I hate me.

@LoveMyMoonflowers those words hit me somewhere, which is something that doesn’t happen everyday. I can relate to all you said. You r so consumed by your own negativity, and the self hate that positivity lacks taste, and hits you nowhere. I can relate to all that. 

Maybe I can help. Do text me if u wanna

@LoveMyMoonflowers It's very normal to feel this way as a teenager; you are still growing. What you need is self-discovery. Question yourself: What is it that you truly desire?

@LoveMyMoonflowers awwww I’m so sorry ni friend feels this way. I understand it hard to believe compliments and that’s ok but you are such a sweet kind caring person and i love you very very much ni💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜 *huggles you vvvv tight*

I totally get the feeling of pointlessness … of feeling pathetic and sick of yourself. I have those days way too often myself. Why have I become stuck in this place? Every move I make to fix things makes me sink a little deeper into the muck. Somehow, at some place deep inside my soul, I believe the tide will turn … not sure where or how, but I hold onto that hope even though my life sucks at present.

@LoveMyMoonflowers

Hey. I think I know how you're feeling and I know this is a hard time for you. But please remember, that although it might be hard to believe for you right now, you are worthy of love.

Life is hard sometimes but in every single one of us is the strength to keep going. To love ourselves. To heal. You have that strength too.

My heart aches when I see this post. I used to feel similiar, like I was deceiving people who said nice things to me. This wasn't the case and it isn't true in your case either, I'm sure of that. I wouldn't say I'm completely healed right now, but I'm feeling so much better. You have the ability to feel better, too.

You're not alone in this. I'm super proud you reached out on here. Maybe you can see that you are not the only one experiencing this. A ton of people go through the same and still, every single one of you is amazing in their own right.

Don't stop trying to get help. It can get better.

If there's therapy available to you at the moment, it might help you. Otherwise we might be able to provide some guidance.

You are not alone.

Hi, Ni Sweetie,

One day a long long time ago, I was a teen, and then to my surprise I also had teenagers in my house! I remember being a teen wasn't easy AT ALL. There were so many days of comparing self to other, and other crap. Pressure, competition, all of it is difficult to get through. I'm trying to remember what helped me get through it, and then later helped my kids get through it.

I think it was allowing a friend to connect. I think I only had one real friend, but we connected very nicely, and it was like my refuge to just vent to this friend. In those days we had the kind of phones with the twirly wires and the ear pieces lol and the rotary dial and my dad used to yell, "You're hogging the phone." But sometimes you just gotta have that connection.

I see you so often around here, cheering up people, doing nice stuff for other people. So, I'm glad you're accepting some nice stuff from other people for once and know that you're pretty cool just the way you are.

I'll send a photo of moonflowers under a full moon to cheer you up a little, and if you want to sit in the dark quietly for awhile, that's fine. You have friends and we all see the same Moon!

Love and Courage,

Rose

@LoveMyMoonflowers

Hey Ni (LoveMyMoonflowers),

It sounds like you're feeling really overwhelmed and are being very hard on yourself. It's okay to feel this way sometimes, and it's also okay to express these feelings through rants. Your feelings are valid, and it's important to acknowledge them.

It's great that you have supportive friends and people at Cups who care about you. Even though it's tough to believe the kind things they say, remember that they see good in you even when you can't see it in yourself. Their perspective is valuable because they care about you.

Self-criticism can be really hard to overcome. It might help to try and challenge these negative thoughts about yourself. For instance, when you feel like you're being too harsh on yourself, ask, "Would I say this to a friend?" If the answer is no, then you shouldn't say it to yourself either.

Also, consider reaching out for professional help. Talking to a counselor or therapist can provide you with tools to manage these feelings and start seeing yourself in a more positive light.

In the meantime, try to do something small each day that makes you feel good or at least a bit better. This could be listening to your favorite song, taking a walk, or watching a show you like. Little steps can make a big difference over time.

Remember, you are not alone, and it's okay to ask for help. You are worthy of kindness, especially from yourself.

Hey 👋

Wow, that's a really big mess.. I mean the whole situation.. and I get why you feel this way.

And because there's all this mess in your head you feel like everybody hates you too.

Ugh, I feel you buddy 🥺 but that's why we're here for you : we help each other even if not all of us are listeners, but since we can relate to some bad stuff we try to support each other.

When we have a bad time we tend to just blame our selves and sometimes, depending on the situation of each individual, it tends to ruin our mental state.

We start to think we're crazy, that we're useless, that everybody thinks what we think about ourselves (in this case you said that people seem to be kind but they're faking it) to a point that we fall in this kind of mental void in which we are.

Now I understand it's hard to trust people, and I'm telling you as a person who still struggles nowadays but yet as humans we cannot hide in our little house forever! Also, remember that the world has 4 billions of people from different mentalities and cultures and that we're all different.

If you suddenly met all of this people at once, believe me or not, some of them would have fallen in love with the person you are.

People don't see you as you see yourself.

Andthis can be seen as both a good thing and a bad thing. But it's not valid only for you, it's valid for me, for celebrities, for friends, for people in general.

Also each one of us, INCLUDED YOU MY FRIEND 🧡, have qualities.

You're not pathetic to me, or pointless and ect...

Low self-esteem can be tiring sometimes, I know.

And can lead you to think bad stuff about yourself.

And it makes your insecurity raise up.

Don't think that my friend! We don't hate you, otherwise we wouldn't be here answering to this thread.

Or at least honestly answering.

I get it is hard to you to understand this, but one day you'll get it.

I'm not a psychotherapist or anything, but since I've been though self hate as well, I would like to share with you a tactic that made me feel less heavy and it's like a way to "reset" your emotions.

1° method : Take a piece of paper, write down EVERYTHING that hurt you, any kind of thought, it doesn't matter what it is, in the end it's a thing between you and yourself.

Then with a black pen or pencil scribble it all down, crumple the paper and try to crumple it by force, then tear it into a thousand pieces and throw it away.

When ruining the piece of paper, remember to let it all out.

Say to your bad feeling/thoughts that YOU are greater than its

darkness, that is affecting your mental health. You are not perfect, nobody is, but Depression, dark thoughts and sadness are INFERIOR than YOU. Because YOU know YOU'RE BETTER THAN THESE.

Whatever you did in the past is gone, it doesn't matter and is over.

(don't always do this because wasting paper isnt the best)

2° method : take a note and write down a summery of the day, how it was like, what you felt during the day, and if you can make a planning for the next day.

I hope this was helpful. ❤️

Remember to never under-estimate yourself.

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Bro hit me Up when you get the chance. I got you.

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