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Nicole | 17 | 🇮🇹 | Loves books 📖 and skateboarding 🛹 | Christian ✝️ | Car Enthusiastic ❤️🚙


Just remember to never blame yourself over other people. You're not responsible for their actions.


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☘️Quotes ~
7 Cups Online Therapy / by NickyYayUwU
Last post
 December 13th
...See more What is the quote you live the most and the one that describes you or you can see yourself in lately? Mine comes from a handwork by an ancient Greek poet, namely Sappho. Although it's not complete, the quote that is in my heart lately and in which I see myself is the following: "But everything can be endured" ~ 🩹❤️‍🩹 It comes from a story in which the lesbian poet talks about her love towards a girl who is talking to a boy, yet the poet is in love with the girl and she screams her jealousy and pain in this handiwork. This quote means a lot to me because I feel like everyone gets in a certain situation that feels like it sucks you alive, it drives you into a deep state of pain (moth emotional and physical).. But in the end, I always tell myself "I am stronger than this. I can bear this.." and this quote is the one in which I found myself in. See ya 😊
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Quotes ♡
Journals & Diaries / by NickyYayUwU
Last post
 December 13th
...See more What is the quote you live the most and the one that describes you or you can see yourself in lately? Mine comes from a handwork by an ancient Greek poet, namely Sappho. Although it's not complete, the quote that is in my heart lately and in which I see myself is the following: "But everything can be endured" ~ 🩹❤️‍🩹 It comes from a story in which the lesbian poet talks about her love towards a girl who is talking to a boy, yet the poet is in love with the girl and she screams her jealousy and pain in this handiwork. This quote means a lot to me because I feel like everyone gets in a certain situation that feels like it sucks you alive, it drives you into a deep state of pain (moth emotional and physical).. But in the end, I always tell myself "I am stronger than this. I can bear this.." and this quote is the one in which I found myself in. See ya 😊
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Is he trying to be my friend or is he flirting? I'm afraid of falling for him again
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 June 12th
...See more "I'm afraid of falling for him again and start suffering all over again" I said when that happened. Now, I hate staring my thread like romantic/dramatic books so I'll explain quickly what's up. ____________________________________________________________ Introduction Since the first year of highschool ( in Italy we have 5 years) I fell for a boy who became my classmates the next year. If I told you how I crushed for this guy, you're call me crazy or even patheyic....or psychopath. This crush melted as soon as, always during the second year of hs, I got to know by some that he was "dating" a girl. September 2023, third year of highschool, they broke up because he found out she was cheating on him during summer holidays, I kept my head on my studied and I kind of isolate myself from him and my classmates to focus better on my homework (but mostly because I was mad because I got betrayed as well but by a "friend"). The school ended a few days ago, in June 6th. What happened between me and him this year kinda shocked me, mostly from April until now. ____________________________________________________________ This year, this guy which I had a VERY BIG CRUSH ON HIM, started actually noticing me... Or better, in the second year I felt like my presence bothered him : he almost never talked to me or looked at me ect. He never greeted me. This year, anytime I'd enter the classroom, he'd greet me, and so I did, but each day it was becoming more talkative, if you know what I mean. For example, one day I went to my class (which was still empty) so I could study Arts because we had a test that day. A few minutes later there he is who greets me (and so I did) and starts questioning me, maybe for curiosity, if the teacher would've tested me orally and if I was ready. I told him that I was studying because of the test (which was not oral) and then we kinda talked for a while.... Then, moving on, things got interesting... During P.E. he would always compliment my skill. If we played volleyball and I randomly "saved" the balk from touching the ground, he would go like "NICE OONE, NICOLE" (yes, my name's Nicole), or If I randomly started running pass him, he would say "ZIUUM" as a supercar passed by if you know what I mean... What even shocked me the most, this was a recent one, is that he CHOSE ME OVER HIS FRIEND WHEN HE HAD TO CREATE A SQUAD FOR, I think handball if I'm not wrong? He said when chosing "Hmm, I'm looking at (his friend's name) but I'm choosing Nicole instead". Another event that happened, which is the one that got me doubting, was the kiss he sent me. My teacher had to test me orally that day, and he randomly called me by my name and asked me if she was going to test me that day (considering that he knew she was gonna call me that day..) so I replied yes, and he blew me a kiss in front of everyone. I couldn't stop blushing of course. Then , GOD HE GOT CRAZIER. HESTARTED GREETING ME AS A FRIEND LIKE "SUP NICOLE: EVERYTIME I PASSED BY HIM, THEN AGAIN HE STOPPED THE TEACHER'S LESSON (ALTHOUGH IT WAS OVER ALREADY" AND CHEERED ME WHILE CLAPPING HIS HANDS AND SAID "WELL JOB NICOLE!! WELL DONE" WHILE SMILING...