General Support Weekly Check-in 💕

Its a good few days of my independent projects and me time. I made my first infographic *** video! :D. Im happy enough. Maybe listening to preaching, and continue on project. Arrange tieguodun dinner. Invite who yah. Not sure. Don't really care tho.

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Finally, I can share some Highs on forums. I'm so grateful for this week. Valentines day was especially great(even tho I had no valentine). I passed so many hard exams and I reunited with some of my close friends! It's all been such a blessing and I could finally say that I'm happy, so hopefully it will last. 💕

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My week had some highs and some very strange lows where I keep running into people who were acting very strange. I also haven't been sleeping very well this week.

For instance, I was on my way to the bus this morning when I passed a man at a gas station while I was on my way to the nearest bus stop. Being that I didn't get much sleep, he started trying to talk to me and I didn't want to be bothered. In fact, he followed me all the way to the bus stop but he left after I firmly asked him, "What...do...you...want?"

The high of this week has been just being able to be more positive in terms of practicing gratitude and laughing more with people. I think my mood has been increasing since I’ve started my gratitude journal However, the lows of this week have been when I was fighting with my boyfriend, and I felt really lonely and unsupported and pressured to support another person. It was difficult trying to figure out and navigate my negative thoughts during that time but I’m glad I was able to sort it out without needing to problem solve but to just have a more positive outlook the trust that I have in my relationship with my boyfriend.

@Ninziesss My week has been a rollercoaster of emotions. Finally joined 7cups to get some help after my feelings have spiraled out of control. I'm slowly feeling better though!

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Highs - attending new writing and peer support groups, working on myself, following my heart and letting go of the past.

Lows - criticism, attacks, anxiety and illness.

Prettyok, even tho I feel really down rn. Woke up in an anxiety haze. Looking for a new job sucks can't seem to find anything I really like tho I'm trying

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sending my gayness your way

@Ninziesss Well I submitted my second to last assignment for my second online course. A couple co-workers say I'm inspiring especially with all the other things I have going on.

But, today, I think I got in trouble at work again. I got talked to by a lead. She wanted to show me what she had done on a report. There was some activity that I didn't put in and she did. I didn't know I was supposed to. I've been doing it the way I was told. But I should have known that things had changed. I have to be clairvoyant about these sorts of things apparently. I was expecting to have management send me an email or something about the incident especially since the lead went into the manager's office shortly after the fact but I have heard nothing from them. I wasn't rude to the person or anything. But it's my fault. Disregard the fact that over 90% of the time I have multiple things going on at the same time, there is little to no communication between management, leads, and the regular people, and that I spend a good portion of my time fixing client profiles because of the aforementioned lack of communication...

I will be so glad when I get my degree completed and can move on from this company.