Ni's Little Solace
Not sure why I am creating this thread exactly, and I'm doing this so late at night as well :') I just felt... like I should do this haha. I do have a one line a day thread although I... don't think I have felt so free over there to write as much as I wished. So I thought maybe... I should just make another thread, a diary perhaps.. where I can really be myself.. and maybe post pictures and quotes, literary quotes maybe... and poems.. specifically haiku hehe. Also vents.. thoughts and maybe letters :')
Replies are welcome as well <3 although please remember to stay respectful and kind.
*sending lots of love and hugs because why not*
my brain ain’t working
@LoveMyMoonflowers It's a holiday (Bunny's birthday) Science homework can take a flying leap 😁😂 Will teachers accept that excuse? Should I write you a note? 😀
@mytwistedsoul
le homework is finished 😅 i finished it before going to bed. 💜 and um… i’m homeschooled 😅
@LoveMyMoonflowers @LoveMyMoonflowers Yay you! 💙 I'm glad you were able to get it done 😊
@mytwistedsoul
thanks friend 💜 Today i had an english test 🥲 i think i did kinda okay but idk 🥲
Hehe my homework, my books, everything’s in my room and it stays in my room. I’ve been homeschooled for almost 8 years actually :')
oof
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Is Nii 🌙🥧 okie? 🥺
@VictoriaLove7
not really friend but it’s ok, doesn’t matter 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers But it does matter 💙 It's ok to not be ok Moon Pie. I mean - I'm sorry things are bad and hard for you but please don't silence yourself if you're struggling with something 💙
@mytwistedsoul
idk silence is easier tbh. pretending is easier… :') idk…
@LoveMyMoonflowers the difficult things are usually the hardest...the unfairness of life. But perhaps, we wldnt see them for what they are- important- if they were so easy. Or maybe im rambling.
What am i trying to say? 🤔
*sneaks in some hearts for you 🩷🤍💙*
@unassumingEyes
*Hugs if okay*
@LoveMyMoonflowers *hugs*
@LoveMyMoonflowers Yeah silence is the easier of the two. But the problem with that is that you end up suffering in silence. You don't have to suffer in silence. You can talk to me about anything 💙
* I'm so sorry it took so long to reply to this - it's wednesday and I host a chat* :(
@mytwistedsoul
No need to be sorry friend 💜💜 I hope the chat goes/went well <3
@LoveMyMoonflowers It did :) Had a full house! *hugs you tight just because* 💙
@mytwistedsoul
I’m glad it did. <3
*Big big hugs* 💜💜💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers Thank you - I needed that big hug 💙 I'm shaking :(
@mytwistedsoul
😔 Virtual hugs are the best i can give :( but sometimes when I wish i could offer real hugs for my friends here I just hug my pillow and imagine it’s my friend
Big tight hugs for you Soul 💜💜 Is it because of what happened with our friend or…? Something else? 💜 (No pressure)
@LoveMyMoonflowers I wish I could give real ones to friend's here too. Sometimes I close my eyes and imagine I'm sending them love or peace or strength. Whatever they need at the moment
Yes 😔 it's because of that. I feel so many things right now and I guess I'm a little triggered at the moment. I need to step back a little and catch my breath
@mytwistedsoul
Oh noes friend triggered…? :( Is there anything else that helps Soul friend when triggered? 💜 Stepping back a little to catch your breath would be good 💜
Sending lots of love and strength your way Soul 💜 please be kind to yourself. 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers Il try some grounding and go get some fresh air. sometimes it helps. I can already feel the pull of dissociation and I'm tired smh- mental health sucks
@mytwistedsoul
Okay 💜 Grounding is good, I hope the fresh air helps too. but eee yeah no :') dissociation sucks :') :') *Hugs you* I’ll be kind to me, please be kind to you too 💜
I’ll probably have to go soon as it’s late here (10 pm) but i’ll try to check on you again tomorrow. Sending looooots of love to you Soul, I hope you will be ok 😔
@mytwistedsoul
Been thinking of Soul buddy. 💜💜 How is you feeling now? (no pressure)
@LoveMyMoonflowers Hello Moon :) Thank you for checking in. Everything is fine. How are you today?
