In The Gloaming TW *just in case*

You're weak on the surface
You speak when you're nervous
And all the wrong words unite in your head
You can't stand the space in your bed
So you shake in the darkness
You break like an artist
And all your big plans are small the next day
You can't wait to throw them away

You perseverate
And the truth might be a million miles away

Hide your secrets, disguise your weakness
And lose yourself inside your busy head
Burn your bridges and leave no witnesses
All alone inside your busy head
Your busy head

You sleep in the moment, but dream like a poet
And all your good grace, like faded tattoos
You spend your days in wait for bad news

So you perseverate
And the truth might be a million miles away

Hide your secrets, disguise your weakness
And lose yourself inside your busy head
Burn your bridges and leave no witnesses
All alone inside your busy head

Going nowhere fast enough to tell a lie
Give yourself an alibi
You've been gone lately
Stand upon your peace of mind
You're bound to fall if you take your time
'Cause we're all waiting
And you can step alone into the abyss
Find a home on the edge of it
And be defined by its presence
By its size and its message
You can move along through the dark
And when you wonder where you are
You'll be proud of your weakness
So, busy head, just keep breathing, no
Oh, busy head, just keep breathing
Oh, busy head, just

Hide your secrets, disguise your weakness
And lose yourself inside your busy head
Burn your bridges and leave no witnesses
All alone inside your busy head
You're all alone inside your busy head
You're all alone inside your busy head
your busy head

Noah Kahan - Busyhead

Let me become what I want
You won't believe what I ponder
I saw the world through a notch
Somewhere within I uncovered
Everything that I once was
Dwelling beyond my subconscious
I saw myself as a god
That's when I realised I wasn't

When I asked how you colour the sky
And you told me I already knew
When I asked could I see through your eyes
And you told me I already do
Oh then why do I feel like a fool

Tell me there's a path to take
Where I'll know
I will get another day
Tomorrow
If you could just elaborate
I'll follow
Cause I don't know if I'm awake

Let me become what I'm not
I don't decide what I ponder
I saw the Earth as it was
The moment I fell to its aura
There I erased all my thoughts
Teaching myself to discover
Everything I thought I lost
Hiding right where I left off

When I asked how you colour the sky
And you told me I already knew
When I asked you to see through my eyes
And you told me you already do
Oh then why do I feel like a fool

Tell me there's a path to take
Where I'll know
Everything will be okay
Tomorrow
If you could just elaborate
I'll follow
Cause I don't know if I'm awake

I'm unsure if I should ask
But I question everything that I see
I venture into my past
Reliasing that it's in front of me
I sit with hands in my lap
Piecing together these memories
I left you where I began
Knowing that I'm what you used to be

Jacob Lee - Conscience

I like to enter your temple, feet and sword dragging, in the silence of the halls I hear suffering, anguish, pain and much more yet I like to come to your temple for here I belong and in silence and tranquility, drop down my sword and know that quality selected poetry and songs are here for me and the string of my soul...

I shall always come to your temple myfriend since I feel my soul likes this place alot...

I wonder whether she knows that I think she's perfect
I wonder where the time goes in an eternity
I wonder if I let go, would she return to me

Sorrow is all I see (All I see)
I try to breathe, but I never seem to find the will to take one more
Stay with me (Stay with me)
And help me breathe 'cause I, honestly
I've never needed someone more

Wicked wicked tears - god off and on all day - time to get a grip J

Judge me not by my scars - or by my wounded mind.
Look not at my tattered soul or my fettered spirit
Gauge me by my heart - innocent and pure

My heart is mine and mine alone
How it wants - always - more

On my mind -

I wonder sometimes if there is a tear in the seams of reality as I sit and watch other peoples world rip apart

In the secrets of my mind - in the eye of death defied - I saw the world with all it's wonder and soon discovered it lied

Another day when it seems all the words are there - forming complete sentences - and then they're not. Scattered. Sometimes though - it's like there's a padlock on them and I don't have the key

RQ - This is all on you - all of this. You did this. You spread poison - you're like a plague. A sickness spread by the smallest contact. Are you f*cking happy now?

Speak your mind or bite your tongue

Headache

Anxiously depressed or depressingly anxious

A million little triggers and they're ready to blow

Erata...😔

@jennysunrise8

I often find myself in the position to kneel and convey my sorry...such is the nature of human interaction, as long as we are together in one place we are due to step ona tail, toe or ego...

Today I have upset my angel Jenny by saying on this thread that she taught me to say OK when people asked me how I was doing. I wish it was that way but it was a thing invented by me having an issue with the word OK as with the letter q for no reason at all...

All in all, Jenny, my guardian angel never told me to use OK to mask my feelings, she would never do that and whomever knows her knows I am a bastard for making that up.

I was just acting childish as usual and hurting people in the process...😔😔😔

You have my deepest sincere appologies Jenny for saying smth you never said...😔😔😔

I fucking hate pauses!

First you gotta know
How to play the victim
Hate to tell you so
But you repeat the symptoms
Like an aftershock
And I only want to make it stop

But you make it
Stronger as it grows
Revel in the friction
Stop before you blow
Or damage our division
No, I'm not too shocked
But I only want to make it stop

Got me shaking at the sight, oh
Got me quaking in my mind, oh
You're tripping over every fault of mine
You're breaking open every single time
It's never black and white, no
Going seismic out of spite, oh
I never know if it's your fault or mine
You're breaking open every single time

Faultline

Falling off the charts
Burning all your bridges
You don't wear a scar
While I'm the one in stitches
And I don't know why
You point the finger every time

Got me shaking at the sight, oh
Got me quaking in my mind, oh
You're tripping over every fault of mine
You're breaking open every single time
It's never black and white, no
Going seismic out of spite, oh
I never know if it's your fault or mine
You're breaking open every single time

Faultline
Faultline
Faultline
Faultline

When it's gotta end
Whatcha gonna say?
You've been seeing red
And there's no one left to blame
When it's gotta end
Whatcha gonna say?
You've been seeing red
And there's no one left to blame

Got me shaking at the sight, oh
Got me quaking in my mind, oh
You're tripping over every fault of mine
You're breaking open every single time
It's never black and white, no
Going seismic out of spite, oh
I never know if it's your fault or mine
You're breaking open every single time

Faultline - Starset

On my mind -

Too much and nothing - does that make sense?

Took forever to fall asleep and woke up in a panic. A mild one but still - shaky

Headache - just not a migraine.

Some impatience

Alittle depression - ripples - the big wave is behind me - waiting to catch me

Burden of the Sky - Blame my Creator

Flight Paths - Downpour

Silent Theory - Sticks and Stones

On my mind - Naked we come
Naked we leave
We are the jail
We are the key

Kudos and well dones all around from Doc Z - well for most of us anyway

A and I for not harming this week - even though there were times we wanted to
K - for taking that pause that he hated so much - even if it didn't make him feel better - he still took it and wasn't as out spoken as he usually is
Logan - for kind of losing his cool alittle and admitting that he's hurting as much as the rest of us. He does so much - I admit it - he's the more responsible one

So alittle sad - alittle anxious - kind emotional - What's new - right? Took alittle longer to get home then usual because driving was kind of a b*tch. Just alittle disconnected and we're supposed to tell Doc Z when it's like that. But he won't let us leave if we are - so liar liar - pants on fire. Took the dogs for a walk once we got here - just to kind of settle down abit. Even ate lunch

Kind of feeling alittle good about being able to help someone more then I thought with something I thought might be kind of stupid

Fairly good all in all - no one died - didn't burn the house down and no one needed bail money lol