My little lone space
Well there's nothing good about me.... Everyone just want me teasing everywhere around.....
I have started feeling depressed again... I don't really love to be a girl who don't deserve to be cared because I am not the one who actually ever helped anyone over here....
I am just over reacting again and again.. No matter what.. I am just gonna live like a stupid girl....
I know this post would be worst feeling post but.... Still I just want to write my feelings down somewhere...
Really sorry for making stupid post..
@navyHouse3677
Hey I hope it is okay to reply here , feel free to skip this if you'd prefer to . ❤
This is not a stupid post, you're not over reacting when you're sharing your feelings and needing a space to let your thoughts out . This is a brave thing to do , and I really commend you for trying it out , despite feeling hesitant and not super comfortable about it . I am so very sorry to hear you're experiencing teasing, It is just not right and you deserve to feel safe , supported and comfortable being yourself .
You're not the only one that helps people, right, but to the lives you've touched ~ you make an impact, your help significant and your contribution matters , it will never dismiss the fact , that you're kind, helpful ,empathetic and go beyond to help and appreciate people around you ~ it may not feel that way always, and it is okay to have some of these times but , you my fellow human being, deserve care , love , support and least of , truck loads of humanity and patience ~ only for being human also !
Super glad you've made a space for you here, where you can share your feelings and thoughts, it can be so helpful to offload what's going in our mind somewhere . Again, absolutely no need to apologize , your feelings are valid and they matter , just like you !
Offering comfy hugs ❤
Hello again....
I am feeling done with myself these days a lot, I don't know why I just can't keep my concentration towards studies.. I am just keep losing interest everywhere.....
I feel like yeah this is the life.. The pain is only thing I deserve, I really feel like yeah... People don't really need me in this world.... As not even on cups... I know I am not the one who can support people.... With a good cost..
I wanted to be thrown out in black hole 🕳🕳
hey, just wanted you to know that i'm thinking about you ❤️
i know i haven't been on cups much, but i miss talking to you and seeing you in the chatrooms! getting to chat with friends always brightens my day.
i know it may sound stupid and pointless, or as if i'm lying to you, but, in fact, i do care about you. i love you as a friend. you are not a bad person, you're not useless or a bother. you may have people in your life who treat you like you're not worth it, or like you deserve bad, and you don't deserve to be treated that way. you deserve to be treated well. you're only human, you can't be perfect ❤️
and yes, i completely understand that right now, this doesn't mean much to you. i've been there. and when people say that it gets better, i know that right now, it sounds like they're lying. but i've been there. some days, it does get better. there are moments when you realize that at the time, you don't hate yourself. it's taken so much work to get to where i am right now, where i can accept myself sometimes, but you can make it here to ❤️
i'm here for you, and it's okay for you to open up here. it's alright to share, you're not bothering me, or anybody else, and you're not forcing us to reply. i chose to reply because i care about you, and because i'm feeling alright and want to share that ❤️ you matter to me, i see you, you are enough
*sits with you and hugs if you want them*
- @ahhhhelpimalive
Alive 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺
Thank you so much.... I wish I was again able to talk to you in chat rooms like we used to... You the one who have cared so much so far thank you so much for everything until now!
And really sorry I feel like opening up myself would be atleast make me feel better.. I am really feeling better a lot
@navyHouse3677
I'll be around more often after the holidays ❤️❤️❤️ hugs for navy ❤️
you deserve the best, take care of yourself, alright? it's a-ok to open up here and share, this is your space ❤️ even if you can't share in other places, know that you're not bothering anybody here ❤️
thinking of you, navy! hugs and hearts and love and treats for you
you matter to me, even if you can't care aobut yourself yet, i care about you <3 you've got this
@ahhhhelpimalive
thank you so much alive !!
sorry for late reply , i was busy from last few days i really hope u have great holidays !!!!!!!
@navyHouse3677
it's a-ok! how are you doing? c:
@ahhhhelpimalive
Idk... Alive it's just worst of life today..
But yeah I am fine
Happy new year, my amazingly awesome friend Navy!
I know that it can be so tough when it feels like nobody cares, but know that I do care, so much, about you!
