Mack’s Garden 🌱🌻
This is pretty much just gonna be my own little space to complain and vent and try to update people on anything that comes up since my life is an unpredictable adventure ✨ I will probably also use it as my own appreciation corner for others and some TED Talks may take place here 😀 Ignore if you want, or don’t. I can’t promise it will be all that interesting.
Tagging some people that may potentially care to see what I have to say when I post here- @ALeXaNdEr0712 @Amymir6 @MelodyoftheOcean @Astraeuss @CalmCoral (and because you said you would subscribe to this thread if I ever created it 😀- @CommunityModKay)
@Mack I didn’t get tagged for some reason ): when I went to look up another forum this showed, glad I found it though 💜
Came up with a name then 😛 thanks for tagging me (:
@Mack I just happened to run across your post here and just couldn't keep this to myself: I am so impressed and so glad for you that you used the term "adventure" (and I assume therefore see your life as such.)
Bravo! 💐
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@Mack
*pops into the garden*
weeee, I like this! Thank you for inviting me here. You're amazinnnng, so whatever you do create, I have no doubt it will be good.
*hugsssss* ❤️
I’m just going to do a mini vent ✨
So like I started a new job yesterday. And it’s super easy but it also super boring and the setting it’s in is really overstimulating and causes a lot of anxiety. Plus I am standing/walking for several hours without a break and I have bad knees and it causes them both to hurt but causes one to hurt really bad. I did get permission to just put in ear buds and listen to music all day while I’m doing my thing so I think that will help a bit but I know I’m really not gonna like the job. But I do want to give it a fair chance before I just quit and try to find a new job. I had to call in today which sucks because it was supposed to be my second day and now I’m scared they will think i’m just not dependable but I really didn’t feel good. Like I’m excited to have a job and finally be making money again but it’s really overwhelming for me and it just doesn’t seem like something I will like. I mean it is what it is I guess but I don’t like it. I’m just gonna hope that with time I’ll get used to it and it won’t be so bad.
That’s all :’)
@Mack
Well done for starting new job I know it's real hard with all health problems and stuff but u trying and that's great it takes a lot to face life and face stuff when everything is just real overwhelming and difficult, it's ok to have bad days, but I do hope it gets better and I believe u can do it, one day at a time and everyday matters and counts and u doing great. And hopefully u can find better job but for now u are hanging in there and trying and that's amazing. Have good rest and take care of ur knee and maybe the new doc can help too ʕっ• ᴥ • ʔっ
@Mack Yay for this. Subscribed and I can't wait to everything you ❤️
*Makes a dramatic entrance* I’m backkkkkkk 😀
Two things. One being another vent/breakdown and the other being i have a couple of people to appreciate 💕 I will start with the vent/breakdown so this can end on a positive note (:
Welp…two stupid days til the most stupid day of the year. I hate Christmas so much. And everyone is getting all excited for it. Talking about their celebrations and gifts and baking Christmas cookies and stuff and I’m happy for all of them. Happy that it’s a happy season for others. But it all hurts so damn much, everyone has places to go and people to be with and I feel so freaking alone. Constantly feel so alone. The triggers are getting worse and the memories feel constant. And I don’t know how to just not think about it. I don’t know how to be happy and I don’t have anywhere to go with any of it. I haven’t been able to talk about any of it at all, and it’s all I’ve been thinking about. I guess it just hurts. And then on top of all of that it feels like everything in life is just going wrong. It’s just one step forward and two steps back, something ALWAYS happens. I’m so sick of it. It’s been everyday except for one for the last week that s o m e t h i n g has happened. I guess I’m just tired of it all. But it is what it is I guess.
Anywaysssss, I have some things to say to a few people really quick (:
@ALeXaNdEr0712 ~ Alex, I just want you to know that you’re an amazing friend and person. I know things have been pretty difficult but you’re doing the best you can and for that, I’m proud of you. You’re so important to me and I’m always here for you. Thank you for always being there for me, I’m glad I have someone like you as a friend, I know I don’t deserve it but it means a lot ❤️
@Amymir6 ~ Amyyy ❤️ thank you for always being there for me and for putting up with me even when I’m being a b🙊 I appreciate it more than you know. I appreciate you more than you know. You’re always too sweet to me and I am so glad I get to annoy you all the time. You’re amazing ❤️❤️
@MelodyoftheOcean ~ Ceceeeeeeeeeee *hugs* I appreciate you so so much and you are such an amazing person 🥺 Thank you for being here for me whenever you can, it means sooo much to me. I’m gonna miss you so much the next couple weeks. I definitely will not stop annoying you in PMs tho, even if you don’t see it 😛 Thank you for being you and for being here for me- I appreciate you a lot ❤️
❀𖤣𖥧.𖤣𖥧 𖡼.𖤣𖥧𖡼.𖤣❀
~Mack
@Mack
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I know things have been real hard lately and holidays do make things worse, it's real difficult to see people excited and celebrating and having stuff when u are struggling and when u have bad memories and bad experiences that are hard to shake its real isolating not just cause u have to be alone and not have people around u but because nobody seems to understand how emotionally difficult it is too, it's like being alone with ur feelings and not feeling like you belong. It's real awful when u are constantly triggered and everything is a reminder of stuff u would rather forget and not have anybody there with u when it all feels like too much.
