Ni's Little Solace
Not sure why I am creating this thread exactly, and I'm doing this so late at night as well :') I just felt... like I should do this haha. I do have a one line a day thread although I... don't think I have felt so free over there to write as much as I wished. So I thought maybe... I should just make another thread, a diary perhaps.. where I can really be myself.. and maybe post pictures and quotes, literary quotes maybe... and poems.. specifically haiku hehe. Also vents.. thoughts and maybe letters :')
Replies are welcome as well <3 although please remember to stay respectful and kind.
*sending lots of love and hugs because why not*
@LoveMyMoonflowers *sits with Moon quietly*Â
@mytwistedsoul
*sends warm vibes for soul, if ok* how’s soul friend today? 💙
@LoveMyMoonflowers *sends back good vibes* 💙 I'm ok thank you for asking 🙂Â
@mytwistedsoul
:') mhm 💙 hope your really ok 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers Aww thank you 💙 no worries though ok?Â
Why do people care :')Â
if people didn’t care id be able to skip out of earth without much difficulty.Â
It would be fine.
@LoveMyMoonflowers they see your worth 💙
@mytwistedsoul
there is no worth…..
Ain’t it funny when we go on a self care break and all we do is talk *** to ourselves
@LoveMyMoonflowers Oh you're taking a self care break? I talk to myself all the time lolÂ
@mytwistedsoul
:P
for me it’s more like i-need-time-to-process-my-***-emotions-and-be-crazy-break lol 😅
@LoveMyMoonflowers Nothing wrong with that! I wish I was more help but I'm not good with processing my own emotions 😅 I'm emotionally constipated 😂
@mytwistedsoul
lol 🥲 same tbh lol :') processing emotions is hard. Especially when we don’t take the time to process them for ages and ages, i think, they get all piled up and it gets overwhelming. So instead of processing them we just keep them away, we think ‘for a bit’ and float away into numbness. :')Â
maybe not an accurate description xD but that’s how it goes for me 🥲 for years… tbh.Â
@LoveMyMoonflowers Sounds right to me! As soon as emotions start my brains says it doesn't have time for that nonsense and shuts them down. I'm supposed to be curious about them - that's what I'm told anyway. So that they can be felt and accepted and processed - then maybe they won't get shut down. Tbh - I'd rather not 😅 they seem - like they're big? I'm half afraid of getting lost in them
@mytwistedsoul
ah felt :') kinda true though tbh we can get lost in our emotions. we get lost in our own thoughts. :’)
emotions are scary tbh. my brains the same in that when i experience an emotion it says nope xD we don’t got time for that. and yet… brainie has so much time to be mean and remind us of things and keep us awake at night. after all that it won’t let us process emotions? Smh brain. but welp 🤧
sometimes journaling can help but that’s processing emotions right? xD when i tell myself i should go journal and *feel* and just be, brainie says nope again lol :') kinda just easier to ignore it all and be… numb. to everything. and get overwhelmed.Â
idk if this is just me but i’ve felt overwhelmed and numb at the same time :') not sure if that makes sense 🤧
@LoveMyMoonflowers Usually when I go to journal like that all the words disappear 😕 I couldn't string together a sentence if I tried. It's frustrating
I think it gets stuck and feeds back the mean stuff because it's repeating things it's heard before. Brains have a way of remembering bad things more often and quicker than good things which is just backwards imoÂ
@mytwistedsoul
Oof. I hear you, it really is so so frustrating, it’s like you have the words in your mind before you journal and when you open the notes app or get a notebook the words just… poof. Now what do we say? :') so many of my diary entries from little-me’s journals began with ‘idk what to say’ or ‘i had the words a moment ago.’ Ngl sometimes i get suspicious and wonder if my brains planning this all out xD /hj
so true. ): brainie finds the negative words more appealing than the kind words smh :') it’s hard… when one person says one single unkind thing to us, it’s hard, our brains tend to take such words so seriously and they make it like a rule/fact ): which is why we can’t just let go… or get over it. People say we should just forget what they said, or get over it, but we can’t. We would if we could 😞Â
(I might disappear soon, I’ll be sleeping soon. It’s….. 4 am here. :P hehe. Take care soul buddy 💜 Moon Pie appreciates you beyond words. 💙 thank you for being your kind self 💜 and for being here.)
@LoveMyMoonflowers Exactly the same or just well - well here I am. I had a thought in my brain and now it's poofed. It must be an amazing conversation where ever all my thoughts have poofed to
Omgosh yeah. Those unkind things are taken to heart and branded there. I know they say about not taking things personally and I try to take into consideration someone having a bad day or I said something stupid but then it just comes back to me later. The closer it is to something heard before the louder and more persistent it is. We need new brains 😅 quick to the produce section. Do you want lettuce or cabbage? 😂
I thought it might be getting late there 🙂 I hope you get some rest. Sleep well Moon 💙Â
Adding that to my list of talents.Â