I let out my thoughts/feelings

Today was okay. I felt very anxious during didactics. I noticed I get anxious in public in a group setting when there isn’t something enticing going on or something mind-engaging. Then I get anxious and I’m like my mind and body is confused and freaking out what to do.

I need a hobby I need to enjoy myself and have something I like to do.

Sometimes social situations stress the heck out of me. Because I’m not innately a socially smart person, so I often wonder if I’m doing something awkward or annoying or making a stupid of myself.

I get tightened up around my male friend. It’s like my freaking throat chakra gets blocked.

I often get told that I could be socially and emotionally smarter around friends. It is true I’m not socially and emotionally intelligent or smart. I’m definitely not smart. I’m intelligent in some ways but not smart.

Screw it. If someone doesn’t like me it’s not my problem. So screw it. Take a wrench and screw it all the way in.

But one thing I cannot tolerate is if people pity me. I hate if people pity me. I’d rather you be real and bluntly honest to me.

I’m sorry I have a lot of stress inside about social matters.

I keep telling myself it’s all in my head.

I don’t know why I feel depressed when I come back to my hometown.

JoJo Joanna

Just because I like buying clothes - especially the kind of clothes I’ve never had before - that doesn’t make me a materialistic person. I like experimenting. So y’all can judge me lol

I’m ready to go back already.