i dont actually know but haven’t seen holes so far
Awww. yeah I remember that night. I still have that song in one of my playlists and makes me think about u every time lol. it’s kind of a comforting tune. Noooo hush you don’t know that, I’m asleep rn lol totally :D
❤️
@LoveMyMoonflowers I would need a new retainer every month 😅
@mytwistedsoul lol my ortho would probably give them to you without any extra cost. She told me if something happens to mine it’s the workshops fault and id get a new one without having to pay 😝 Although Idk if she would get annoyed with a monthly replacement lol she seems like the most patient ortho in the world
No, that’s my brother. He talks in his sleep sometimes. Me… well looks like i type in my sleep o.0
Actually no that would be scary lmao imagine if i came on here asleep and typed a bunch of gibberish (the language of sleep) and y'all would be like is she okay -_-
@LoveMyMoonflowers Just lines of random letters with an occasional actual word mixed it 😂 it would be funny but a little alarming too 😬
@mytwistedsoul lmao 😅
@LoveMyMoonflowers Oh I'd probably try her patience for sure 😅 totally unintentional but it would happen
I tried one of those sleep apps once and deleted it after two nights because of that talking in my sleep 😅 it was too creepy
@mytwistedsoul lol 😅
Sleep apps? Okay now im curious… do they record the talking or something?!
@LoveMyMoonflowers Yeah they record pretty much everything while you sleep? It's supposed to help with understanding the quality of sleep you get. I'm not sure how it does it tbh I didn't keep it long enough to find out 😅
@mytwistedsoul I want to try but it sounds scary 💀 im not sure i want to have my nights recorded like that
@LoveMyMoonflowers Yeah talk about a bunch of letters strung together with a actual word thrown in 😂
Yeah tbh I have enough bad dreams I don't need to listen to a recap
@mytwistedsoul *hugs Soul* ❤️
@LoveMyMoonflowers *hugs back* Thank you 💙 sorry I just realized sometimes I say too much 😬
@mytwistedsoul It's okay. ❤️ i don't think you said too much, but it's okay.
@Theboymoana
Hey ❤️
I don’t want to pressure u to talk about anything but I know it gets tiring and frustrating when people treat you different and like you don’t matter. :(
Nahoa ur worryin me :')
@LoveMyMoonflowers
am sorry worry you not mean to
@theboymoana No it’s okay it ain’t ur fault. I'm sorry too
@LoveMyMoonflowers
am having real hard time 😭
@theboymoana Hugs do you wanna talk about it here?
*pulls up a chair* Hey you 💙 you know ..... lies are easy because they don't require much explanation. "I'm fine" I'm good" I'm okay" so simple. Where it gets hard is maintaining that lie. It takes soo much energy to keep that mask in place
I don't know what you're going through Moon. I've only seen glimpses of your world on the pages you share here. I'm here if you need an ear or a friend ok?
I'm sorry too if maybe I shouldn't have said anything here. I don't mean any harm 💙
@mytwistedsoul don't mind me casually replying at 4 am lol.
and dude… no. ❤️ You don‘t have to be sorry for anything okay? Moon appreciates you. <3 just knowing you cared and poked this space means a lot on its own ❤️ and ain't just sayin that to be nice
yeah, that's true. the stuff that hides behind the mask is pretty hard to explain. and sometimes it's a strange mix of fear of unmasking and wanting to unmask - but either way there's always that barrier of being unable to find the right words… or even start saying anything at all. (okay, that’s was very badly explained…) it does take a lot of energy ❤️ i'm sorry you relate too soul. it's kind of how it is for a lot of us, it seems 😓 Life being life smh :/
I'm not going through anything 😅 i'm ok actually. Just my brain. a few days ago i would have been able to say i was doing good, actually ❤️
*hugs if okay* thanks Soul. sorry for yapping sm. Hope your okay ❤️ your in my thoughts a lot
@LoveMyMoonflowers It's hard to sleep when your brain has a mind of its own.