In The Gloaming TW *just in case*

Once again thank you mytwistedsoul for these amazing posts. I laughed and cried. Really enjoyed the one with the dog at the entrance to heaven. Then got triggered imagining my deceased herd greeting me- but that is OK. It is all part of the processing. The one about dont iron the 4 leaf clover - dont press you luck. It almost had me rolling off the loveseat.

Keep up the great images. THey are so therapeutic for many of us.

@barncat You're welcome - tbh - that one made triggered me alittle too. It's weird - I know it hasn't been all that long since losing Kodie but sometimes it feels like forever - other times it feels like it was just yesterday

They help alittle with the anxiety and if it gets a laugh - I'm all for it. They say laughter is the best medicine

@mytwistedsoul- THank you for the big laugh- we loved SeaHorse. Even my husband laughed and we agreed it looks like Gus.

@barncat Hey :) you're welcome! It gave me a smile to know you and your husband got a laugh over it - Thank you!

@mytwistedsoul OMG! I didn't realize what Martin was holding. *facepalm* he's freaking high! LMAO! Wow - I'm so sorry about that! Geez

I wondered why his eyes were red - didn't realize he was holding a joint - shhhh

@intelligentWheel627

You've been popping into my thoughts for the past week and I wonder how you're doing

Just wanted you to know you've been in my thoughts

Be gentle with yourself and your thoughts Rinny :)

@mytwistedsoul You have been in my thoughts too but the invisibility cloak just didn't want to come off. I'm not sure how I'm doing. Sometimes slightly better and sometimes not.

I read through your diary the other day. There's a lot I missed while on a break. It made me cry. I've never even told you how sorry I am about Kodie. I wasn't here and I feel like a crappy friend. I'm sorry. *offers you a hug*

I don't know what more to say. It feels strange ranting in someone else's diary. It feels strange writing in general, it's been a while. Please take a good care of yourself, Soul. Enjoy the beautiful spring for the both of us. Here in the desert we have none. Post and panick, lol. 🙈

@intelligentWheel627 *hugs you back* it's ok - I've been sort of staying under my own invisibility cloak too. It's ok to not know how you are - alot of times I'm not sure either. Sometimes it feels like I'm ok but I think I fool myself into thinking that

It's ok to take a break - sometimes we just need to take a step back. It doesn't make us crappy friends. We just sometimes need to take care of ourselves first

You're allways welcome here - to rant or rave. Or to sit quietly under your cloak knitting a scarf :)

Nah - try not to have too much post and panic - I'm really glad to hear from you

We got some new things we're planting - new lilies - when they bloom I'll post pictures and share the spring with you :)

@mytwistedsoul I love lilies! What a beautiful idea, I'm looking forward to see them! :)

@intelligentWheel627 Lilies are my favorite too :) These are some of them from last year

The new ones are called Salmon Star and Muscadet. I have to keep them in a fence or close to the greenhouse or the dang deer eat them *smh*

https://youtu.be/4SPR49se9GY

Homefront - Sinner

BUT

SO

Happy Easter :)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4N3N1MlvVc4

Gary Jules Mad World

Blue October - Hate me

https://youtu.be/dDxgSvJINlU

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jhat-xUQ6dw
Queensryche - Silent Lucidity

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jMCyafoj5gY
Daughtry - Bring Me to Life

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K2O8iEkh5vw
Dave Fenley - Grandpa * this one's kind of special*

we drink from the well of lies

poison ourselves from within

drop by drop

swallow it slow

don't even notice it at first

but it quenches our thirst

and we beg for more

gasping on the floor

tell us all our sins

write them out

in crimson notes

so there is no doubt

all good is null and void

it never did exist

just an illusion

a grand delusion

but it is still missed

🐾

got these secrets creeping through my head

things I never say out loud

my tongue bleeds crimson red

sliced open by the thorns

of things I said before

I'd like to be my friend

but these resolutions

make me my own worst enemy after all

the promises I keep

in the hours before sleep

mean nothing

cause I'll break them in the morning

the promises I break are keeping me awake

https://imgur.com/a/OHwgJFw

alittle spring :)

@mytwistedsoul- oh my - LOVE your horse photos. The one leaning its head on the post looks a bit like Louie (RIP) or my current geldings- Gus and Duke. Both are chestnuts with a blaze. Thank you for this fantastic post. And your sayings are off the chart. Hugs from the boys.

@barncat You're welcome and thank you :) your reply made me smile today - I'm glad you liked them

@mytwistedsoul A little spring! That was more than I could have ever dreamt of! I saw so many wonderfully gorgeous things that I've never seen before and I tried to pick a favourite but it is impossible! Thank you for taking the trouble to share. Seeing it was like getting cuddled by nature. I'm in search of words and teary-eyed.

@intelligentWheel627 Hey you :) it was no trouble at all. It makes me happy to know you enjoyed them. I can't pick a favorite either because they're all so beautiful. There's new ones to bloom yet. Plus the iris's are starting to bloom too. I'll share some of those too :)

@mytwistedsoul Thank you so very much! I'm always looking forward to seeing everything beautiful. I think you are very brave for picking up the newt! The little fellow is cute but I wouldn't dare to touch it. 😬

@intelligentWheel627 You're very welcome! :)

I was worried he'd fall off my hand. And he was so little I didn't want him to get hurt. I'd rather hold the newts then the salamanders - they're slimy lol :)

I'll throw the first punch because I've kept my mouth shut for far too long

when the demon that's inside you is ready to begin

let's go to war

there's a sickness living inside me

my hearts too dark to care

it's only a little mess

my little secret

if I surrender

cut me open

i'm just trying to breathe

and I used to have a voice

but what lies beneath

is a face that hides in the darkness

it looks a lot like me

me: i'm climbing out of bed

dog: where are you going- it is so warm and cozy

me: don't worry - i'll be right back

dog: ah- it is a human's life

@barncat lol! Mine usually just sighs and gives me a look - like really? We just layed down!

https://imgur.com/a/q8g9smd

alittle more spring if anyone is interested

@mytwistedsoul Beautiful!!! 😍

@intelligentWheel627 Hey - how are you?

Thank you - I'm glad you like them :) There will be more soon hopefully - some of them are just getting blooms on them

Ah the smell of bearded irises remind me of my childhood. along with lilacs and old fashioned roses.

@mytwistedsoul

Awe these are great

@FlourishingDimensions Thank you! :)

@mytwistedsoul- looks like Duke in the tub. Always love the horse photos. THanks.

@barncat You're welcome :) I still think the sea horse was the best I found so far