You deserve the best in the coming year, and I really hope that things improve for you.
I know it can be easy to dislike yourself, fall into the spiral of downs, but please, for my sake, try to not blame yourself? Not everything is your fault, you aren't responsible for all the bad in this world, at all <3
I'm here if you ever need or want to talk, or just need somebody
thinking about you, my friendo! 💙💙💙 *hugs* feel free to vent or chat or anything
thinking of you! i miss you, my dear friendo! how are things going?
i miss you, my friendo! its been a while since we've been able to chat, but ive been thinking about you <3<3<3
@ahhhhelpimalive
alive !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3
how's you ? ,i am sorry i wasn't on cups more frequently these days...
i don't know ,i don't feel more better like i used in few months back.. but that's okie ,i just want my frewndos to be healthy ,
neither i saw you more in group chats too.. is their something which troubles you ?
@navyHouse3677
so so many huggles <3 no need to apologize at all, navy <3
im in the same place as you, it feels like im loosing the 'better' i used to. i complety get it, how you think youre doing alright but fhen you lose it and it feels so terrible.
yeah, im not on cups as much anymore, slowly getting bsck into it <3
please, try to not blane yourself for fallung back down? life can be a meanie and ups and downs are only natural, i hope that youre able to get back again <3
heres a trick i use: take all your anger, all your exhaustion, and throw it at the hurt, at all fhe bad thinfs. let go of it, even if just for a minute, let yourself not hate yourself, let go of it for a while. it may seem impossible, but its only your brain holding you bsck. you are a good personz youre just trapped in a cycle of self hate and downs and stuff and it only gets worse fron there
make some plans, takr care of yiurself, do the thinfs you enjoy <3 make sure to eat and drink enough, and get snough rest, my dear friendo <3
@ahhhhelpimalive
Thank you alive 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺
I am trying my best to kick this self hate away. .. Making myself feeling okie is not feels like an answer these days.. I feel like my body is asking something from me and I am not able to answer it...
And bout cups, I slowly started less frequent here... To make myself more concertrated to studies but nothing is happening I can't concentrate neither I am able to enjoy anything everything looks dull to me Or am I became dull to everything idk..
@navyHouse3677
hugs navy ❤️
I know it’s difficult to concentrate when you aren’t feeling or get motivated for it, it does feel like what’s the point of this all after a while.
I believe in you navy I know you will do great.
I don’t know if it helps to hear this but you are missed dearly ❤️
@ferventflame
Flame 💜 this navy is done.. Now, she doesn't feel like now living this up..
She wants to. Go away forever... She is still breathing she doesn't really deserve any of thing she knew....
She is just stupid h***, s**t girl who should be thrown away in garbage or in Blackhole
She just be pretending and over reacting as always to all situation...
hello my forum 💔💔
it;s been a while since i talked in you
well these days , my parents are making me feel mean towards me like they just throw my most fav art supplies in corner of our store room , and about my Barbie s they are soon gonna be in store room too!!
like i love these things ,and they are taking them away from am and i don't want them to take those just for my studies that i concentrate properly on studies but taking these things are not making my concentration better it's making it even worse
i feel like i should go to black hole now where no one can find me , maybe that would be so great nah.. idk.. just dk..
i know , if i went away everyone would be sad..but like really it feels to go away would be better decision .
i know i am just pretending my depression , everything i do is only pretending , idk.... i am fading myself away.... like i was a different girl before my current class , i felt so different from starting of this class , this session is my worst session ever in my life until now.... but yeah every step of life makes you learn something , so this year have also made me learn a lot of things ...
@ferventflame
@ahhhhelpimalive
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I feel so stressed... But idk.. What I am going to do.. For exams. Now my math exam is on Sunday so as sst.. I am getting afraid.. I haven't slept properly in a few nights ( or I say I haven't even sleep for 3hrs..a night.. Only 1 or 2 )
I don't everything looks like.. So bad... I started another forum.. For someone who wants me.. To.. Actually.. I do love sharing quotes with people to inspire them but sometimes I get seriously de motivated but myself I don't know it happens buly it self...