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TW: Abuse, crisis thoughts
moving back in with your abuser because you don't know what to do besides fake a smile and suck up any pain thrown your way <
so uh I'm moving back in with my mom after a year of fighting to get away from her. (2nd time I've done this, 2nd time I've screwed myself over) I know we're both going to get worse and she's going to relapse. sometimes I think, "yay. more * abuse. i don't care anymore. suck it the * up." but uh. yeah. scared rn. i just told my grandma on the phone, "Yes, I am permanently moving out of your house." I feel so bad. i just. don't know what to do. I KNOW what is best for me - anything but my mom. but Im just so scrambled i don't care. i do care, I'm just too scared to act for myself. i hope i don't fall back into depression.
Edited April 14, 2023