Letters to people
I have been feeling lonely these days...I have decided to write letters to people in my life. Just expressing those bottled-up feelings and emotions I have about them. I'll be posting the letters here. Feel free to comment...Thank you.
TW- death, anger
I’m not even gonna be polite now. People are dumb. Just dumb. I’m venting about a *** dead person and the guy asks me what’s ‘first assassination attempt’
i’,ll explain romance tropes to a 17 year old while I’m missing a dead person. First I thought what if it’s a tween on the site. I wasn’t even gonna be angry but a *** 17 year old. Like *** how do I explain it. Yeah I read books. People are dumb. I’m- I miss her, I miss her so much. the regret the guilt comes in bouts but a 17 year old asks about love at first assassination attempt.
and then I say that I’ll not vent in support room. It’s the room’s damn purpose. So I don’t vent because I was uncomfortable. And then people fly in. Fine come in, but I need acknowledgement. I need people who know me. I’m an introvert I don’t want to make effort unless I find the person interesting. And then I leave on the excuse of it’s midnight, I want to sleep. I damn well know I won’t.
I need to see familiar faces- usernames. So many are gone. Omg why was I inactive last year. Why the *** couldn’t i check like once a fortnight.
I feel… I don’t know. I feel sad, angry, frustrated a lot of things at the same *** time, I won’t go to sr, it’s *** embarrassing for me. I hate me. I hate my body, my emotions. I want to cry but I also want to smash stuff. I-idk. Idk idk idk
I’m insane. I’m stupid.
how can you just interrupt someone venting in sr? how bad a human can you be? they are venting, talking about stuff but you just come in and act all friendly with another member. that is so inhumane and hurtful to the person venting.
@froggeychair i see youuu heart lurker
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i need someone to yap to
yap to me :33
@froggeychair
T-T thats sweet but like howwww
Just on here?
@froggeychair
umm okay. i just- i have all this rage inside of me like al the time. idk.
even if nothing actually happens in my life. like all this worry and anxiety all the *** time. i wanna crush and throw things sometimes but sadly my country doesn't have a thing called rage rooms. so all the rage just takes place in my mind and it is so frustrating. i have no contact with my irl bsfs because my phone was taken away. i just- I want someone to hug me. i dont wana to show that kind of vulnerability to my parents because they'll overreact and over think and i don't wanna do that to them
Oh Esha, that's so rough. Do you know where this rage might be coming from? It sounds like an endless pit of fear, anger and the urge to protect yourself from everything going on? It is totally okay and valid to not feel safe to be vulnerable around your parents, I know that feeling well. How do you feel about that? Not being able to tell them things even though their role is to nurture and support you? Do you have any coping strategies for that anger? And I'm so sorry you have to live so isolated. It sounds awful and I wish I could give you more than a digital hug but I hope it can make up for it just a tiniest bit. Big long hug xx
the thing is, i feel safe around my parents but i cant talk to them.
i cant talk to anybody. i''ve gotten used to just venting in my head. i cant put to words my anger because i dont hae the patience to write stuff down
I see. That's fair but sounds really painful. You can always vent to me if you want to <3
i have a crush on a person here wtfffffff
like omg, blushing in a *** long time
wtf
not even an actual person, sorry. an alter. ***. AHHHH HFHHFQRTEQJKF
NAHHH I REFUSE TO ACCEPT THE FACT THAT I MIGHT HAVE A CRUSH ON A PERSON HERE WHO IS AN ALTER OF A *** SYSTEM. NO HATE TO THE SYSTEM BUT LIKE AHHHH
thank god this forum thread is old so no one reads it