One From The Journal.....
Wrote this is in September last year, but over-thought and couldn't share with the larger group then, however today I came across this again (I often do), and just had this massive urge to let everyone have this kind reminder.💛
I really hope it's okay to share here. Sending lots of love and strength to everyone!💛
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(Kept questioning where would this fit the best, I hope here is okie❤)
From my heart to hopefully yours.❤
September is observed as Suicide Prevention Month and today (9/10/2023) is observed as World Suicide Prevention Day!
This is one of the most difficult topics for me (and I believe for most people) to even think about, let alone write for, the one thing so so so incredibly misunderstood in our world, unlike anything else.
I believe most of it lies in the fact that conversations around the "S" word are shushed as soon as they are started.
I'm a believer that nobody in their right frame of mind would want to take a step as this one, it's not the answer to your problems they say, it's not the escape you think you need they say, its not necessary they say and maybe "they" (hopefully) are right but how is it supposed to be expected from someone considering to end their life to understand that they shouldn't, when they aren't in the best frame of mind that comprehends what the world might be looking through the lens of right vs wrong!
People who consider probably have a hundred reasons in their mind already, no wonder they are so done with pain they want to just not be here, but is it possible to give them one reason to make them stay?
While I wish we didn't need a specific month or a single specific day to talk about it, because if we truly believe and practice it, every day can be this day, where we "create hope through action"~ the theme for this year!
Now, action might be different for different people, also perceived differently by different people but for me, compassion, kindness, acceptance and love top the list.
To creating hope with compassion, being more accepting of people, providing them a non-judgmental, safe and comfortable space to be themself, to being more kind in everything we say or do and to take initiative in loving people and making them feel loved too. (Yes, those are different things, telling someone you love them and making them feel loved by you~ it's the latter that is more impactful, I feel)
Not feeling my best with words so most of it is just a compilation of scattered reminders for everyone, hope it still makes enough sense though.
The bravest thing you'll ever do is to continue living when you don't see any reason to. The reasons seem bleak at times, the stressors in your life and the thoughts in your mind may tell you a lot of things but the most important thing to remember always, is that, you matter, you're worthy of life and living, your presence makes a difference in the world, you are loved and you are needed here, this world wouldn't ever look the same without you. There might be the same stars in the sky, the same rivers flowing, the same mountains standing tall, the same birds chirping and so on but it still wouldn't be the same without you.
You are not a burden. You're not taking unnecessary space or being a waste of space here or using more oxygen than you deserve.
There's enough space for everyone, there's enough oxygen for everyone~ yourself included.
You've probably committed a lot of mistakes, disappointed a lot of people, been an absolute nuisance too, if you feel like it and even so, you matter and deserve to be here.
It is absolutely okay if the past has stuck onto you too tight and its difficult to let it go, it's okay if you feel scared and worried for future and it most definitely is okay if you aren't able to live in the moment, we can all have our pace and be on our path, your simply just trying to be here is what counts enough.
No matter how much you're made to believe otherwise, you're not a disappointment, you're not a failure, you're not a burden, you're not a waste of space, you're not worthless, you're not~ every X word they use against you!
You might feel like you're alone in your struggles, or perhaps that nobody sees or understands your pain, and while it's valid to feel like nothing makes enough sense for you believe that you aren't alone, it's needed to remind that you aren't.
Throw out a hand and watch people fighting over holding it first for you. Allow them to hold your hand, because no matter how you're made to feel about seeking support from others, you do deserve support.
If you ever come to point where life feels meaningless, reach out, explore, try again and create a new meaning, do it as often because just because you're not able to see it at a given point in time, doesn't mean it's not there.
There is help, there is hope, there is light, there is love and it's all worth fighting for, its all worth staying for.
And because someone else said it better...
"Just 'cause you can't see it, doesn't mean it, isn't there.
If they say
Who cares if one more light goes out?
