In The Gloaming TW *just in case*
With the tragic loss of the feed and after much debate and discussion. It's been decided to create a new thread. Soul space so to speak. A journal of sorts.
A place where I can dump some of the nonsense that goes on in my head.
While replies are welcome - they aren't necessary.
Have you ever - gotten so side tracked while doing a post in here - you had to close the box to make sure you were where you should be? Ah - good times
I have a ratittude today - oh yes
and a short fuse and Idgaf
@mytwistedsoul
😉😎.vroom-vroom...
@mytwistedsoul
My eternal gratitude to you Soul for such treasures...I am smiling with my eyes yet overwhelmed by the gifts...today someone said you can cry while smiling...
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(GO BIG OR GO EXCTINCT!...today we all chose to wear sunglasses 🕶🕶🕶...)
@StickOfRock
@mytwistedsoul
That's it 🤗😁😀🤗🤗🤗😎😎😎
@mytwistedsoul
The last pic with the finger reminds me of E.T., phone home, a finger touch connection and not a static discharge...a butterflee will be with you all...
@mytwistedsoul
I like the song and the pics. Sarcasm happens to be middle name, twisted humor is my last name, do you think we're related? :0
@mytwistedsoul
Zayde Wolf - Learnt their songs from Dude Perfect - "No Limits"
@mikenai Oh man - I love that song!
@mikenai
Haha Dude Perfect is fun
@ThePizza
Well, wished I could use YouTube for the "correct" form of entertainment than current.
@mikenai
Are you talking about all the videos and coverage of the pandemic? I agree that those have gotten pretty tiresome
@ThePizza
Not only that, but i do somewhat agree that those videos does affect somewhat.
Kinda dislike what YouTube's algorithm is going at. No matter how i tweaked.
Anyways, I have my fair share of issues with consuming YouTube-ing videos and allowing it affect my entire lifestyle.
@mikenai
Ohh yeah I get that
@mytwistedsoul
Have you ever - gotten so side tracked while doing a post in here - you had to close the box to make sure you were where you should be? Ah - good times
I have a ratittude today - oh yes
and a short fuse and Idgaf
One of my major behavior flaws with technology + multitasking.
The lost of mindful-ness, objectivity, concentration when I start Multi-Tabbing.
Worse when you get a higher resolution display.
Until I get so mentally and physically exhausted (sometimes even breatheless) when I started off doing just one thing, exploded to multi x multi tasks - If i can catch/shake myself out of it, I try to snap out of it and do as follows...
(For Windows 10 only) Save any "unsaved" stuffs -> Start Button -> Power -> Shut Down -> Sit down on bed or Walk off the computer.
Come back again, once I know what you want to do.
Found out yesterday that there's a cousin that has covid now and her kids tested positive too. Maybe I should feel more about it then I do but - I don't really care ya know? All it did was bring up alot of bad feelings family wise and alot of anger
@mytwistedsoul
Found out yesterday that there's a cousin that has covid now and her kids tested positive too. Maybe I should feel more about it then I do but - I don't really care ya know? All it did was bring up alot of bad feelings family wise and alot of anger
Your feelings on the matter are valid-- I think it's wrong that we are taught that we must feel connected to every single person in our family. I've had a few great aunts who passed away, and even though I met them a few times I didn't really feel much about it either. Mainly I just felt bad for the people who had been close to them. And it doesn't help that there are already bad feelings associated with family-- yet another thing to have to deal with it. NTW (I hope she doesn't mind me calling her that lol-- hi @NoneTheWiser is it cool if I call you NTW?) is right, it is noticed when you've been quiet. I hope you're well :)
@mytwistedsoul
Found out yesterday that there's a cousin that has covid now and her kids tested positive too. Maybe I should feel more about it then I do but - I don't really care ya know? All it did was bring up alot of bad feelings family wise and alot of anger
I thought the response for this will be sensitive to different individuals. So I gave abit of consideration thought.
I may not reply any comment further after this following comment.
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If you noticed, you actually did considered both thought process. I will say it is what that makes us human to have such behaviors?
There aint a right or wrong way to behave, nor how one-self should be thinking.
The final decision or outcome of the process is also up to no limits. Furthermore the made decision does not require to be justified nor critisied upon.
