I wish I could tell everybody that...
i wish i could tell everyone the reasons why i find it so hard to ask for help
@EllieKB yeah me too because i hate to listen to no.
I might be bi and I want to slef harm
@Mersh I was there before, many years ago. I felt confused and lost until I assumed my sexuality to close friends, I came out of the closet last year. My parents still not approve but because I kept going I met wonderfuk people. I used to harm myself too, sometimes I still do but... on the long run, it's not worth it and we are still lovely creatures, perfect in our own way. Be strong.
@Mersh
If you want to talk about it , I'm always here 
That I've had the most fucked thoughts since I was 7 and that I really cannot stand myself in a physical and mental sense and I wanna throw up in social situations and I have some unhealthy habits which I cannot tell anyone about because they will hate me for it. I just wanna die but ha I only help others because I don't want to be a burden
@Purpledevil98 that even i can be sad.
I'm deeply hurting inside and I cannot accept myself and I just want to give up.
that i self harm and some days i want to die
I have severe depression and jokes about it and self harm aren't funny
@vairean
I agree that self harm jokes aren't funny.
I've just started self harming. Nothing makes me happy anymore and I feel empty.
i was sexually abuse as a kid and i still cant deal with it some days. a secret ive had to live with
@GDilbert93
I'm sorry that your past had something that awful in it. It was not your fault no matter what the circumstances were or situation(s) that may have lead to it. I hope you are able to find people you trust to confide more in. I may not have had same experience but I do know what it's like to not feel safe in the same room with someone I used to think was trustable and how estranged it can make one feel to not get responses from others I hoped for in noticing or understanding when I tried to explain the extent of why I felt unsafe. I hope also that you are in a safe space right now and aren't expected by family to maintain connections that are painful in any way, because they'd be wrong. You have the right to protect yourself and not feel like you have to make others happy by waiving that right to feel safe.
It was really hard when I had to explain myself when I told someone why I was avoiding someone else specific so that expectation would stop as well (had to write it down so it would sound right without getting too worked up and thankfully email helped me not have to speak it in person because I doubt I'd have said anything if email didn't exist)...but it was worth it because after speaking up I felt more able to breath and less like a huge weight was sapping all my energy being bottled up.
Mindfulness exercises help remind me if I start feeling worried or have unpleasant thoughts that seem persistant I don't have to fight with the feelings or thoughts before they pass and they usually become less and less persistant as I'm more able to focus.
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That I feel alone even amongst friends and family.