In the sky of a million stars,
It flickers, flickers
Who cares when someone's time runs out?
If a moment is all we are,
We're quicker, quicker
Who cares if one more light goes out?
Well,
I do!"
Rest if you must, hide if you need, but do not quit. You are more than every X thing going wrong in your life currently, every Y thing that happened unfairly, and every Z thing you are worried will happen in future. You are worthy of being a part of this world, whether you currently believe it or not. You matter, whether you see it or not. You are loved, whether you accept it or not. So be here till you believe it and believe in yourself to become it. To become the life you deserve to live and to become the love you deserve to feel. ❤
I'm not here to promise you without knowing that life is going to get magically beautiful for you or that every little pain you feel in your chest is going to poof or that you'll be free from all the darkness always, because that would be a cruel thing to do, to give you a false hope and make promises I'm not certain could be kept also because who is a random persun on the internet to tell you anything riiiightttt? but this random persun is only here to remind you that there will be pain, suffering, stress, heartbreaks, failures and every single thing you can think of that's gonna make you question on life again and that, yes, even so, despite all the pain and suffering and numbness you'll experience, you still matter and deserve to be here, you just need to continue believing in yourself!
Repeat it to yourself as often you need~ "You are worthy of the life in you, every breath you take is a reminder for it, the universe wants you here. Stay. Hope. Live."
"Cling tightly to all things that remind you of love, light, kindness and everything worth living for, in life, you'll need those someday. But most importantly, hold onto yourself, cling tightly to yourself, have your back, for it has *life* written all over it." ❤
We often need just one sign to continue, just one person to believe in us, just one kind word and just one reminder of the good in the world and the great in us~ if you ever struggle to find it, look for the Sun in the sky and consider it to be your reminder to keep going. And if it's pitch black during the night, and you don't see the sun, remember to hold onto yourself through the night, hanging in there tightly, because the sun will be there in the morning, again, shining for you; shining with you, embracing you in the warmth reminding you of your beating heart in your chest! ❤
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Aww I am sooooo glad you did, Nii friend.💛 And smh I understand the "where do I begin" part, only I know how manyyyyy times I've almost posted this here and then the over-thinking and some kinda hesitation (not even fully certain what that is about hehe) just interrupted lol 🥲 I meannnnn, it's (almost?!) everything I'd need to hear too, and (almost) everything I'd like to remind everyone else too, so just had to take the plunge with this one. Thank you for understanding hehe.🥺💛
You being the first to respond and oh-so-gently and acceptingly made my day, and made me feel a lot more comfy and settled now with this one. Thankieees to youu, beautiful blessing of a hooman aka Nii!💛
Yussss without a question, friend, you're vvv welcome to come on here as often as you like/need/want to and share anything and everything that you feel like. Always looking forward to your reflections and insight, everything really!💛
And smh yes of courseeeee, more people need to be reminded we care for them, so double, triple, infinite times yes to tagging more lovelieeees.🤗💛
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou ok I got it😁 don't worry about worrying things cause worrying about worrying things will make worrying more worrying in the end😎
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou @Tinywhisper11
Me too 😛😭🤣
Big hugs for you both 💛💛
@mytwistedsoul
Hehe it is for sure.🥺❤
Thank youuu for all the yum goodies, Soul. *shares with you and noms too* (been a few months already so hope they are all fresh still lol😭) 🥰🤗
Aww brain should really take a backseat at times, I agree (': I so hope your brain treats you with more kindness and grace.
Message for Soul's braincells- "Hey hey, please do not be meanie to our wonderful Soul, they are the light people need when the world is dark and the brightest blessing on the gloomiest day, for many many people. They do it purely because they want to and they want to because they are an exceptionally loving, kind and caring hooman who deserve all the compassion and light they spread around. Soul's braincells, you literally have one job to do~ be kiiiiinddddd to Soul. They deserve it and so do you. *sprinkles love and kindness for ze braincells* 🥰❤"
