pixie💖

I’m so so so so so so so sorry :') I never meant to leave like that and so much has been happening but Ive missed you so much🩷how’re you🩷🩷/behonestlol

@iloveyouxx awwwww no no no you have nothing to apologize for friend. Yeah a lot has been happening for me too but I’m so so glad we are talking again💜💜💜 I’ve missed you toooo I’m idk tbh how are you(be honest)

@pixierobin

im glad too🩷I hope you’re okay💜you can talk if you want ):💕idk either heh everything’s just :')

@iloveyouxx yeah that’s how I feel haha

thanks I’m ok

you can alway talk too💕

also sorry if my responses are slow I’m in the middle of dress shopping

@pixierobin

yeah it’s just a lot💜dress shopping :0 I’m so sure you’d look beautiful in any🩷this is random but are you recovering from your ed💜and it’s oke tyt💕

@iloveyouxx thanks but they are not for me it’s wedding dress shopping for my cousin.

yeah I get that no pressure to talk about it😊

Not really I guess

how about you have you been sleeping any? I haven’t haha 🥲

@pixierobin

awwe well my cousins getting married too hah :p I’m sorry I was hoping you would’ve had it better by now😞smh TvT nope still sleep deprived and starving myself🥲🩷..

@iloveyouxx oh that kinda funny both our cousins getting married.

haha sameee🥲 I’m sorry things are still so bad at least we are back together though💕

@pixierobin

lol yeah xD  oh no it’s much worse that’s just :') 

do you still go to rooms🩷? I haven’t in a while :0 have you made any new cups friends after everything💕

@iloveyouxx oh I’m sorry

yeah I kinda just went of 7 cups completely for while and before that I didn’t do much rooms and now I’m back I’ve gone back to them some but mostly just talking to my old friends

yeah I get not being on here much anymore but I’m glad to talk to you we should definitely still talk even if we don’t do rooms any more💕

@pixierobin

yeah I know💜I agree tho I missed you sm💕💗this just reminded me of one of our friends :’) hold on let me find the name

@pixierobin

hey🩷are you busy😛💕missed youu

@iloveyouxx hiii not really just really tired I feel weird

how are youuuu?

missed you too💕💕

@pixierobin

awwe me too. I haven’t been feeling really well lately, I don’t remember if I already asked but have you started summer break yet💕?

@iloveyouxx awwww I’m sorry about that

oh yeah I started awhile ago but I’m doing online school this year and I’m about to start again. What about you?

@pixierobin

its okaayy💕

omg I wish I had online school, I’m starting year 9 on september 2, is there any reason you’re doing online school now? 

sorry I just woke up lol I slept🥲😛💜

@iloveyouxx yeah I’m really glad abt online school too I wish you could too. My last school was just getting really bad so my mom pulled me out. Haha that’s ok I’m glad you are getting sleep💕

@pixierobin

😭😭god I want that so bad😭I wish I could switch schools my dad wouldn’t let me tho no matter what it was :’) awe thankyou💕how’re you❤️? hugs I’m happy you don’t have to do school irl this year, online school is so much better imo even if you had to open your camera or still wear a uniform or any of that it’s still just so much better, what year are you in now?💗im going onto year 9😛🩷

@iloveyouxx awww I’m sorry friend *hugssss*💜💜💜 yeah I’m hoping it will go well but who knows. Eh I’m not that great but idk just normal I guess if that makes sense. How are you?? Yeah so am I haha

@pixierobin

*huuggss*🩷🩷🩷it’s okay💜💜I’m hoping it’ll go well for you too :p💕

oof I’m sorry same and it does make sense, this is really random but is it not crazy that we start school at (depends but) 4 and finish at 17/18 and my lead teacher said your school years are meant to be the best years of your life but.…theyre not.😭

but what do you think would change your normal or how you’ve been for so long ):💗

you are? lol we’re growing up together😛💖/j

@iloveyoux yeah idk this just seems like a permanent normal yk? I’m sorry that it is like that for you🥲

yeah it’s really stupid like school for me was so bad with like bullying and teachers and everything and the thing is I’m gonna be glad to be away from school and my parents when I’m older but also even after life still sucks yk? It’s like we never get a break.

yeah haha I didn’t even realize we were in the same grade haha. 💚🩵💚

@pixierobin

aww🥲🩷

yeah I get it. school is just ugh horrible and it’s like you’re not even safe at home or at school and you don’t have a proper escape from everything :’) or maybe that’s just me🤪and true if I make it to a point where I can just move far away from everything I don’t think id be happy or even okay still. I feel like, the damage is done and I can’t actually be happy again, but again, that’s just me😛sorry for venting it’s 4:42am and I felt lonely lol sorry💜

hehe <3💛💛

it’s 4:44am now xD hugggsss🖤🖤🖤

@iloveyouxx exactly it’s definitely not just you like everything you just said describes it so well for how it is for me too like my plan is too move far away from my family but like you said it’s like the damage is done and I’ll never be happy.

don’t be sorry you can vent whenever you want💖💖 *hugs* it’s almost 8 pm for me haha time differences are weird lol

@pixierobin

oof now I realize I would’ve preferred it if it was just me you don’t deserve to relate :')❤️I wish I could say something to help but I feel the same way

awe💗hugs💕💖you can always talk about you too🩷woah lol I wish it was 8pm here, I hope you end up sleeping better than me :p💜

@iloveyouxx awww you don’t deserve to relate either but at least we have each other💕 thanks haha tho I doubt it sleep is hard lol hope you get some too💚

@pixierobin

aww I’m happy I have you💕I think it’s too late for me😛sun rised it’s 5:22am and nuu please try you deserve to get some rest sleep is essentiall >>>: *👀* but actually :p I’ve tried so many different techniques and stuff to help you sleep but it’s partly me that’s stopping me. are you tired but can’t sleep or?🤍

@iloveyouxx awww well I hope you get sleep soon it’s important🩵 yeah same I’ve tried so many things and like I’m tired but I just can’t sleep yk plus it’s the only time I feel safe because ik my family is asleep and so I can relax yk

@pixierobin

thats what i tell other people :’) that no one’s awake at night and it’s just the only time I can really..breathe. but I think I have a lot of reasons. like it feels stupid to just sleep with everything going on I can’t just close my eyes and sleep if that makes sense, and then there’s nightmares that I get every time I do close my eyes and sleep. I like being up at night kind of. but of course I also kinda wanna sleep too idk, btw I might have to go soon because I’m logged on on someone else’s device and :p🤍

@iloveyouxx yeah I get that I feel like as soon as I lay down everything just starts closing in around me and I get nightmares too they are hard🥲 I like the night but then being that tired just makes the day so much harder so idk but I get what you mean💜 it’s ok if you have to go hope we can talk later💙💙

@pixierobin

): ugh everything just sucks hearing about you having everything suck somehow sucks more. I'm sorry you get nightmares too :’) and yeah running on little to no sleep is so hard especially at school it would be so impossible and draining it felt horrible, im still here until I poof lol🖤

@iloveyouxx yeah it was hard at school but school sucked anyway haha🥲 I’m sorry that we both have sleep problems but I’m ok don’t feel bad💙💜

it’s starting to get hard to see the replies xD they’re going to the side- I don’t know if it does that for you too? 

@pixierobin

@iloveyouxx oh yeah I just noticed that haha

@iloveyouxx thanks 💜 but you don’t deserve this either so I care about you even if you don’t *hugs*💙💙💙

@pixierobin

awe :’)💗hugs💓💓💜

6:15am

I’m very lost-

@iloveyouxx me too🖤