@mytwistedsoul
:') Okay friend. 💜 I’m fine too, thank you
i should probably crawl back into my little isolated hole.
im not ok.
but it’s fine.
i got nominated for teen awards this month 🥺
why :') :') :')
@LoveMyMoonflowers Omgosh! 😊 That's great! 💙💙 Congratulations! 💙😊💙
@mytwistedsoul
thank you friend 🥺
@mytwistedsoul @LoveMyMoonflowers
Let's do a victory dance! 😁
I swear one of these days I am sooo getting a tutu 😂😂😂
@mytwistedsoul
um soul are you sure you want one of those 😭
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Because. You deserve it. You deserve a lot of good things. And we see that. And you dont see it yet, but we'll keep trying to show you
@unassumingEyes
…mhm.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Because, Nii 🌙🥧 is awesome! \(^-^)/
@VictoriaLove7
you are awesome too rainbow bear 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Thank you, Nii 🌙🥧\(^-^)/
…….. 😞
@LoveMyMoonflowers what's wrong love?
@unassumingEyes
…just worried about a cups friend. <3
@LoveMyMoonflowers ok. I hope theyll be okay 🩷 try not to stress too much okay? Here if you need to talk about anything 🤍
@LoveMyMoonflowers I know it's hard but try to keep in mind that there's only so much we can do from where we are. I know at times it makes it even harder because we care - so we worry. I just wish some authorities were made aware
@mytwistedsoul
…Yeah. :(
@LoveMyMoonflowers *offers safe hugs* It'll be ok - I hope it will. I know it's frustrating 😔
@mytwistedsoul
*Hugs* I hope it will be okay too.
:')
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Nii 🌙🥧 *huggss if okay*🥺
gonna go to bed soon, goodnight. <3
@LoveMyMoonflowers
i hope the nighttime will be okay for you 🩷 goodnight friend <3
@justmeeva
💜💜💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
im so late 😭 but good night ni 🥺 rest well <3
@yyeyiiLy
awww it’s okay. 💜
thank you 🥺
tw
die, ni.
there are some things i’ve been thinking about and remembering lately. things i don’t want to remember :/
it feels like it’s all coming back now somehow. it hurts.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*gentle huggle attac* 💜
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
*hugs…*
i hate me :(
@LoveMyMoonflowers
What makes you feel hatred towards yourself right now, Niibuddy?💜
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
ni friend remembering some things and been thinking about some things lately, related to my grandparents. things that happened when i was small. and i don’t want to think about it or remember any of that but…. i just hate myself for it all….. Idk. i’m sorry.
it’s fine though friend 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Aw our childhood and past experiences seem to not give us many moments of peace in our present too and that's pretty awful, but if there's some recurring thoughts in the back of the mind, they may come up often when encountered by similar situations and thought-spirals, to our absolute dismay, sometimes the more we try to repress them and keep them down, the more they seem to fight back :( making us feel even more restless and overwhelmed.
I wish there was a turn off switch for brain sometimes, that would help a lot in these uncomfortably hurtful situations. :(
I usually try journaling about the "unwanted"/"unwelcome" kinda thoughts, and other times, just to focus on something else/ keep busy with something else so if it's not that dominant or persistent, the moment passes, and so does the thought (temporarily, in this case, mostly). What usually works for you to help in coping with the unwelcome thoughts, Nii friend?💜
You never have to say it is fine when it isn't or that you're fine when you aren't, because when it's not fine, it is just not fine and we can learn to accept and work-around the non-fineness at our pace.
*hugs you*
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
*hugs you tight* I’m sorry friend, the tag got nommed for this one and i didn’t see it until now, im v sorry :(
your so v sweet 💜 and your right… everything you wrote here was right. :') I appreciate Sun buddy for understanding 💜
Mmm i think journaling about it or maybe making a post about it if comfy would be okie, sort of to get it out of… sort of to get it out of my head in a way. And in a journal it’s easier to reflect and point out the meanie thoughts than when it’s all in your head. Sometimes when we keep it in our heads it can just get even more overwhelming
Thank you sunnie 💜 Love you 💜 I hope you is doing okie
i thought of making a post about it but idk… :/