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In The Gloaming TW *just in case*
With the tragic loss of the feed and after much debate and discussion. It's been decided to create a new thread. Soul space so to speak. A journal of sorts.
A place where I can dump some of the nonsense that goes on in my head.
While replies are welcome - they aren't necessary.
@NoneTheWiser
Vikings were called berserkers thinking they used mushrooms to enhance themselves
@NoneTheWiser
I like tgis post and the turtle formation alot, thank you Wiserπ€π
Why would anyone intentionally eat canned spinach? Have you seen what it looks like? Just seems like a really bad idea
Head feels full. Like it ate too much and would like to spew - thoughts and memories - pandalerium - clean up aisle 9. Too many thoughts - ya know? And just can't hold them long
Freaking word insertion is driving me nuts - good thing I try to proof read
Realized a good thing about this virus - at least here anyway. I don't have to go anywhere. If I just had that mote - d*mn
Just random - crap lol
You find what you need but you find it where you least want to look
You said it yourself - you don't need the help - but you're breaking down
You're tearing apart at the seams and darkness is all that you dream
you're waiting for someone but noone can break through this madness
Sometimes it hurts like hell - when you're empty and unwell
When pain is all you know - pain becomes your home
Take my hand and lead the way
Into darkness and nothing
Close your eyes and feel the pain
Breathe me in - ignite the flame
I am the reason you're all alone
Bite your tongue and seal your fate
Never follow - lead the way
Don't believe a word they say
Dance to the fire while the devil plays
Heavy is the heart that wears the crown
Louder is the sound of it crashing down
Tunes - Sam Tinnesz - Far from Home https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8y4Sz8_Oq1M
The Score - Stronger https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cNld-AHw-Wg
Once Monsters - My Name is Adrenaline https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MTZ2JRrUK7Q
Red - The War We Made https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PaHSXOojGgg
@mytwistedsoul
Now this I want to keep in my soul...
@mytwistedsoul
Remwmber at Christmas you recites a poem that awed us all and you just made people happy and we all admired you and were grateful foryour wonderful gift. Even in your modesty you did not feel good with your voice, we all loved your voice...
@OldSerendipityBoat It means alot that you would say this - thank you
@mytwistedsoul
I would not eat spinach from a can though I like Poppeye but I was intoxicated with spinach by my abusive parents as a childπ
@sunshinegiraffe123 Hey sunshine - long time no see
How are you?
All this venom that you speak, condescending, no pretending
Vandalize the weak, ask for seconds, no repenting
Blood in my eyes so I guess its okay
Burn the bridges, let them smolder
Every sorry sucker looking over their shoulder
For a little intuition and a lazy superstition
Just to help this venom with a little exposure
Theres mud in my veins just to help me get by
So help my lie, lie, lie
Better pick it up quick - better get it now
This severed chain that I can claim
What you could never find - I've found
They're product placed with a double face
They've changed the way they play the game
Theres an oversaturation of a desperate situation
Should we emphasis exposure maybe place a limitation
Maybe its an epidemic, were deserving what were getting
Are we destined for destruction or reconciliation?
Silent Theory - Watch Me Burn https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4kfQ0rfTerg&list=RD4kfQ0rfTerg&start_radio=1
Until I Wake - Self Medicated https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D2RiekK_hP8
Arrays - Too Late https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XZPtwlTSrZg
Kind of foggy today - disconnected - idk - simpliest explanation is I feel like I've gotta a loaner body - like a loaner car. You understand the basics of it - what makes it stop and go - lights - keys - glove box. It just feels foreign. Thoughts are sluggish and I'm forgetting things one moment to the next. Kind of like - oh wow - I wrote that or did that? Somewhere things are getting lost in transport. Maybe - Idk
Might be a good day to be quiet
@mytwistedsoul
Now these are extremely beautiful...
Weirdest commercial line up
A message from the CDC saying what to do to help prevent this virus
Next commercial - same channel - for a prayer app *snickers* So um - if the five steps don't work - Pray? Really?
@mytwistedsoul
Don't alow it to screw with your mind. Now every prowler uses the virus looking for money or political gain or whatever...
@OldSerendipityBoat Yeah - you're right. Man you can't trust any of them
We sacrifice our minds to save our souls
And then sacrifice our souls to find our minds.
Are you any better today? Knowing now what you didn't know then?
I am not so sure....
Ok so - I'm not too focused lol
Coffee was cold. Went to heat it up in the microwave - opened the door - closed it and hit thirty seconds. Stood there and watched it do it's thing - with a cup of cold coffee in my hand
Good times
@mytwistedsoul I've done this one before....so you're not alone.
This should be fun - seat belts everyone
Where shall we start? - lol - blank - thoughts like a freaking hamster wheel a second ago and then silence - shit
I wish - I wish - that I could get my head straight - lol. The TT Railline needs some netting to filter out shit. There's either too much or it's dry. Make up my freaking mind. Sorry - there appears there may be some cussing - kind of don't care. Sentence enhancers -
Anxiety is freaking high. Like a cat in a room full of rocking chairs. My grandmother used to say things like that. They've been in some thoughts recently. Missing - things - them - so sad *sigh*
Isolation - it has it's pull. People seem even scarier now because of this virus. Out with masks and gloves on. Worry about having to cough or sneeze if you're out. Afraid to touch things. Wash your hands - a million times. Alot of distrust on what you can believe
Been losing things from one minute to the next. Could be anything - pencil - pens - coffee cup. Thoughts - my mind. It's like an all day treasure hunt - fun stuff
Don't like call sessions with Doc Z. Had one on Friday and I couldn't tell you a single thing he said. So we're going to do email instead. Easier to understand if the words can be read and re-read. Makes me feel stupid though sometimes
Been forgetting how to do basic things - words for things - tie shoes - zippers - the phone - the shower - lol! Pisses me off sometimes - because i've been doing this stuff for a few years ya know? Not that complicated - just makes me feel stupid
Go through times when I disappear for hours and just sit - then there's moments when - just can't sit still - restless - pacing - skin feels too tight
Idk - blank again
Won't see us coming. Out the door before you even blink.
Something so cold blooded. With a deep killer instinct.
Don't look us right in the eyes. It's like staring at a burning sun.
Do not like these hands today. They have minds of their own. Words have teeth today. Trying to be mindful of them for fear of hurting someone. Body hurts today. Makes the teeth bare more. Had sunshine earlier but now it's cloudy. Idk - we probably don't deserve the sun anyway
F**king frustrated
Too many todays
Anxiety but depressed
So am I anxious because I'm depressed
Or depressed because I'm anxious
Tempted oh man - I am tempted
No words - figured we can do memes or interpretive dance - my dancing is allmost as bad as my singing - lol
What a f**ked up story
@mytwistedsoul (I can't stop laughing πππ, yet they all went to my heart since most of them fit me like a glove...π. Liked the one with the trains alotπ)
@mytwistedsoul hihππ fits me like a gloveπΆ...the f...d up storyππ€π
@OldSerendipityBoat It's funny how it seemed to fall together
@mytwistedsoul sometimes it's something supperior that guides our inspiration π, oooh...π
@mytwistedsoul "Keep calm and...Freak out!"π
It's hard to see beyond what's inside but when you tilt the light I realize -