I wish I could tell everybody that...
I keep thinking that im a failure .
Im a college student with no future.
adulthood scares me
i don't know what to prepare for it.
im stupid and a worthless
when my colleagues are eagerly studying and pushing themselves to be a better version of them .
i shut myself at home. Doing absolutely nothing.
im a disgrace.
how i wish i can just disappear.
@Ardshf you'll be surprised how not alone in these feelings you are. All these people you see that put on a show when really they are just as scared. Come on all of us millennials you really think we got it all figured out? Haha nope. I don't. All I know is you can't give up. Take a step back, meditate, push those thoughts away and then come back only focusing on the things in your immediate sphere of control.
You don't give up and I won't either. Because the future could be crazier then you think, in a good way :)
@JordanStriven thanks. I appreciate it
I wish I could tell everybody that I have clinical depression, and they'd understand, that clinical depression doesn't make it better by saying: "Think about something nice." And that they wont fire me, cause they are scared I'd freak out in front of customers, because I dont.
They did this to me.
Hey YOU stop for a second, you know what? You are strong and you will get through all the bad times you expierinced and through the bad things that you're going through now, never give up on yourself because you are wonderful, you're perfect the way you are and if people don't know that or say something about you that hurts you, they just know that you're a better person than they ever will be. So you not worth it to let yourself break by these people because they not worth it to have such a special person like you. Love yourself, everything about you I know it sounds hard to believe but that's how it is and think about it without your strenghts, weaknesses or habbits you wouldn't be you and that would be so sad Because i know deep in my heart everyone of you is a Great personality. So don't give up before the fight actually begins :).
@ChibiNekoYumi19 what if all they did was lie and 1 single lie breaks the possibility of me ever trusting anyone ever again?????....
@alexaners7734 i know what you mean I expierinced the same your not alone but never give up, there are people out there you can trust even if it takes a long time you need to learn to trust again and you can trust me it's really not easy and my wounds of people breaking my trust are still healing and still it hurts badly. I take your time and I hope you try it sometime you're ready and you will find people that you've never thought of and who you can trust if you give them the chance to show you that they love you and care about. please don't give up, i know how you feel and I'm sorry it hurts, let me hug you *hugs* you are wonderful never forget that and I'm sure you will find the right way to come over these Bad expierinces :)
I've stayed sober for almost 4 years without AA.
@spasticrabbit
Impressive! That's truly impressive! Keep going! I mean getting through anything with therapy and counceling is already hard enough, doing it on your own is just brilliant!
I wish I could tell everyone how really bogged down I feel with my chronic depression and that yes I always feel like this and hide it from others . That I long to see the day I wake up without the cloak of doom hold me down so fiercely. I wish I could scream that my life is half over and I have been miserable for over half of it. And then I would say sorry.
I have bipolar and anxiety. As well as the fact i was raised very differant and had to be a little mother to my siblings from the time i was 5 and this has forever shaped me.
Life has challenges but it's worth living. Your depression or any other diagnosis doesn't define who you are. You matter and are worthy of love and respect. 😍
I don't know what's real and what's not.
I make up stories (lie) and start to believe them.
I really miss my doctor. He moved away.
I also dream and fantasize to make myself feel better.....
But then I realize it can never be true and i end up feeling even worse than before.
it sucks
When 1 person breaks my trust... It makes me reconsider trusting anyone...
Therefore, don't take it personally just let me sort through the liars and fake people myself.