I know it feels impossible lately and everything has been going wrong even when u try real hard and feels like u ain't getting nowhere.
I just wanted to say that tho maybe ain't much u do have me here and I'm thinking of u and hoping days are kinder and a bit better and u are safe and eating, I appreciate u a lot and thanks a lot for being there for me this year when I have needed it, u are great and kind and real compassionate and u deserve better things and to have help and people who care and stay through the hard times and days when all feels impossible and u are struggling. I know Christmas it's real hard and I will be here if u need to talk or company, I care about u, I made this for u cause I know how much Asher means to u and how great support he has been and it obviously doesn't look like Asher at all but I'll learn to draw better cats lol
Hang in there, small steps yea sometimes taking it one minute at time is more than enough, u are doing the best u can and I'm proud of u and real glad u are here 💜🤍
@Mack I appreciate you so so much little Mack you mean so much to me and all I want is to be able to be by your side and show you that you're not alone
I know life may get in the way and we may not be able to talk all the time, but please do remember that ir doesn't mean I don't think about you
I like you very much 💜
I’m going to keep this short. I don’t have much good to say about 2022, tbh it’s been pretty terrible. And I don’t have hope in 2023 looking any better. Probably sounds pessimistic but it’s an educated guess. But even tho the year has been terrible I was lucky enough to get to know and talk to some pretty amazing people here. And I just want you all to know that you have helped me get to where I am today and I appreciate you so much, even if we hardly or never talk anymore. Thank you for everything. ❤️
@Amymir6 @MelodyoftheOcean @Astraeuss @ALeXaNdEr0712 @Axtyn @Midnightraven999 @CheeryMango @EmotionsListener @Amy @Zoup @Mel @positivePumpkin22 @CalmCoral @FrenchToastClub @LittleBirdie30 @CommunityModKay @ComminityModFinn @CommunityModAlex @CommunityModLou @CommunityModWillow @CommunityModChristine @Syd113 @mysteriousClover @Nomifordays @selflessSpruce1515 @Wefington @funnyZebra5328
And even a couple people who don’t remember me, but their kind words stuck with me~ @NoneTheWiser @blitheSun94
@Mack
aww mack- like actually that just made my night/early morning
im glad to have met you too, because you are such a fun person to be around. you are so funny, and never fail to make me actually laugh. you are an amazing person, and i love the fact that you are able to speak how you feel, and voice your opinions.
love you mack <3
@Mack
awww mack 🥺, thank you for also being with me here this year. It means a lot to have someone to care and look out for you no matter what. And I thank you for that. It really does means alot.
@Astraeuss
ofc 💕
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@Mack
Aw Mack! You are so freaking amazing- this totally made my day :') I hope 2023 is a little more brighter for you *sends candy from my van* ✨💕
@Axtyn
Just because I’m fat doesn’t mean I want your windowless van candy 😭
@Mack
Please- 😭😭😭
@Mack Happy new year!
@Mack
Heyyy Mack ❤️ I really appreciate the tag, truly, and it warms my heart that I was able to make such an impact to your life up to this point. And the feeling is mutual— you really made a difference in my life, more than you even realize. I'm so fortunate to have met such a soul as you, and I hope that 2023 is better than you expect because you deserve that ❤️ *hugs for you*
@Mack
Sorry I'm late, thanks for being here too this past year Mack I know it was not a good year but at least u were there and that made it bearable and even with all crap I'm proud of u for hanging in there cause I know it was real hard but u are real resilent and that's inspiring, I do hope this year is kinder and if things are hard cause life is like that just know I am here for you and u aint alone, thanks for everything ʕっ• ᴥ • ʔっ
@Mack
I feel you. After a difficult year, it's hard to look forward to another one of those, when we don't know what's lying ahead of us. But I'm here, even when I am not always in the right headspace to access my pm-land, that doesn't mean I forget about you.
You are a kind, caring person, and whatever it is that will wait for you this year, you won't have to do it by yourself. I will gladly go the way with you, if that is alright with you. And I think that many more of those people you mentioned above are willing to do join in. You're not alone, even when it seems like it.
Oki enough of the cheesy pep-talk, happy new years and you'll rock this year, one way or another! ^^
@Mack
Oh Mack you are so special. I know you probably don't see that in yourself but you are special. You make a difference on 7cups and every time we are on at the same time you make me happy. Here's to a better 2023 and you aren't doing it alone.
@Mack
Oh hey this is nice! Just wanted to wish you and everyone here a happy new year!!