In your case, if you felt it that way, it could be affected by factors like emotions or hurt or guilt or anger or karma or grudge or anything. - Well 3rd party viewers can blame it on the mind playing tricks on you. But no one can understand the pain you felt to have chosen the said decision.
Yes that it hurts to hear the news. And in certain situations, we are also unable to think in our own ways but to hold the "grudge" pain and still help out. It sucks, and still we have to hold on.
Don't blame yourself for the choices you've made. So long you are agreeable with.
Take Care.
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Tunes
Missio - Hoodie Up
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F35F5A7F4P4
Flight Paths - The Absence of Light
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5CkR8gFjo4Q&pp=wgIECgIIAQ%3D%3D
GoldTop x Sam Tinnesz
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=msNPeTuXUIs
Robert DeLong - Global Concepts
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JND-sxlg7YU
HellYeah - Oh My God **TW - Gory video*
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QfEzazCrFM0
HellYeah - Welcome Home
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aeO03cdClE0
HellYeah - Black Flag Army
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XH669JbK_6Q
Lyrics
They made you feel like you're not strong
Been taking fire from the dawn
There ain't no chains around your feet
Thorn in your side, don't let it be
Keep your head up
Don't look down this time
Keep your head up
Keep your head up
No fear in your eyes
Keep your head up
You're not an outsider
You are a born fighter
Go and take it back
One battle at a time
More than a hell raiser
Heaven, a world changer
Go and take it back
One battle at a time
We are soldiers, yeah (We are soldiers)
We are soldiers (We are soldiers)
You were made to beat the odds
That breath inside you is from the gods
You're taking punches, but underneath
A heart of steel will never bleed
Keep your head up
Don't look down this time
Keep your head up
Keep your head up
No fear in your eyes
Keep your head up
You're not an outsider
You are a born fighter
Go and take it back
One battle at a time
More than a hell raiser
Heaven, a world changer
Go and take it back
One battle at a time
We are soldiers, yeah (We are soldiers)
We are soldiers (We are soldiers)
We'll march on
We'll march on
We'll march on
Come on march on
Have a thumper of a headache - again. Had one yesterday and the day before. I'm tired. I'm frustrated. Seem to spend an awful lot of time wading through bullshit. Worried about the new rules here - saying the wrong thing - it adds to the stress ya know? At the same time though - I kind of dont care. Idk - depressed maybe. Overthinking things but under thinking other things sometimes. Underneath it all - anger. At myself - at others - at the world. Idk - maybe it's disappointment. I think I disappoint myself alot
Her insidious voice constantly - whispering in my head - some of it has a ring of truth to it and makes it hard to deny
Sometimes there's allmost a feeling of deja vu sometimes - Idk maybe that's not the right word. Sometimes it's like - the images play through your head - there's a feeling like youve seen them before but yet - Idk - its like you're a witness to someone else's dreams - Idk - its hard to explain
Like you're digging a grave just to bury a ghost - Idk
@mytwistedsoul
Dreaming other peoples' dreams? I've felt like that lately
I've also been trying to work through disappointment and other feelings directed inward-- my therapist suggested taking a little time to process it and then moving on. Maybe that might help you? Either way try to remember that your feelings and thoughts are valid <3
Hold on. <3
The wave crashes overhead - crushing you down into the sand. You drown in your own shit. Outlook is bleak - the anger felt earlier did nothing but drain you and now the reality of it sinks in as you realize you have to go over it again and again. All you're doing is chasing your own tail
Did you ever get the feeling that somewhere in your claymation brain that shit has been blown so far off the rails that there's nothing but carnage. The conductor is missing - people are screaming and somewhere someone is softly crying - probably you btw - just saying
@mytwistedsoul
Like you said Logan, I am a coward so I will not do anything to myself and am just doomed to waiting...and yes, I am bonkers...
@GreeenGlowingButterflee The one you're looking for isn't the one you found. And the one you found definitely isn't the one you want. In what delusion did it seem like a good idea to come here? We have nothing more to say to each other. Feel free to throw your tantrum though and spew all of your lies. What ever helps you sleep at night. I'm interested to see what you've come up with this time. I'll make popcorn.
@mytwistedsoul
I prefer my popcorn with cheese...Unlike you, I shall always be free Logan and your thread is public.
@mytwistedsoul
I hope so...