(CONSIDER THAT I HAD DONE NOTHING AT ALL AND EVERYBODY STARTED STARING AT ME AND SMILING) Oh and much more stuff happened, but this thread would be endless If I made a list of the things he "ironically" said to me, so I'm gonna add just one more detail and then there will be a question for you all reading this. The last day of school our english teacher asked us to write down anonymously on a piece of paper which classmate made you happy, has supported you or made you feel surprised somehow. I wrote down that there was a person in the classroom who made me feel soo happy this year and surprised me quite a lot (since the previous year I was like I didn't exist for him) yet in the paper I didn't want to say who this person was, and I literally wrote this thing down. When the teacher read all the message, this guy (my "ex"crush) said "aww" as if he knew I wrote it and I was talking about him. Now, I don't know what to think actually. It makes me soo excited thinking that my crush is trying to be my friend or even flirting. On the other hand, this is creeping me out. Not him, but myself. If he wants to be my friend, there will be no way that I won't fall for him again like I did before, and I don't want to end up suffering. But, good thing is that if he becomes my friend then I might confess all to him later. But according to you is he trying to be my friend or is he flirting? Any tips for calming me down cause this school year ended up pretty well and I don't want to mess up everything again. I'd like to be his friend if he wants to, but I fear myself. Thanks again for your attention ♡
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~ Your therapy matters💚☕️ What's yours?
General Support / by NickyYayUwU
Last post
 April 15th
...See more Everyone has their own way to escape from anxiety or simply a way to fulfill empty moments with something he/she enjoys, like cleaning a room, having a fancy shower, reading books in a certain aesthetic, and ect...with the so called therapy. (it cn turn into a habit too🤭) What's your therapy? ☕️🌇 I'll tell you mine in the meanwhile. My therapy is : - Having fancy showers and drown myself into the most fragrant cosmetics/shampoo's - Skincare - As a car enthusiast, I LOVE cars. I really enjoy car shows, movies, and f1 too ♡ - Organising books and getting ready for study/ buy more stationery items that I need (it really relaxes me to go shopping books, stationery or simply other things I need/like) - Making a "rewind" of the day : on a notebook, I write down every day how I felt during the day, what happened and what made me uncomfortable if there was something so I can see what I need to work on. Next thing I do is also put a motivative quote to always give me force and motivation.
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Social anxiety and alexinomia
Anxiety Support / by NickyYayUwU
Last post
 April 27th
...See more I'm tired of not being able to even say "Thank you" when somebody at highschool compliments me. I wish I could talk like I'd like to, but I can't. I feel locked inside my own body. Even calling people by their name feels weird to me. I feel like when I'll call them I'll trip in my words or I'll start babbling and I fear mispronuncing their name although I do know how to do it. I feel like I would've had many more friends if only I could get out of this anxiety, this internal block, and be myself and not overthink about anything. Does somebody have any tips on how to overcome this and if you did overcome or went through something like this, how did you manage to solve this problem? Thank you, I really need tips because I'm too afraid of talking to a therpist in person....Oh well, I guess now you know why.. 🤷‍♀️
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Car enthusiasm
General Support / by NickyYayUwU
Last post
 December 3rd
...See more Are there some car enthusiasts who would like to share what's their dream car? 🙃
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"I can't take it anymore"
7 Cups Online Therapy / by NickyYayUwU
Last post
 February 16th
...See more "I had promised myself, I wouldn't have shed a tear this new scholastic pentamester.." Hi, today something extremely embarassing happened to me: Me and two of my classmates got orally tested in the philosophy subject. I had studied a whole day the previous day, yet I haven't got anything back. Or better, I got Lied to. When a teacher asks you multiple questions, there's a higher chance of succeeding in an oral test. Since we were there students being tested, she asked many questions to a guy which I'm going to call "A", and the guy next to me, which I'll call "B", didn't know much apparently and messed up many times. What happened, you may think? A, which is the guy who got millions of questions, got a nice grade (it was not a 10/10 not even a A+++) but succeeded in responding to a few questions. B, which was close to me, kind of struggled in responding to questions the teacher asked him. When he didn't know a thing, I would raise up my finger, so that