Breaking up with my therapist
I have decided to end things up with my therapist, I have been seeing her for a year and a half and I feel I'm stuck. My main reason for leaving her is that I feel she doesn't understand how important some details are for me to be comfortable in therapy. I looked in a *** group of my city for therapists and I asked for 3 things, the therapist must be a woman as I am, to be near my house (I live in the very huge and traffic full Mexico City), and to always be presential. She reached out, she worked about 20 minutes awy from my house so it feel close enough, and she was working in person (this was a moment when some quarantine regulations were in place, so many people offered online services). For a while it worked very good, I even accepted to to see her in an another location (almost 2 hours away from my house) when covid numbers went up and our usual spot had to close, but when I requested to go back she accepted immediatly.
The real problem started like 6 months ago, when the person responsible for the space we used decided to kick her out, supossedly because of the mess her children patients had done (which is a horrible reason to kick her out btw, but has nothing to do with me). She told me she would look for another spot nearby and in the meantime we could meet in the 2 hour away place, which sound fine, but then time passed and she never mentioned that other new place and when i asked she told me the only option was to charge me more to meet close to my house, I told her that was not an option, but seeing her so far away was also incovenient because I spent a lot in gas, and lost 4 hours in the commute, I got upset and I imagine she noticed, but I also didn't liked how she responded because she told me she usually charges double and that basically she was doing me a 50% discount, I believe this to be a lie, and of course it upset me more, I am really bad at confrontation, so I settled and accepted taking online sessions, and once in a while taking them in person in the far far away place.
I don't like taking online sessions because my house is super little and my boy friend has to hide in the bedroom with earphones, and because we are in the middle of a lawsuit with the woman that lives in other of the houses of this place, because she wants to take my house away, and I have the feeling that you can hear across the walls, obviously my therapist know this, it's one of the main reasons i take therapy but somehow she don't seem to care. She is also always moving the day and time of the sessions, she offers me hours I cannot take because of my job schedule eventhough I have told her a million of times what are my available hours, and I feel that I have been over comprehensive with her, I have sacrificed my comfort in favor of hers because of my fear to confrontation, and I am pretty sure that's not how therapy should work.
I am dreading telling her, but I have stand enough.