Ni's Little Solace
Not sure why I am creating this thread exactly, and I'm doing this so late at night as well :') I just felt... like I should do this haha. I do have a one line a day thread although I... don't think I have felt so free over there to write as much as I wished. So I thought maybe... I should just make another thread, a diary perhaps.. where I can really be myself.. and maybe post pictures and quotes, literary quotes maybe... and poems.. specifically haiku hehe. Also vents.. thoughts and maybe letters :')
Replies are welcome as well <3 although please remember to stay respectful and kind.
*sending lots of love and hugs because why not*
internal screaming
they are looking at those videos from our trip
with me talking in them… and im cringing so hard
@LoveMyMoonflowers
trust me... i have videos of my childhood self singing weird songs and i cringe at them all the time. lol. its normal. also dont i cant forget that chat we had about weirdness and english and whatever else we talked about. its just in my brain. 😭
@amiableBunny4016
awww. idk why it’s pretty cute when little kids sing 💜 i guess whenever we might look back at videos/pictures of our younger selves we cringe a little because over time we change so much 🤪 it is normal. <3
lol dw i can’t forget it either 😭 it’s stuck in my brain too. i was literally reading over it… yesterday, i think… because, well - memories. But i think the beginning of that conversation was my fault 😅🤣
#BunnyAndNiAreProudWeirdos Oh and then there’s this one! my masterpiece 😁 #iamasuperproudsaturnianweirdodisguisedtolookearthiansohushyoudontknowimactuallyspacian I had to copy/paste it from the chat 😭 because i (obviously) couldn’t remember the entire thing 😭
@LoveMyMoonflowers
hehe 💗 it is superrrr cuteee!
lmao. i cant stop reading our chat 🤪 it was so funny!
okay 😭 lets break this down:
#iamasuperproudsaturnianweirdodisguisedtolookearthiansohushyoudontknowimactuallyspacian
i am a super proud saturnian weirdo disguised to look earthian so hush you dont know im actually spacian.
I can't forget the strange phenomenons 😀 😀 hehehe.
1."The Strangest World - Strange Phenomenons In The Strangeness of Humanity History"
2.Strange Phenomenon: Illegible and Semi Illegible English occurrences in 2024
3.Strange Phenomenon: Proud Weirdos Cases Rise in Teenagers
4.Strange Phenomenon: Teenagers obsessed with headline Creating (aged 14-15)
which one is your favourite out of the 4? i cant decide #iamindecisiveandcannotmakedecisions 😅
ni 💗 i hope we can make more silly, weird, happy memories together because i loves it!
p.s. i cant believe we made a conversation out of talking about how difficult it was to make one 😅
bunny :) *sends huggles if okie*
tw///sh.
i….. relapsed. i was clean for idk how long but it was definitely over 2 weeks maybe even 3 weeks maybe even more but *** i relapsed today because im *** stupid and because im *** pathetic and because im Ni. And Ni is stupid and pathetic and *** up
i relapsed i *** up
tw///sh
stupid *** urges
guess who is an idiot?
Me!
but that’s not news. it’s always been that way
my head is *** up, my brain is *** up, i’m *** up.
***.
tw crisisey thoughts coming back isn’t that great! yay!
Dear Self,
It's unfortunate there are no nearby cliffs where you live because you deserve to fall off one. Go *** find a cliff one day and *** fall off of it ok?
-You
*tw* talk of dy1ng, please don’t read if it will trigger you.
Oh and….. another one…..
dear self,
theres a lot i have to say to you but im just gonna summarise it with this: go *** d1e
@LoveMyMoonflowers
(Please dont)
I love you 🩷
@unassumingEyes
mhm…….
@LoveMyMoonflowers
we are here Ni. deep breaths okay? 💗 lets take it one step at a time. I know the thoughts or feelings you might be having are really horrible at this point *sits with you* and you deserve support and love friend, even thought you might not believe it. 💗 i love you. we love you friend.
@amiableBunny4016
im so…. numb. i feel a lot and im not feeling anything at the same time
bye
@LoveMyMoonflowers Moon 😞 I'm so sorry I didn't see this sooner. Maybe imagine us all sitting with you. Surrounding you with love 💙
im so tired
@LoveMyMoonflowers Sometimes it's more than just being physically tired 😞 mental exhaustion and soul weary. Is there something you can lose yourself in? A favorite book or movie? I know it's not a permanent fix but it could give you a little break from your thoughts 💙
@mytwistedsoul
yeah that’s what i’ve been doing for the past few hours. but afterwards… it’s just temporary so…