the teacher would notice the fact I knew the answer to that question and maybe, if she only let me respond, I would've helped him. If she ONLY let me respond...which didn't happen. It was my turn to be interviewed, and she asked me a question she had asked to B, which I had responded to already (the only moment she let me talk) because B didn't know the answer to it. So yeah, after a few, she decided to ask me the EXACT same question, but with different words: she had articulated the phrase so much, that I couldn't understand what she meant. I asked her to repeat it, I told her I couldn't understand what she meant, yet she asked me only two questions. In the end, I had studied a whole book, my whole exercise book with all the notes I took from each lessons, spent a whole afternoon studying....for then get interviewed on only two miserable questions about a stuff that we didn't even conclude. She never let other students know what grade they have gotten, but SOMEHOW this time she decided to let us KNOW in front of other what grade she would've gave us. Both A and B got nice grades (B BARELY ANSWERED TO HER QUESTIONS) and I...heh...I got a disgusting grade. At the end of the lesson I waited for everybody to quit the classroom for then break up in tears in front of the teacher (because I have been holding in too much not because I meant to, I hate crying) I hate the most (aka her) and ask if my grade was sufficient or not (because before she didn't tell me if it was a sufficient grade or not, she simply made a face as if she wanted to say "what the f have you done...") She came up to me and started talking as if I was an enfant (which made me feel like an idiot) and started hugging me (because she tends to kiss on the head, hug, and touch students which makes me UNCOMFORTABLE). I obviously didn't hug her back and I tried to stop crying but I couldn't. Also, I know I might sound weird, but I hate hugs after this situations mostly from people who hurt me. Anyway, she told me I would "get a better grade and all I had to do was just trust in myself and on HER" Haha...PUT MY TRUST IN HER? AFTER THAT EMBARRASSING SCENE?? AFTER HURTING ME?? AFTER HURTING OTHER STUDENTS PREVIOUSLY??? YEP, SURE, SHE WILL DEFINITELY SEE ME PUTTING ALL MY TRUST IN HER... I went home crying, told my mother the whole situation, and then I checked multiple time the electronic school register where she would've put the grade. Remember when she told me my grade was sufficient? 😂😂😂 Yeah...There was a 5.5 out of 10, which is equal to a C- / F I've been lied to :) And now I'm also blaming myself how I couldn't just escape from that situation, when I felt the crying come, instead of staying there like an idiot and wait till everybody left the classroom for THEN embarass myself like that..It corrodes my organs just thinking about it. Crying is normal, everybody in my classroom did cry once, but I don't know when it comes to me, I feel like a total idiot. I still feel that way, I feel like a failure, I feel like I can't hold in anything anymore : I can't control strong feelings, it bother me A LOT THIS THING. And it's not the first time...Lately I've been bursting out in tear because I'm really trying hard, seriously, I AM, and I'm spending days and days to then get nothing in return. I know there's time to fix grades, the school ends in June, but I had promised myself that this year I wouldn't get a bad grade. I had promised myself I would be motivated, which I'm basically not that much, yet I'm trying hard SO MUCH. I had promised myself I wouldn't cry like this anymore. I had promised myself I wouldn't suffer like this anymore.
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My birthday was ruined by her..
General Support / by NickyYayUwU
Last post
 February 3rd
...See more Hey there, today (February 2nd) it's my 17th birthday and since I don't have much friends and my relatives are very far away from here, my birthday wasn't very brilliant. Yet, I enjoyed the fact that my mother (and her/mine relatives) and one of my closest friends wished me a good day and a happy birthday. ♡ Although something destroyed my day. A week ago at school we had a test (about philosophy) in which we had to respond to some questions about Socrates' arrest. Anyway, I had studied very hard and waited for the results very anxiously. Today our philosophy teacher brought us back our tests. My classmates weren't perfect but their grade was right enough to satisfy them. Except for two girls. And one of them was me. I was the one who got the worst grade ever. I went home crying like heL L and screaming.. Yet, my mother calmed me down and took me later during the evening to a pizzeria to calm myself down and not think about it. It was one of the worst birthdays ever, also because in my classroom nobody told me "happy birthday" like the previous year (maybe because I used to talk a bit more) but also, I didn't remind them it was my day today because reminding them is just forced to me. So yeah, I'm a bit disappointed/sad... I know this may sound forced as well, but do you mind just wishing me a happy birthday to cheer me up? If you can obviously, as I said I don't want to force nobody. It's ok if you don't want to. Bless y'all and thanks for reading this :( ♡
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