My little lone space
Well there's nothing good about me.... Everyone just want me teasing everywhere around.....
I have started feeling depressed again... I don't really love to be a girl who don't deserve to be cared because I am not the one who actually ever helped anyone over here....
I am just over reacting again and again.. No matter what.. I am just gonna live like a stupid girl....
I know this post would be worst feeling post but.... Still I just want to write my feelings down somewhere...
Really sorry for making stupid post..
navy <3 my dear friend π
take a deep breath in, and back out. look at that, isnt it amazing? you're alive. and im so proud that youre here today, that youve made it through all of your worst days π
i can tell that you feel really overwhelmed right now and like theres no way out, and i cant say that there's an easy exit. it won't magically get better. but i can promise that it wont feel like this forever. exams, tests, quizzes, in the end, they dont matter. even if they do matter to your parents, even if they matter to the school, even if it feels like it's taking up all of your life, it doesnt deserve to.
are you able to get outside at some point? or even inside, try stretching a little. yoga or small exercises. i find that when i exercise i often have an easier time falling asleep at night, and it helps to relieve some stress or tension.
there is no magic cure or easy thing to do, but you matter. your health, mental and physical, matters. your existence matters π
i really hope that, for your sake, things do get easier. you deserve the best π
here's a music album i really like and find it calms me down so so much:
every kingdom - ben howard
π
@ahhhhelpimalive
@navyhouse3677
(itβs okay if you donβt want any hugs the sentiment still stands β€οΈ)
@ferventflame
hugs for you both!!! <3<3<3 hope yall are doing alright
Hello there...
So.. Yeah I am back on my forum posts..
Idk.. What can I say... I just want to say the people until now on cups I've met were amazing.. And id think.. I am best person for them to support... Them...
@Victor04 .....
Idk.. Sorry for tagging you on my stupid post.. But I really want to talk to you lonely somewhere... I don't have any other place I can talk to you.. So pls if you mind.. Tag.. Don't answer.. My thread.. And if you don't mind the tag them I'm begging you pls.. Reply.. I am like many time at the edge of meltdowns.. These days.. And
Hope.... :'D what are those.. Idk... With that I also don't know what sheep even is...
Nothing I can change.. I am just that stupid person as before
I hope soon black hole π³π³ sucks me.. And everyone would be happy without me
@navyHouse3677
Hey, dear.β€
I'm sorry that I haven't been there with you, because of all the ATL stuff. I understand that what you're going through is too much to handle, especially when you're faced with all the circumstances. *offers hugs*π«β€
Please don't hesitate to tag me anywhere. I don't really pay much attention to forums, so my replies are honestly all over the place, but I'll try my best to get back to you. Promise.β€
@Victor04
Bhaiya ππππππ₯Ίπ₯Ίπ₯Ίπ₯Ί
I.. I miss you.. A lot.. Idk... I just.. Wanted to things end.. And when they came to edge of end.. Another problem starts... Since November I'm struggling everywhere.... Idk.
*hugs bhaiyaπ*
Since December to until now just exams everywhere.. Sometimes olpyaiads then sometimes weekly tests then school periodics then again weekly tests and now finals...
Uhhh... I just fed of them... I don't feel like studying.. Feels like giving up.. And November reminds me of my blunder I made... I want to send you whole situation and i will soon.. By someone..
@navyHouse3677
Those exams are a pain for sure. I have mine coming up too, and it's going to be my boards, plus the college entrance ones. I understand how tough those are, and the depression you're going through. It's just too much.
*hugs tight* π«β€
@Victor04
Bhaiya π₯Ίπ₯Ίπ₯Ίπ₯Ίπ₯Ίπ₯Ί
Best of luck for boards and college entrance exams..!
*hugs tight*
If I am not wrong boards are from 26th April right?
@Victor04
And Bhaiyaπ₯Ί do take of yourself too.. Idk.. I send you a letter by someone.. Idk if you got that Or not..
I don't think I amade for anything!!!!!
Just stupid everywhere, I know I always made my cups friends upset sorry for that, I don't deserve to be anywhere in this world...... I .. Am sorry to everyone I've troubled on cups
Hello my diary π
Yesterday... Was a day i never thought.. That it would go that bad... But yeah anyways I guess I should just move on with grief that no one even care in my relative about me... Just once I wish I want to meet my nani... Before she left me.. In this world.. I wrote a poem too on her.. But idk.. It might be not good.. One..
I just miss every old peeps here who used to be a lot online before October came... Everything got changed. Almost everywhere... November became worst month for me... Then December.. What can I say month passed in exams but in end of December we were taken to picnic.. Idk what I felt there. I was someone else inside me who was enjoying.. Picnic.. Like a inside child woke up suddenly on picnic.... But again that went somewhere else from early next day ...
January starting was even crying then wave 3 hit india... Making another lockdown .. And that time we were just told to prepare for final exams.. And whole month passed in preparation.. Then February came.. A month full of exams again.. And March is going on now.. Let's see what happened next...
Hi if anyone here on my diary..
I yesterday had an exam.. And.. Idk.. How it went but it just.. Like I feel it went good at sometime and sudden moment I feel worst like I would fail.. Idk what to do :/
Leaving lots of comfy hugs for Navy. π€ππ€
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
Suunnnn
Hugs sun tightly
@navyHouse3677 *is here with youu* π€π
Shares chocolates π«π«
ο»Ώ@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
Sunn ππ noms chocolate and shares cups cookies πͺ with u π
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@navyHouse3677 how sweet, thankyouu, lovely. π *Noms cookieees* super duper yummm these are, I'll have to hop in again for more. π
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
Sure πππ
*offer more cookiesπͺπͺ to sun ππ*
Hello my diary.
I just want to say.. These days aren't planing to go away.
I just want these stupid worst days to end.. . But it doesn't seem to end..
@navyHouse3677 (I'm sorry I didn't receive your previous tag :/ and i don't even see the option to reply to that one lol... *Blames it on forum changes* π)
Sun is doing alright and hanging in there too, hang with sun? :p π¦₯β€οΈ
*Sits with Navy and hugsss* β€οΈ
Um.. Hello
Anyone who's reading this.. I know many wouldn't read this but still..
I just don't know why I'm writing this but just writing it.. M
I actually don't feel really good these days.. My weight.. My brain nothing feels good... ..
My weight is kept on increasing I'm fed up with it ... Everyone just say do exercise and dieting and will be slim but they all feels like something is torturing me...
And plus today I got a very strange dream today... (I don't really want to write it over here.. ) idk why my many dreams are of teachers who teach me.. In my school.. I just feel like seriously I think this much stupid to take teacher in my dreams....
@navyHouse3677
π *Sits with Navy and offers hugs* π